@marztovenus - Tumblr Blog

that one post is goin around but I figure i may as well make my own post and pin it too

hi im currently homeless and couchsurfin again, multiply mentally and physically disabled and completely financially dependent and have been as such for the last year since i got layed off. any money thrown my way helps me on my path to regain stability and independence <3. u can toss somethin my way on my paypal (venusstars) or my cashapp (kingsnakefemme)

much luv <3

marztovenus

just wanted to add that im in this situation cuz an older man manipulated me into trustin and relyin on him and exploited my trauma and disabilities in order to psychologically and financially abuse me for nine months and I literally had to flee from where i was couchsurfin with him to where I am now so I wouldnt b on the street

marztovenus

hey i would luv if even one person actually gave enough of a shit to help me. im livin in an environment with an alcoholic man that really triggers my ptsd and the more help I get, the sooner I can get my life back on track

moldavite

graveyard keeper

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"valentine's cake!" (2009), the wandering witch girl

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waspdaily

Today's wasp of the day is Ropalidia saussurei!

Credits: photo 1, photo 2

Most other wasps that have green on them are not a true green, and instead only appear green due to what is called "structural color"— the micro-make up and surface of the scales reflect light to make it appear that color as opposed to true pigment, which is a chemical mix that results in the color. This is why so many green wasps (and birds for that matter) have a metallic sheen to them, as the angle the light hits at will also effect the perceived color.

There are only a handful of wasp species with true green pigment, the majority of which can only be found in Madagascar.

marztovenus

ik I am takin the steps but I really hate it and am miserable here and am hopeless of anythin gettin any better under my aunt and her bfs roof

marztovenus

its cuz my whole life is yet again subject to someone else's whims and such. like. ik I have made progress in the.... like four and a half months ive been here but that progress hasn't had any payoff for me yet. even havin a np and a psychiatrist and a therapist and medication now is like well.... the lyrica hasn't started workin, the lamotragine hasn't started workin, I can only go to therapy on the one day a week someone else has off their job and if it doesn't work with my schedule or my therapists schedule, I just dont get to go to therapy that week. I dont have my license and my ability to even take my road test is restricted to whenever my little cousin happens to make the three hour drive up here and thats provided her, me and my aunt all have the time. then I finally get this job and they fuck up my onboardin and it turns out im not in the system and im not on the schedule and blah blah blah wtfever so now my first check is gonna b a paper one and i might get it tomorrow, I might get it the next day, I might get it next week, nobody knows. I have no money, I depend on my aunt and her bf for everythin- food (tho my foodshare money goes to them for some reason. none of us understand why.), rides, whatever i may need.

marztovenus

oh also I am basically the third (half the time their second, dependin on whether their fathers drunk enough to piss the bed) parent and am available for childcare of a two, a three and an eleven year old for 13+ hours a day on my days off, which i desperately need to recuperate from the days I work now cuz I am Severely Disabled and cannot refuse cuz itd create conflict and consequences for me and my aunt would say it's fine but it wouldnt functionally b fine. and when I do start gettin my checks, theyre gonna start expectin to recieve part of it which like. yeah, ik I should b contributin but how tf am I ever supposed to leave if im givin em my money!! I need outta here!!

marztovenus

ive been late for work twice in my first two weeks btw cuz my aunt won't Get The Fuck Outta Bed in time

marztovenus

ik I am takin the steps but I really hate it and am miserable here and am hopeless of anythin gettin any better under my aunt and her bfs roof

marztovenus

its cuz my whole life is yet again subject to someone else's whims and such. like. ik I have made progress in the.... like four and a half months ive been here but that progress hasn't had any payoff for me yet. even havin a np and a psychiatrist and a therapist and medication now is like well.... the lyrica hasn't started workin, the lamotragine hasn't started workin, I can only go to therapy on the one day a week someone else has off their job and if it doesn't work with my schedule or my therapists schedule, I just dont get to go to therapy that week. I dont have my license and my ability to even take my road test is restricted to whenever my little cousin happens to make the three hour drive up here and thats provided her, me and my aunt all have the time. then I finally get this job and they fuck up my onboardin and it turns out im not in the system and im not on the schedule and blah blah blah wtfever so now my first check is gonna b a paper one and i might get it tomorrow, I might get it the next day, I might get it next week, nobody knows. I have no money, I depend on my aunt and her bf for everythin- food (tho my foodshare money goes to them for some reason. none of us understand why.), rides, whatever i may need.

marztovenus

oh also I am basically the third (half the time their second, dependin on whether their fathers drunk enough to piss the bed) parent and am available for childcare of a two, a three and an eleven year old for 13+ hours a day on my days off, which i desperately need to recuperate from the days I work now cuz I am Severely Disabled and cannot refuse cuz itd create conflict and consequences for me and my aunt would say it's fine but it wouldnt functionally b fine. and when I do start gettin my checks, theyre gonna start expectin to recieve part of it which like. yeah, ik I should b contributin but how tf am I ever supposed to leave if im givin em my money!! I need outta here!!

marztovenus

ik I am takin the steps but I really hate it and am miserable here and am hopeless of anythin gettin any better under my aunt and her bfs roof

marztovenus

its cuz my whole life is yet again subject to someone else's whims and such. like. ik I have made progress in the.... like four and a half months ive been here but that progress hasn't had any payoff for me yet. even havin a np and a psychiatrist and a therapist and medication now is like well.... the lyrica hasn't started workin, the lamotragine hasn't started workin, I can only go to therapy on the one day a week someone else has off their job and if it doesn't work with my schedule or my therapists schedule, I just dont get to go to therapy that week. I dont have my license and my ability to even take my road test is restricted to whenever my little cousin happens to make the three hour drive up here and thats provided her, me and my aunt all have the time. then I finally get this job and they fuck up my onboardin and it turns out im not in the system and im not on the schedule and blah blah blah wtfever so now my first check is gonna b a paper one and i might get it tomorrow, I might get it the next day, I might get it next week, nobody knows. I have no money, I depend on my aunt and her bf for everythin- food (tho my foodshare money goes to them for some reason. none of us understand why.), rides, whatever i may need.

ik I am takin the steps but I really hate it and am miserable here and am hopeless of anythin gettin any better under my aunt and her bfs roof