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“Maybe that’s enlightenment enough: to know that there is no final resting place of the mind; no moment of smug clarity. Perhaps wisdom...is realizing how small I am, and unwise, and how far I have yet to go.”

- Anthony Bourdain

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Yeah, it’s true, Im too cool for you

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Even though I don't have this gut feeling to see you anymore. But I still think of you sometimes. Like after a movie, I started to be curious about what you might think and feel. That's how I started my journey of self-realization tonight. Still, a bit high with myself, guess it's worth writing it down.

so wanted to thank you, even though you didn’t do anything, you are doing everything. I built another you in my world, all over my world.

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I love the scent of my hair today, cuz it smells like your pillow

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Multiple layers of realization gives me the best quality of dopamine ever!

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A crack

An abundant night.

The moment he guided me to get into his world structure, I felt an intense sense of nihility and powerlessness rush to my face. It made a significant sense for what I perceived in him.

Then I heard a crack. I started to run away, tried to defend myself from this huge shadow that could swallow me.

That was a horrible experience but also a crack for me to had a glimpse of a new perspective. I know what is waiting there, and I'd better get ready like always.

Isn't that also a sweet moment to be a little bit closer to him?

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Robot study III

You might not understand the power of tenderness and love in your high ego wall and this terrible patriarchal society. But that’s what melted your ice without your cognition.

You’ve been trying so hard to be extremely rational, push away from your emotional part. But you can never be a perfect robot as I see you struggling. Emotion is the root of a human being. No matter how you wanna get rid of it, it manipulates you beyond your awareness.

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No more async

(I'm not a disposable plastic heart. )

Dear,

I wish you understand yourself and unify your mind and heart. Then go again, with whoever.

No more async.

Cuz You never know how much impact you can have on others.

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Robot study II

I’m not shallow. I just decided to trust my intuition. 

Sticking with your judgement is shallowness itself. 

It’s a prison that prevents you to discover the complexity of humanity inside and outside. 

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I feel sorry for you, but empathy can’t bring me any butterfly.

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I can be a charity if I’m respected and being grateful for.

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The resistance of being vulnerable is vulnerability itself.

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Significant other is an idealism joke

There’s only a significant me.

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Robot study ∞

The truth is. The whole world for you, is only yourself. You never really looked at anyone, cared about anyone. Everything you do is only for your best interest or benefit, with all those fucking delicate calculations. 

I don’t think you are heartless, I see just a little kid who’s petrified of his sensitivity about everything. That’s also how you closed your door in both ways. 

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I know you can see the moon from your room tonight. But I can’t. 

Hope you enjoy.

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本自具足

[theimpossiblecool]

“There are two kinds of people in the world. Those who know we are all connected and those who don’t.”

Flea.

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So that choose to love is the easiest way to survive.