Ok, so I’m trying to get better about being personal and tapping into the fact that I’m a human (albeit emotionally unavailable and self centered).
Janet and I are going to New Jersey on Sunday to table at a convention. Janet is a pro at this and described it as a con aimed at a more fan-art crowd than original content. I’ve never really made fan art. One time when I was a kid I made my own version of pokémon cards with my siblings which was so stupid and great. But I think I felt like making fan art lacked artistic merit. Maybe that also stems from my fine art background.
When approaching this, I was forced to figure out what I was even a fan of. I mean, there’s a lot. But like, what TRULY resonated with me. And I went with Digimon because that was the thing that I loved the most as a kid. Our school bus dropped us at home after Digimon aired (around 3:00pm) so a woman from church would record the episodes on a VHS and every Sunday my siblings and I would get 5 episodes. We’d come home from church, eat lunch, then while my parents napped, we’d gather around the living room TV and binge episodes.
Patamon and TK were my favorite. Maybe it’s because I felt like I related to that helpless feeling of being a child. I remember playing on the Port Orange Elementary playground and wishing I had a digimon companion, just so I would have a friend to play with. Digimon felt like an extension of yourself, which really appealed to me.
When everyone else had failed to defend File Island and it was TK and Patamon who were able to pull through and defeat Devimon it was super emotional. I remember thinking that faith and courage were traits that would ultimately save the day. Adulthood sucks, but I have courage and faith that when the time comes, I can rise to the challenge. And I’m a fan of THAT.