Write it Down

A blog written by me, Max

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Choices and Deadlines

I’m dealing with two frustrating things right now. The first is dealing with a roommate who is never going to be good / useful at keeping our house clean. He consistently makes a mess everywhere he goes and comes up with these excuses to sucker other people into helping him out.

The other frustrating thing is my work. It should be simple enough, except that I do hate the language I’m using to build my application(s), I’ve somehow got myself into a scenario where the only right way to write the code is the most politically correct way, which is not too easy for me to follow. I’ve got to find a solution.

For both of these problems, I could just leave my house / job and let someone else deal with these issues. But I can’t do that today. I need to get my roommate’s head out of his ass or do the work he is supposed to do. I need to get my work done, so I can eventually finish and leave my job.

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Dealing with Uncertainty

There are many things in life that are uncertain (is anything really certain?) but we shrug off most of these things. It’s when we have major uncertainties that our attention is grabbed. Getting classes for a college semester, or evaluating if a job should be kept, or looking at the options for a place to stay - these are all uncertain situations. Each has a plethora of parts, each of which is uncertain itself. The number of variables and things to consider can overwhelm you, especially in the scenario where all of these things apply to you.

The best thing to do, it seems, is to focus on one thing at a time and try to solve it. Build a list of priorities. Decide what is most important and what you can do now to move it along. Then, complete whatever you need to so that it does move along. Life is about closing out on tasks; finish things so you can move on to other things.

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Personal Disbelief

Personal disbelief is my phrase for the idea that we can consciously refuse to see a truth about ourselves. If we are noticing something and it seems to happen continuously then we’ve got to be able to see that the common factor is us: we are the reason or the cause for whatever is happening. For me, I’ve been experiencing personal disbelief in two parts.

The first part is in bad personal hygiene. I take good care of showering and all that, but I somehow have obtained (or always had??) a stench that follows me everywhere, to a point that I don’t feel comfortable going to my workplace. It appears to be due to my diet, but I have not been able to get it to disappear. For quite sometime, I believed my boss or other coworkers were the cause of it, but I am certainly the cause of my stench.

The second part of my disbelief is thinking people are just not decent. I like to believe that I am good with people, and that’s just not always true. I’m an introvert (INFJ or something similar) but I have extraverted needs. I usually struggle if I’m not around people continuously, but I tend to ignore people as soon as I no longer need them. The reason I don’t have lots of friends can’t be because people suck; it’s got to be because I suck (at being a friend...).

I don’t know what other personal disbeliefs we can carry, or which I carry myself, but be careful. If something seems wrong, it probably is. That doesn’t mean you can’t do something about it. Be strong, be confident, and seek our solutions. 

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The Equalizer, 2

The Equalizer 2 is a movie about a colored man named Cam (Denzel Washington). He is some sort of ex-special ops or otherwise a former highly-trained soldier. The fact that he is colored does actually have a significance, as his character is quite noble and polite but attempts to be a role model for a colored teen who clearly has an artistic talent but who is caught up by a local gang. Over the course of the movie, Cam manages to literally and figuratively save the kid (I didn’t pay attention to his name) and manages to change the direction of the kid’s life.

The main story of this movie is of former coworkers in a spy agency being killed off by some group of trained soldiers. These deaths become personal when one of Cam’s friends is murdered. He begins to investigate his friend’s death (Rachel?) and uncovers a rogue group of soldiers who have betrayed him and Rachel. The ensuing movie is a man-hunt of the soldiers trying to hunt down him, and Cam trying to lure them into a deadly trap.

The movie turned out to be quite good. One theme of the movie was about being observant to the emotions of those around you and to try to be a good role model. Another theme was about finding your potential, and not making excuses for yourself. The movie also had a deeply personal yet optimistic theme of make amends for your demons or die by them. As a movie that was largely about choices and people, I would give this movie a solid 7 on a 10-scale rating.

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An exercise in memory

In the next blog post, I am going to try to recall as much information as I can about a movie I just saw, without using any external sources to reference information. The goal is to build a benchmark for my memory. I have been struggling with the expectation vs reality of my memory for some time now, to a point of changing my lifestyle a few months back, and recalling a movie seems like a good exercise.

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Analog synthesizers vs Digital

While looking at synthesizers today (I have been looking to buy one), I looked at a video talking about some inexpensive starter synthesizers. One note that came up was abut analog vs digital synthesizers. It turns out that analog synths are usually more expensive because of extra machinery needed (capacitors and such). Also, it seems like analog synthesizers can’t play as many notes at once. So for a starter synth, a digital one is likely preferable.

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A Push

Something I am doing right now is trying to push myself. I think in a lifetime, amazing people do things that didn’t require them to be the smartest or most fortunate or most well off people. I think that amazing people have made a decision, at some point in their life, to try to stick to learning new things and setting small monthly goals, and a few doable weekly goals, and some daily goals, and they accomplished as many of those goals as possible. So right now I am trying to push myself to set those goals, small as they may be, to accomplish tasks that need to be done and accomplish tasks I would like to do so that I can progress my hobbies.

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Harmony

Today I learned what Harmony is. In music, Harmony is a collection of sounds that are good together, that sound nice or put out some kind of emotion. When a song has a nice background beat and beautiful singing, this could be considered a Harmony. Or when a chord is struck on a string instrument, from a collection of individual strings, this could be considered a Harmony too.

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First Post

Hi everyone. My name’s Max. I’m starting a blog (iI think that’s what this is anyway) to talk about things we can all do to bring ourselves up. I am someone who naturally gravitates towards a more negative mindset, and I can tell you that the difference of a positive mindset is so huge. So, I’ll be posting here some things that I do to stay positive and some things you can do too to help you be more positive.