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I FOUND A CUTE PICREW
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but here’s mine :)
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Hello everyone! I'm not dead...! However, I had to leave unexpectedly my social networks to focus entirely on my exams.
It's been a difficult period, and I've barely been there despite trying to, but I'm so happy I I finally say I'm back...! Although I do say that a lot, I admit it...
I'll try to write the next chapter of "Seeking" now, and resume the reblog of the older ones...!
Thank you for being patient, and thank you for still being there despite the fact I was there so little...!
Chapter 4: To exist (Part 6)
Warnings: mention of drugs
Author notes: debate about how I depicted Yōko’s condition in the 4th part is opened! More seriously, this is one long part, but I hope you’ll like it. To be honest, that part was the one which made me so nervous about the chapter… Don’t hesitate to give me your opinion! Also, I realised I liked reblogs too! ^^
It was night when I woke up. The first thing I noticed in the darkness was the thing pressed onto my face. An oxygen mask. It was not there before. Had my body tried to give up on me again? After all, I was not supposed to be alive… And Lord was I thirsty. The tips of my fingers moved and I looked for the pager to call the nurse, who fortunately was never far from the infirmary. She turned on a small light and came to the side of my bed. I pointed to the breathing machine.
“Your oxygen saturation suddenly dropped while you were sleeping… Your body still needs to recover from the overdose, after all… Not to mention that nasty pneumonia… Hopefully, you are fine.” She explained.
“I…” My voice was husky, but I could talk “What…?”
Morphine overdose…? Pneumonia…? What about my ability…?
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Chapter 4: To exist (Part 5)
Warnings: mention of death
Author notes: quite the short part, the next one will be much longer!
I was floating in the darkness, just like a newborn in his mother’s womb. The pain had disappeared completely, as well as my ability to read people’s thoughts; or was it there was no one around there? I focused, and tried to move my body, but I soon noticed there was no body to move. I was an entity, not a material being, in this space made of emptiness. I did not need to breathe nor eat. I did not need to feel, to see, to hear. Mostly, I did not need to sleep, and this would not kill me, for I was surely already dead. Then, how could I be conscious, if my brain had stopped working? Could it be that it was only a coma? A forever coma would not be all too bad, if it was this relaxing. I roamed around. There was no notion of time in there, I did not know if it had been hours or seconds… I suddenly felt the need to talk, but there was no mouth to move nor vocal chords to pull. The silence was a tad… Overwhelming. And it was cold. I had always grown surrounded by buzzing thoughts, it was complicated for me to get used to hearing nothing, not even my heartbeat. Did I truly want to die…? Or did I just want to leave my pain away, with no other way but death to be freed from my ability? Was there no other choice than giving up the life I had been fighting for, all this time…?
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Chapter 4: To exist (Part 4)
Warnings: use of drugs
Author notes: I did my best to depict her condition but I am not sure it is accurate… Not going to spoil though so we’ll debate that in the 6th part!
I kept the four syringes of morphine for the next morning, enduring the pain all night long without a single moment of rest. There was no point denying it; I was dying. How many days had I left? One? Two? I doubted I would see the end of the week. I was not afraid; death would bring me the peaceful silence I had always craved for, and I would finally close my eyes and lose consciousness, forever, without ever hearing people’s thoughts again. I just hoped there was no afterlife, so I could enjoy the quietness for eternity, comfortably nested in endless darkness. How would Dazai-san react, then? How would he feel, when his weakest subordinate would achieve his own dream, leaving this rotten world once and for all? Would he feel jealous? How I wanted to quit life with a last insolent smirk directed to him.
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Chapter 4: To exist (Part 3)
Warnings: violence, mention of drugs
Author notes: the same warnings apply, as usual. Hope you’ll enjoy!
