Well, I suppose we should expect the great Tumblr hammer to come down on us kinksters in just a couple days. From my understanding it’s posts, not users, that’ll get wiped out, so I guess I’ll keep this blog up until they drag me kicking and screaming away.
In truth, my interest in Tumblr has waned considerably over the past several months, taken by other things and platforms, which has somewhat tempered my disappointment and rage about this whole situation. Plus I’m not much of an original content guy; apart from the odd collage which I’ve probably had an ethical crisis about and deleted by now anyway. But I’m still so angry for my friends who used Tumblr as the place for their writing and their art. It’s a profoundly stupid loss, and huge inconvenience at the very least.
I am thankful, though, to have stumbled up on this size Tumblr community in 2016 or whenever it happened. Truthfully, I cannot at all remember how I got here! I think maybe I stumbled in from my kinky-but-not-microphile-kinky Tumblr blog.
Anyway, I’d been well aware of this as my primary kink for more than a decade before that -- had been through members.aol.com sites, Yahoo Groups, whatever random video clips on sketchy offbrand Youtubes (that in hindsight were pirated, sorry), of course the Giantess City boards. Each one maybe scratched that itch but the communities were always hopelessly offputting and full up with socially inept men. The good news was, I wasn’t the only person who had this inexplicable desire in the back of their head as long as they could remember ... the bad news was, this wasn’t a club I wanted to be a member of.
That all changed when I found the community here. There were decent, literate men! There were women at all! There was a shared interest in how we get our rocks off but also a basic humanity and pleasantness that I hadn’t ever found before. For the first time, I felt like talking to other people who had my kink.
I’ve had really great, interesting, not-strictly-sexual conversations with dozens of people here!
I’ve met at least one person in real dang life from here!
And I have Tumblr to thank -- the platform more than the dumb tech execs who run it, sure -- for finding this community, and feeling good about my sexuality for...probably the first time.
Tumblr wasn’t perfect. It’s been buggy forever and the app never works the way I wanted it to. Archives beyond the current dash were always a struggle. And even in this community, I still often felt confused and outsider-y, for reasons @elamantemenguante put more eloquently than me in his great eulogy:
Some of it seemed a bit foreign to me. I was puzzled by how many creators preferred to make size art and fiction out of pre-existing fandoms, despite their lack of relation to traditional size fantasy genres. Then there were the size fans who insisted their fantasies were completely non-sexual and bitterly (if understandably) resisted any association with size smut.
If anyone on the damn planet is into the triad of size kink and fantasy European soccer and hunting for old punk records on vinyl, hit up your boy.
Anyway, these are small nitpicks compared to the overarching community I found here. Thanks for reading this, thanks for ever talking to me.
I don’t know what Tumblr’s real plan is here -- maybe it’s the draconian FOSTA/SESTA laws (which, by the way, Democrats happily supported, I’ll remind you), maybe it’s kneeling at the feet of Apple which has always been hopelessly puritanical (wonder what depraved kinks Steve Jobs was into), maybe it’s just that they’re too dim to properly deal the real problems this platform faces and it’s just easier to toss out the consensual, harmless kinksters too. Won’t be the last time, I’m afraid, and whatever the internet kink equivalent to pirate radio is, I’d be happy to hear it. Maybe it’s just a good business move for Tumblr, though frankly, I deleted my non-porn Tumblr four or five years ago and haven’t thought of this platform otherwise since then. Word on the street is that their pornhunting algorithm is so hopelessly bad that it’s going to run all the perfectly normal SFW blogs. Great work, Silicon Valley.
To end on a happier note, I’m thinking of a thing @mightytinygiant said some time ago about embracing size kink on here, that resonates even more with me now:
I feel like I’m really falling down the rabbit hole, wondering if I could ever stuff these feelings back in the bag now that they’re loose.
If nothing else I have a clarity and a mostly-happy acceptance now that I didn’t before. That’s what is making me not want to give up on this community entirely, but more importantly it makes me feel better in real life, too.
If you’d like to stay in touch, I’m @marino3000 on Twitter and marino3000#8418 on Discord, and I’ll probably pop up on whatever platform gets picked by smarter internet kinksters than me.
