âDo you not remember everything I said that night too? I told you how much I loved you. If itâs your fault then itâs mine, too.â He shrugged. âWe are always okay. And nothing, nothing in this world is going to split us now, I promise. Iâm not letting anything come between us. Not being your friend is the worst decision Iâve ever made and Iâll never let that happen again.â He promised. No matter what happened, he wouldnât lose Fitz. âI wouldâve loved to be the one who gave you everything,â he said softly. âMaybe in another life. I know thatâs no consolation but it does make me feel a little⌠peace.â He admitted. âNo one had ever even loved me before Damien. I thought he was too good for me, sometimes I still do, but um, I think he needed me. I think his life changed when he found me and I know youâll find the one whoâs that for you, the one who needs you, whose life canât go on without you.â He wiped his eyes, feeling emotional. âThey say thereâs no such thing as finding the right person at the wrong time. If itâs the wrong time⌠itâs also the wrong person.â He bit his lip. âI still think you and I are soulmates though, just not romantic ones. But I mean, come on, we were destined to find each other. The night of that awful party, if I hadnât been there, who knows? If youâd been with that Jason asshole and heâd just left you there. And that night, after I had a panic attack, I told Damien everything, why I really went to juvie, and he still loved me and I decided I wanted him to be my boyfriend again. We were fated, I think.â He rambled. âNo, I donât think sheâd do that, Iâm kind of friends with his ex. And she kind of got blasted by the gossip blog too, and I doubt sheâd do that to herself.â he shrugged. âNo I know youâre not that kind of guy, Iâm just saying, you would never take advantage of me, and you never seduced me or anything. You always respected the fact that I have a boyfriend and I love you for it.â He smiled and kissed his cheek. âYeah, yeah, I know Damien will forgive me.â He said, trying to reassure him. He knew he would forgive him, but he was worried heâd feel insecure again. âWait, Casey? Casey as in, posted a nude pic and tagged him in your man-junk Casey? Subtle move, by the way.â He teased, laughing softly. He bit his lip a little, he was worried Fitz would fall and this guy would turn out to be like Jason. âWell Iâm happy for you.â He smiled. âJust promise you wonât run before you walk, alright? Get to know him and stuff.â He said softly. âI kind of stalked his instagram and Iâm a bit conflicted. On the one had, heâs kind of hot as hell, on the otherâhave you ever watched The Lion King? He looks just like Timon. Like something about him is so⌠meerkaty looking. But in a hot way, of course.â He said, his jealousy getting to him a little, but he really was happy for Fitz. âAbout time you got laid right? Did you even remember how to use it, with your virginity growing back from that dry spell of yours?â He teased, laughing a little.
"I do remember everything you said," he told him "i do and I know the way you felt about me, feel, and I just don't feel it's your fault at all," he told him softly. "I'm so needy and fucked up and you were there for me, and I fell because of how wonderful you are.." he said softly. "I know we won't, we're friends until the end, whenever that is and it was the worst week of my life too..' he told him "and I'm sorry I scared you so bad with doing those drugs but what if I hadn't?" He asked "What if I hadn't come to see you that night basically overdosing.. would we be talking like this right now? Would you have come back to me?" He asked him. "I keep wondering that, that I forced you back into something and now the gossip blog is trying to fucking things up again.." he said. "I know we're strong and we won't let it phase us and things will be okay, but I just can't help but think what if this and what if that and my mind is so fucked.. I'm sorry," he said. He smiled "I'm glad you feel better," he said to him. "No, you two do belong together and I can tell and see that,' he said softly. "I swear, I know it and it's okay. I'm not mad or upset that you've found someone you love,' he promised. "Don't cry.." he said stroking his cheek "you're right, I will find someone one day," he told him softly. He nodded understanding that, he was right. He needed to relax, he went hardcore at everything. He chuckled a bit "yeah I think so too, friend soulmates,' he said "if thats a thing." He took his hand and held it, looking at him. "Did you? Did that really help things?" He asked softly giving him a soft smile. "Oh are you?" He asked "shit, everyone is just getting blasted more and more aren't they," he said. "No I never," he smiled "as much as you would have loved me seducing you," he teased joking around. He smiled at the small cheek "good, as long as he forgives you," he said softly. He laughed, blushing a bit "yeah that guy.." he said "he dared me!" He said "but I would have done it anyway," he chuckled a bit. He smiled "thanks.." it meant a lot that he was happy for him for sure. He bit his lip "justin.." he said softly. But he was right, he knew he went all in all the time and it was his downfall. "I know, you're right I know it's hard not to, but i don't want to get hurt again either," he said. âAnd anyway, he just thinks of me as a booty call,â he shrugged âhe clearly doesnât want anything more, I was texting him and anytime I mention anything deeper he acts so put off.. so, I mean. I wonât push it if heâs not interested but thatâs the story of my life anyway right?â He said giving him a sad smile. No one ever wanted more than sex. He chuckled a bit "don't put that image in my head!" He said shoving him "he's hot okay, really hot," he grinned. "Um..." he swallowed nervously "actually in paris I slept with Sam..." he said softly.