The clothes I wore were enough to hide the hideous sack of bones my body was; my ribs showed under my thin skin, and my limbs lacked in grease. Nevertheless, I had not felt uncomfortable because of my appearance, a few minutes ago. My superior had not had a single reaction upon seeing a very naked Apollonia on the floor, only one or two weeks earlier, thus I doubted there was anything about me which could trigger his masculine primal instincts. The thing I was most terrified of, when I had seen him, was his reaction upon noticing the morphine. I had not heard him enter, meaning he had come while I was taking a shower and implying he had seen me injecting the product in my vessel. Now, I had to face his anger. The use of drugs was prohibited in the rules Dazai-san had established as an executive, and it had been more than a month that I had broken the said rule. I had lied to him and disobeyed the orders; I had to expect the proper punishment. But once again, I could not understand his thoughts. Why was he there, caring about me as he had explained? Which trap had he set around me? I took a deep breath and came out of the bathroom.
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Chapter 4: To exist (Part 2)
Warnings: addiction, use of drugs and alcohol
Author notes: don’t do this at home. Seriously. Using morphine with alcohol is prohibited! PROHIBITED.
I laid on my bed, staring at the dirty ceiling above me. Each slight movement my limbs made caused the metal to crack sinisterly, and the thin blanket was barely enough to keep me warm. The pitiful room I lived in would never grant me any rest, I feared so… I had never moved, for I spent most of my time in the headquarters or on a mission in Yokohama; having a comfortable place to call home would be a waste of money.
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Chapter 14: Truthful liar (Part 6)
Warnings: mentions of murder and abuse
Author notes: here is the final part of the chapter! I hoped you liked it, and I’ll see you in the next one! In the meantime, the older chapters are being reblogged, so feel free to read them again if you wish! ^^
The large reception hall was filled with the richest and most influential people of both Tokyo and Yokohama, that night. Why, the party given that night was pretty exceptional, and only the privileged one had been invited. There was nothing to celebrate, but these wealthy people thought it was normal to spend money in a luxurious buffet, clothes they would probably wear once in their life, and alcohol they could not even enjoy. I was certain most of them were unable to differentiate between an average bottle of champagne and the best one, but I was not there to judge. Enveloped in a traditional furisode decorated with butterflies, I observed the hall without much interest. I had gone to the party on behalf of Fukuzawa-san, who, as an important member of the famous Agency, had been invited. Thankfully, he had agreed to give me his invitation for the sake of the investigation, saying he was about to refuse anyway. I brought a glass of alcohol to my lips, and sighed. It was boring.
Chapter 4: To exist (Part 1)
Warnings: violence, mentions of drug, addiction
Author notes: I received a punch from someone and decided to hit myself to go back to chapter 4… Here is the result, and I will not shy away! I hope you’ll like it! If not, feedbacks are pretty much welcome!
Notes 2: I this chapter, everything you MUST NOT DO is depicted. I’ll say more in future parts.
I was born on March 30th, which was supposed to be the happiest day of my parents. However, my father was not interested in a useless, weak and sick ability user who could not control her power, and my mother… She was indifferent. As long as I could remember, I had been sequestered in my room, with no company but the butler and my books. My days were morose, and March 30th was never different. I did not exist, my birth had been forgotten by my parents. So, I had never celebrated my birthday. Thus, ever since I had known about my birthdate, I had sung to myself the “Happy birthday” song, a way to cope with the lack of festivities. I had stopped this childish custom on my sixteenth birthday, which I had spent wandering in the shallows of Yokohama.
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Chapter 14: Truthful liar (Part 5)
Warnings: mentions of murder
Author notes: in comparison to the previous one, this part is so short...
The next day, I woke up well-rested despite the troubles I had previously faced. No weird dream had invaded my sleep and, thanks to the warm water of the hot springs, my sore muscles had been relaxed. Moreover, the Fox had sent me files about his friend, Suda-san, early in the morning, which would allow us to move on with the case. I had also decided to let Ruriko-chan go her own way in life and to forget her, since I did not belong in her world anymore. It was no use being bothered by this matter… I could only wish for her to be happy with her family, her friends, and her music.
Chapter 3.5: No Moral nor Decency (Part 8)
Warnings: torture, violence
Author notes: aaaand, this is the end of this short story! I hope you liked it, I remember I had so much fun writing it! See you in the next chapter!
