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Yo. I'm Matsuoka Rin. Future Olympic swimmer. ．．．．．．．．． Free! role play blog, read this first

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why are you always .. ugh .. forget it ..

“What.”

[matesuoka]

“Nothing” He doesn’t even remember what it was anymore.

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Baby I'm sorry, I've missed your birthday, I don't have excuses, doesn't matter how rough it might be in Australia, I'm sorry.. Can I make it up for you? (I admit I'm afraid you won't answer if I call you over the phone, so I send a message )

“….I would answer if you called, Rin.” Hmph.

“But it’s just a day. It’s nothing special.…when will you come?”

[matesuoka]

"That's not JUST a day"

"Jesus... That was your /birthday/"

"... Your birthday is special...."

"I don't know... There's too much on my plate right now, it's kinda hard to tell... "

" I did put money on the side though, I should be able to afford it when I have the time"

"I wanted to talk to you... "

".... But you too.... Kinda don't call.... Haha"

"well though, you're you, I should have called........ "

" Didn't know you'll answer, I will now though "

[matesuoka]

I forgot how boring it can get without Haru

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[matesuoka]

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“……” Is totally oblivious about everything. “…you didn’t call.”

“I messaged.”

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“Rin…..” he hums, “…were you lonely?”

[matesuoka]

“...No.” he mutters, absolutely distracted by Haru, how can he not?

fuck, he missed him so damn much.

[matesuoka]

gaaaaay

LOOK AT YOURSELF

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@matesuoka

*hides behind u*

[matesuoka]

B(((((((

[matesuoka]

RIN. (˶ㅎ_ㅎ˶) ✧✧

Dude.

-kind of maybe is hurt over how long it’s been since the last time they spoke-

[matesuoka]

RinRin. (ㅎ_ㅎ)

Oiiiiiii

[matesuoka]

*touches Rin's shoulder blades*

-JUMPS-

-turns around fast-

H-Haru?! -blinks as if not believing who he sees- What were you... What are you doing here?? 

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He can see the thought clicking into Rin’s brain, knows he’s imagining a world where things didn’t go this way – and he knows Rin hates it. 

( He would, too – if he wasn’t the one to earn Rin’s heart. )

Thumb brushes over the redhead’s cheek. He really is like a dog sometimes, Haru finds. Eager to greet him when he arrives home, leaning up against him, always needing to touch him – and don’t forget that he demands attention. 

( Rin’s also a big goof, though he knows the shark wouldn’t like to hear that. )

Of course, Rin has to bring up how pouty he got before – as if in retaliation. So much for Haru staying cute. The noiret rolls his eyes, letting his hands rest on Rin’s shoulders as he turns his head away. He can’t quite escape, but he can pout.

“You forget that I also acted pretty uninterested. Which I can do, again, if you bring him up again.”

( Not that he has anything against Sousuke, but at least Haru didn’t specify who there was to be jealous of. Rude. )

[matesuoka]

Haru’s full lips twitch and there it is-- the pout. The redhead barely holds back a victorious smirk, this is all the conformation he needed over what he long since suspected. Haru actually got jealous of him. Nanase Haruka, mister it’s too much of a bother, getting jealous over something like this.

Though, in Haru’s defense, he did spend lots of time with Sousuke back then, but that’s just because they’re best friends, are on the same swim team and share a fucking room-- so of course he’d see him more often. 

It’s not like he’s interested in Sousuke the way he’s interested in Haru... 

“Haruu” Rin whines, attention focused on the raven again, leaning even closer and leaving close to no personal space for Haru to isolate himself in. “Hey Haru” he says again, nose poking his cheek. “You wouldn’t say that if it was the truth, you know” there’s a little knowing smirk on his lips. “You said ‘acted’ not ‘was’” he adds, knowing he shouldn’t but not being able to resist the urge. It’s not everyday they discuss Haru this way.

Rin pecks Haru’s cheek now, arms shift to wrap more comfortable around his waist. “I’m glad though you know..” he says genuinely “I wouldn’t wanna be the only one who felt this way” there’s a honest look in his eyes when he leans to the side, trying to catch Haru’s gaze. “For the record, there’s nothing to worry about, just saying” he assures him, though, he can’t really know if Haru needs that sort of thing.

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 “Mmm… Because you get jealous so quick.” He teases, an easy smile on his face as he holds the redhead in return.

“If I was as close to anyone else as I am to you, you’d get mad.” A hand, brushing a stray maroon strand out of Rin’s face. 

“I’d rather see you smile.”

[matesuoka]

Rin leans his head back enough to catch a glimpse of that little smile of Haru’s, a smile the kid version of him would sell his soul to witness, a really damn nice smile, mind you. Fuck.

“T-that’s…” he swallows, finding he can hardly deny the truth in Haru’s words, simply imagining Haru being as motivated, as interested, as anything really, into someone other than him is…. unpleasant.

“Oh shut up…” he mutters, finding off a flush (and loosing) at the casual touch, he ends up leaning his face forward into it anyways. “…Not like you’re not the same…” he says with a little (wide) smirk on his face. “I remember how sulky you got over Sousuke, you know” he leans a bit more and their noses brush. He’s already feeling much, much warmer on the inside.

Haru somehow managed to gather his scattered confidence and place it back into it’s rightful place in his chest. He can’t help the genuine, warm smile that replaces the smug smirk. He loves him. Really, a lot.

[matesuoka]

Wraps him w a blanket and hugs him tbh

Rin is way too weak for it, he’s absolutely defenseless against such gestures. He can’t possibly guard himself against Haru being like this-- nice-- caring. 

“Fuck..” he mumbles and literally clings to the raven, “Fuck-- must you be so-- “ he wants to say ‘perfect’ but ends up saying “--clingy?” he asks as he’s the one to holds so-so tightly onto Haru. 

[matesuoka]

@undertheoceandepths oh-- oh.

There are no tears in his eyes. He is not crying, at all.