[massivee]

Fuck feelings.

[massivee]

“I tried for you and I, for too hard, for too long Gave it all and everything for more time, but I lost... Ooh, I'm breakin' down, Whispers would deafen me now, You don't make a sound, Heartbreak was never so loud.”

[massivee]

“You know I almost turned to god, I listened to love songs, and think about how you don’t love me anymore. It really takes a lot, To not be in your arms, When I see you, just how we used to.

------- I wear what you bought me under my clothes so you don’t know I still care, But it brings me comfort knowing that a part of you is there. I found old habits under my skin and you knew that they were gone, But you don’t know you’re the reason I made them come back at all.

------- Throw me down, toss me ‘round, lift me up, Take my hand, steal my heart, rob my soul, It’s not about, what you did, that’s all true, It’s on how I’m not human to you... ”

[massivee]

“I'ma fuck up my life, I'ma fuck up my life, We gon' party all night, She don't care if I die, Yeah, right, yeah, right, Yeah, I bet you won't cry, Yeah, I bet you won't try, But you know I don't mind, But you know I don't mind”

[massivee]

“She told me that I'm not enough, yeah, And she left me with a broken heart, yeah, She fooled me twice and it's all my fault, yeah, She cut too deep, now she left me scarred, yeah... ... You said it, No you said it, No you said it, We'd be together ...”

[massivee]

“... But I'm depressed as fuck, Stressed as fuck, Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs, I mean, I need extra love, And that ain't even enough, 'Said that ain't even enough ... ... I ain't picture my life like this, They don't know what it's like like this, Pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this, And laugh like you ...”

[massivee]

No one cares lmao.

[massivee]

“When everyone you thought you knew, Deserts your fight, I'll go with you. You're facin' down a dark hall, I'll grab my light, and go with you... ...Stay with me, no, you don't need to run Stay with me, my blood, you don't need to run Stay with me, no, you don't need to run Stay with me, my blood, you don't need to run.”

[massivee]

“On a scale from one to zero, are you happy? ‘Cause you’re on your own from here so, are you happy? I’m open to suggestions, are you happy? But what the fuck kind of question is "Am I happy?" ...So if you know or ever knew how to be happy, On a scale from one to two now, are you happy? You’re everything you hated, are you happy? Hey, look ma, I made it, are you happy?”

[massivee]

“Stay for the night, tell you why nothing’s right if you’re gone, Stay for the night, if it’s all a lie, I wouldn’t mind if you’re wrong, Stay for the night, we’ve been alright for so long, There’s no coloring around us anymore.“

[massivee]

That ruined me.

[massivee]

Another sad dream.

[massivee]

Today fucking sucked.

[massivee]

This has been by far the worst day of my life.

Never quite felt real until now. I hate it.

[criwes]

[loafed-beans-deactivated2020082]

[soft awoo]

[strix-avis]

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[massivee]

Happy Birthday, me. Love, your Eiffel Flower. #frompariswithlove #maygodhavemercyonusall #cestlavie