matt :^)

Matt: "hi i'm matt and i'm a addict." you: "hi matt"

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So gay and yet so sad

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*comes back to Tumblr after over a year*

Oh nice my breakup poetry is being reposted...

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You are you

And i am me

And we where simply

Not meant to be

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For the love of god

Please stop making "sexyback" by justin timberlake the only song going on in my head

Im just trying to take a earth and space quiz

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Sorry i never post lol

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Its hard to admit how much i actually love you

I don't want you to break my heart but id let you take it

If breaking me could somehow fix you id give you everything

You could have all of the air out of my damaged lungs

All of my brittle bones and yellow teeth

Id give you everything just if you where happy again

Take all you could want and more

Treat me like the chains you take things from

Treat me like a all you can eat buffet on a rainy tuesday

Treat me like the last day of schools lost and found

Take what you want and throw out the rest

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I love you too

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You live on a spaceship far away

You're drifting through space

But i am trapped in this same place

And astro boy i miss your face

You drove past mars

Just to be in my arms

But now youre too far

We gave up too much space

And im too far out of our place

Now i live in jupiter

And my days have been stupider

Counting rocks and lookin for you

Little did i knew

You where on the planet thats blue

So many planets off

Its enough to make you scoff

Earth exploded years ago

Now youre the only human i know

I feel alone

Since you are now my home

But you have other things to do

And i dont want to be a issue

Because even if im lonely

The void will take you eventually

So i will sit pretty

In the venus city

And beg to the above

To bring me back my love

Because without you this life in space

Is nothing more than a pointless waste

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Smoke

I can never leave you unharmed

Theres always reminice from the harm

I come home smelling like smoke and feeling drained

But when youre with a fire that cant be put out with rain

You begin to be numb to the pain

Scars leave your body but the smell of smoke onr your breath

Leads to unrest

When you play with fires you get burned

But i was the one left unturn

You think you own me because of the smoke

But i am not ashamed of what you left behind

I am the rain that cannot put you out

But at the very least i can make you shout

My breath smells like smoke

And i got burned by a fire

But youre the one screaming

Youre the one with water running down your face

Fire and water do not mix

I was a fool to think anything of you

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Idk if anyone who follows this acc wants to be friends but i made a gc so comment if you want in.

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I'm so tired

But I can never rest

Because the bed i lay in is burning

And my thoughts are turning

And there is a violent yearning

For peace

And peace has a price

So i wont go to sleep tonight

But its all right

As long as youre there it will be just fine

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1000 miles

why why do you live so far away  i just wanna be in your arms today i don’t see why you have to  i don’t like being apart from you 1000 miles is way to far  so i guess ill get a car  and ill go to you  because i know you’re true and all i want is to be with you its a lonely night  and nothing here feels alright you know you’ve found the love of your life when you’re saddened at the idea of sleeping at night because its cold in my room  and if i stay here any longer it’ll result in my doom and we’re too far apart  so listen to my loving heart i’ll be there to hold you  i’ll be there soon  don’t worry i promise we will last 

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flower boy

when i was younger i used to love flowers  id put them in my hair  i loved flowers but apparently people cared i was told “boys can’t like girly things” so i became a coward i hid all the love i had for them  now i know  you have to wait to grow  i grew strong  i grew free  and i learned to cut out the weeds flower boys are strong  they learn to carry on  now its years later and i sit  arranging a bouquet  for my lover a fellow flower boy  for he is the one that brings me joy 

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rose tinted glasses

i’m sorry i cant see you today  i’m going to gouge out my eyes in dismay because you think i cant see you due to my glasses but glasses help me see better as time passes  but since my eyes are gone  as a excuse so i can carry on  so you can hold my hand  we can go anywhere in this land  because now without you i cant see  without you where would i be 

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the man behind the tumblr 

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you thought i could be strong  i’m sorry i’m the one to prove you wrong you thought i could get over it and carry on but you where incorrect all along  that i am not a typical boy i want the world to be destroyed  in fact that would make me overjoyed  i’m a person who’s under remodel  i’m a person who’s always in full throttle  i’m a slave to the pills in the bottle  come sometime again  in the next life we can be best friends  but i’m sorry this is how ill end  drunken in a darken ally so no one can depend  on a addict with a black ballpoint pen

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friends are like birds they die if you kill them