max

TW ED ✩ 21 ° 5’4” ｡ cw: 108 ⋆ cgw: 105 🎧 ugw: 90 ✮

[maxssecrets]

✧₊⁺ get to know me

TW: this is a blog where i talk freely about my 34t1n d1s0rd3rr. please keep yourself away if you're in recovery, take care of yourself!! safety first! also please, block don't report!

DNI: fatphobes, non-3d blogs

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hey hey! im max, im 21, and ive had trouble with eating for a long time. ive recovered a few times, but now im on my 3rd relapse. i love drawing and im really into music, please tell me about your favorite songs. currently in my radiohead phase.

i dont have a mdni but i do try to limit my interactions with minors. though if someone needs help i wanna be a safe place as much as possible, i know its tough being a teen online.

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✧₊⁺ stats:

height: 5’4”

sw: 122lbs (oct 20th)

gw1: 115lbs 😆🎉🎉 (nov 17th)

gw2: 110lbs 🥳🥳 (dec 12th)

cw: 108.9bs (as of December 13th)

gw3: 105lbs

gw4: 100lbs

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ugw: 90lbs (for the summer, and my birthday. gives me a reasonable amount of time :))

[maxssecrets]

hey! I just wanted to say that I hope you're doing better now (relating to your last post). you don't have to answer this, I just wanted to check in. take care of yourself, and I hope things start looking up soon

thank you very much, i'm really touched <3 ngl i'm not exactly doing well, but i'm alive lol. sorry for being really inactive, i consider quite a few people here good friends and i miss it but i really just don't have the strength at the moment... :( i hope anyone seeing this is having a good day, though!

[maxssecrets]

i don't mean to ignore anyone / be inactive, but the end of the year is really tough and i'm sick and exhausted. it's cold, my nose keeps bleeding, i'm failing my classes and my relationship, probably my life at this point, if there even is any. i don't want to be overly negative on here especially at this hopefully festive and joyful time. i hope everyone is okay and having fun 🫶 see you in 2025

[maxssecrets]

fasting starting now until the morning of the 24th

- i won't consider my fast broken if my net cals are negative and i didn't break ketosis

- walking >10k steps and telling my family i've eaten out

things to do to keep me distracted (for futur reference):

- stay in the bus and knit while listening to music

- sleep

- study at the library

- sleep

- just keep away from the kitchen

- finish the zero pepsi that i forgot in my bag last week

[maxssecrets]

"are you sure you're eating? cause i can really feel your ribs right now"

well ive been binge eating straight sugar for 2 days but thanks for the sw33tspo baby <33

[alan41872]

girls don’t want boys they want to be able to express their feelings without crying

[maxssecrets]

going through my drafts is always a fun experience

[petitexe]

grateful for calories for single-handedly stopping me from becoming a full-blown alcoholic

[dollvensc]

"DoN't rEWaRd YoUrSelF WiTh fOod, yOu'Re Not a DoG" well bark bark woof woof bitch. Rewarding myself with a nice brown sugar boba once I'm at my second goal weight

[maxssecrets]

this ed cured my picky eating because i actually like eggs now (it used to make me straight up throw up) plus a bunch of other things, im way less sensitive to different textures, i like desserts even when they aren't really sweet

[maxssecrets]

breaking a 42h fast with celebratory oatmeal

i feel alive again

won't be going on fast longer than 24h anymore, it's miserable, i woke up in cold sweat and spent the night watching mukbangs and foaming at the mouth

[pallaspally]

hey siri how to tell someone that what you have been up to lately is crying over føød and experiencing horrors

[maxssecrets]

tmi

just pooped away 500g

can believe i sat on the toilet and hit a gw

i wont log it till tomorrow cause we never know but 😭😭😭😭😭

still i'll very much cherish getting a glimpse of the 40s on the scale, haven't seen those since i was like 14

[beth-likes-cherry-cola]

Having an €d is kinda embarrassing like “ohhh no, I have to eat, what am I gonna do”

[6onebe3-deactivated20250528]

every time my stomach growls i'm like girl, do i look like i give a fuck 😐

[maxssecrets]

shamefully my biggest trigger is badly written, borderline fet1shi1zing descriptions like ooo she was so delicate and her ribs looked like a xylophone and her legs like a fawn ooo look at this fragile girl so young and girlish

like i hate what it represent and i am disgusted but please someone talk about me like that (i'll gut them after tho cause ewww)

[maxssecrets]

exactly 50kg heeey