tell me somethin' good

Eighteen years young, and haunted by more demons than you can count. There are no parents around to keep you, no friends around to comfort you. No one's ever felt so DAMN ALONE. Not the way you do, anyway. No one feels as bitter and angry and as scarred as you do. No one truly understands how and why you feel the way you do, because they haven't lived the way you do. They can never, will never understand. You, my boy, are the epitome of ( alone.- ) Eighteen years old, and you're already hating the world. It's not the kind of hate that most teenagers claim: it's not hate towards your parents over the latest game you didn't get, or towards your friends for disagreeing with you. No, it's hatred towards your parents for not really knowing you exist and never truly being there for you. It's hatred towards your friends for not existing, your peers for always ignoring you. It's hatred towards the universe for the cards you were dealt, and hatred towards yourself for not knowing how to handle it better. It's a pure and perfect hatred, crafted over the span of EIGHTEEN MEASLY YEARS. Eighteen years way too old, and your tears dry on their own, though not by choice. The only should you have to cry on is the one that you're supposed to hold when things get rough THEM. There is no one to comfort you, or hold you through your coldest nights. And, maybe... maybe at this point, you just prefer it that way. They said you were a "kaleidoscope of emotions" but in reality, you just come in varying shades of ANGER. Your name is Maximus Wolf. She calls you Maxi. You're eighteen years of age, and you're not doing so great.

[lucasbenscn-blog]

( sms;; maxi ) you know, if you want to take her on a date, you can just borrow my car, man

( sms;; maxi ) at least that way i’m not going to be third wheeling

[maximumswolf]

( sms ;; luc ) IT’S NOT A DATE ( sms ;; luc ) she just got out of a bad relationship (is still getting out of one?), and she’s not into me like that ( sms ;; luc ) I’m not into her like that ( sms ;; luc ) and you wouldn’t be third wheeling

[lucasbenscn-blog]

( sms;; maxi ) anything, man

[maximumswolf]

( sms ;; luc ) take me and aurora out tomorrow night? ( sms ;; luc ) it’s not like a date, or anything. obviously. i just thought it’d be nice to get out of the house, and since you’re my best friend, and my car is broken and yours looks like it’s brand new.....

[maximumswolf]

( sms;; luc ) so, i need a favor

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

He was upset.

He hurt you, Aurora. Does that mean nothing? If --- if it happened to Arlis. If Arlis came home, beaten and bruised, would you tell her that it was okay, just because the guy was upset? It’s that that she’s been hurt, because he wasn’t in a good mood?

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

He didn’t hurt me, Maxi – I mean, he did, but not on purpose. And not nearly as bad.

Is that supposed to make it okay?

[auroraxstone-blog]

If I had told you I saw him he would have hurt you. 

[maximumswolf]

Yeah, well, I’d rather he hurt me than you.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

Nobody’s ever cared before. No one’s even noticed. But you… you noticed the smallest thing, and you cared.

I’ve never had that.

When we were kids, my little sister let her best friend talk her into all kinds of trouble. She got hurt a lot, and always hid it. But she missed the small details, so that’s what I learned to look for. And I do care. I’ll always care.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone: 

————–…

         Thank you. For saving me.

You have nothing to thank me for. I just want to help you.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

           And you promise he won’t be able to get me there?

He’ll have a hell of a time getting through me, Roscoe and Harley. They’re our dogs, and... trust me; he can’t touch you.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

Thank you.

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       Yes.

Nothing to thank me for.

If you want to, you can stay at my place tonight. My mom won’t get in until the early morning, so it’s just me and my sister. I can take you over there to get some of your stuff, and you can stay at my place for as long as you’d like.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

————– Please help me.

I will. I promise.

Do you live with him?

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

What if I can’t?

     ———— I want out. I don’t want to do this anymore, Maxi – I don’t want to be scared anymore –

If you can’t do it on your own, then I’ll help you. You don’t have to do this alone. You don’t have to be scared anymore.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

Maxi, I can’t do it –

       I can’t leave him. It’ll make him angry – I don’t want him to be angry with me – he can’t be angry with me –

       I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I’m so scared, Maxi.

Yes, you can.

      Aurora, you... are one of the strongest women I have ever met. You’re so smart, and you’re beautiful, and you’re this independent goddess. You don’t need this guy. You don’t need to stick around him. And nothing he says or does will change that. 

     Listen to me: he will not hurt you. I won’t let him touch you. But I can’t help you if you don’t make the first move. You have to tell me that you’re ready to get out. No one can help you until you decide that you want to be helped.

[maximumswolf]

auroraxstone:

——— You can’t tell anyone, Maxi. He swore he would stop.

...People have this really funny way of swearing to do things when they have no intention of doing it. It’s selfish, and it’s evil, and it’s manipulative, but we do it. And we especially do it to the people who love and trust us the most. Even when they know in their heart of hearts that we won’t do what we promised.

You know he’s not going to stop, Rora. If he really planned on stopping, he would’ve done so, already. But guys like him, they don’t stop. Not until you walk away.

[auroraxstone-blog]

———– It’s nothing, I fell down the stairs. I’ll be fine.

[maximumswolf]

My sister just told me the same thing last night. And, again: I call bullshit.

Look, I know we’re just partners for the summer project, but, from one human being to the other, I’m concerned.

[arliswolf]

Maxi, stop! It was nothing, okay? I just fell, and I hurt myself. Stop freaking out, you’re scaring me!

[maximumswolf]

Stop acting like it’s nothing, Arlis! I’m not blind!

[arliswolf]

    No, I’m fine; it’s fine, just      please, stop touching it.

[arliswolf]

[maximumswolf]

Don’t give that bullshit! Someone hurt you       someone physically put their hands on you and hurt you. That someone could do this again.

So tell me who did this to you. Now, Arlis Nicole.