Notes 2: there is a little something at the end of the chapter! I hope you’ll like it!
The chains of my handcuffs clinked sinisterly in the dark room as I moved, uncomfortable. Earlier that day, we had, according to the plan, used Apollonia as a bait to lure the Cosola family in a trap. We had ambushed them in an abandoned warehouse, to shoot them and eliminate them. However, I had led the operation and had been recognised by Gustavo, who had come himself, and I had been captured. I had been unable to do anything against his large hands choking me against the wall… When I had recovered from the dizziness, I had already been tied in a dark room, most certainly a basement. I was currently waiting for someone to come and interrogate me.
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Chapter 14: Truthful liar (Part 4)
Warnings: mentions of drug addiction
Author notes: quite a long part... I have to admit, I did not pay attention to its length ^^” I hope you enjoy nonetheless!
It was impossible for us to question the victim. As soon as he had set a foot in the nearest hospital, he had collapsed and had been immediately taken care of by the nurses. And he had not yet woken up… The white corridors smelled like medicine,but it was not unpleasant. Perhaps it was because I was used to the infirmary… My fingers clutched around my box of pills. I could not show a single health care professional that I was an addict, unless I wanted to be brought to the psychiatric unit… However, that stressful situation did not help with my withdrawal, and I was starting to grow uncomfortable. I sighed, and covered my hand to hide the fact it was trembling. Soon enough, Dazai reached me. He was coming back from the doctor's office, and his serious face did not reassure me the least.
Chapter 3.5: No Moral nor Decency (Part 7)
Warnings: rape, violence, murder (implied), torture (implied)
Author notes: some action for this part! Hope you like it!
When I opened my eyes, I was not sure what time it was. Through the windows, I could see the sun descending slowly and deduced it was the end of the afternoon. Had I slept the entire day? As I moved, I felt something heavy on my body and noticed Dazai-san’s coat was covering me, as though to keep me warm. I frowned slightly. It was so unlike him… What was he trying to do? I brought the coat closer to me, nonetheless, and let out a sigh. It was rare to see him act so gently… Almost as if he cared about me. It was not the first time he let me borrow his coat. When I had killed the Ogawa… He had thrown it onto me to protect me from the rain. Why could he not put on the act of a kind superior from time to time…? Even if it was pure hypocrisy, I would at least feel more inclined to obey him, and my loyalty would not be trialed all the time. Groggily, I sat up, rubbing my eyes, and remarked a note put on the couch, right next to me.
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Chapter 14: Truthful liar (Part 3)
Warnings: mentions of abuse
Author notes: here is the third part of the chapter...! I hope you’ll like it!
That nightmare had managed to ruin my morning. Dreaming that I was my ability…? That was ridiculous. That power belonged to me, it did not have a will of its own. But, just as said, and as I had come to accept, it was a manifestation of my wish to hear my mother's voice, an uncontrollable impulse towards her which had destroyed my health. She had appeared so young, in that blood-coloured kimono… In fact, she had looked exactly the same as the photography I had taken from the Taikin mansion and which had never left me since. I supposed that was because I did not have another image of her… Whenever I tried to recall her smile, all I would get was a blurred face. I could not even see her eyes, which everyone said had the same colour as mine. I sighed. I most certainly had that kind of dream because of my hesitation in meeting Ruriko-chan. I both wanted to see her, yet feared her reaction and her look of disgust when she would notice me. No, it was better not to be her sister anymore…
Chapter 3.5: No Moral nor Decency (Part 6)
Warnings: none
Author notes: so much parts…! Although they are rather short… But finally, we are back to the Port Mafia!
The next morning, before anyone had even opened an eye, I checked that Vilfredo was dead. His pulse had stopped, as well as his breathing. It was fortunate that he had pushed Apollonia away. She would not wake up in the arms of a corpse, this way. I sighed in relief. Finally, that mission was over. The Cosola family was torn by conflicts, which would ensure us a solid win. I decided to gather my belongings to leave the place. Dazai-san had ordered me to come back as soon as it was over.
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