May Hemmings

► 17 year old teen living in this cruel beautiful world called reality ••• ✈ Life is messy and tough but you can always make it better than that— ; ♤ Follow and ask away •• I live in the moment ☁

[may-villero]

The thought of getting hurt crushes some people at some point. Maybe because they’ve experienced it countless of times or maybe a couple of times and when they did, it made a huge impact in their life. Things like this are inevitable in our lifetime and no matter how hard we try to refrain ourselves from doing something so as not to get hurt, we can never run away from it.

I think one of the most beautiful things in life is being able to have someone to love who loves you just as much as you do. It’s beautiful in a sense that it gives you an extreme feeling of bliss and contentment. However, the idea of loving is also tied with getting hurt. Loving someone gives them the ability to hurt you unintentionally or not. The thing is, we can never blame someone for being afraid of getting hurt. Like I said, it’s inevitable but we must always keep in mind that loving someone, no matter who this person is, gives them the capacity to hurt your feelings. Although this is the case, I personally do not think that loving should be stopped or that you should refrain yourself from doing so.

As a person who has been through a lot from backstabbing friends to being pressured academically to going through my first heartbreak to self-diagnosing depression to losing a Mother has given me the chance to learn through the years. It has been really tough and it still is. Still, I do not stop myself from loving or showing goodness and love to others because this is one of the best things my Mom has left me with.  And what am I really trying to say in this text?

Simple.

It’s that I am more than grateful for the persons in my life who has always inspired me and still continues to do so. They do not only give me inspiration but they motivate me and give me a sense of hope that no matter how life keeps on throwing obstacles in my way, I can always conquer them if I just let myself to. And with them by my side, it definitely feels like I can. No matter how many times I have to cry myself to sleep every night, how many times I over analyze things and how sensitive I may be even with little things, I will always have them. They may not be a lot, probably just a handful or so but I am blessed to have them.

And to my family and to the person who loves me just as much as I do, you are the main reason why I am where I am and why I continue to fight despite everything.

All is well for now and I believe that all will be well soon enough.

-N.

[may-villero]

Lately, I have been feeling a lot of things. Different emotions for different occasions, For different people, And for different intervals. And lately, I found myself crying a lot. Sometimes, without a reason. Most of the times, its my bottled up sadness. Even so, I try to see the good in each day. Because even if my tears run dry, At least there was something that made me feel good, On that particular day.

sudden thought; urge to write

[seewantshop]

[khaelraha-deactivated20230711]

[may-villero]

“Why do we feel the need to try and understand things when it has been clearly stated that some things can while some things can’t?” Maybe because we refuse to believe what we don’t want to hear. Maybe because we want to hear exactly what we want. Maybe because no matter how hard it is to understand why things happen, we find it so hard in ourselves to accept the fact. And we try so hard to make sense out of everything even beyond our capacities to do so. Because sometimes. Sometimes, you just can't accept the thought of letting things go.

you try tounderstand because you care; my thoughts

[may-villero]

“Why must life be tough?” Over the course of my existence, I have never stopped asking myself this exact question. There are a lot of reasons as to why we ask ourselves this. Sometimes, we find ourselves in a situation wherein we can’t help but wonder why life has to be tough. Why is it that life keeps on messing us up in ways we will never understand? We may never know. But does it ever cross your mind why we still keep going? Why is it that we continue? That is because despite of all the things life has to offer, we let the good things decide for ourselves. Maybe some people don’t because they find it hard to do so. But some people do. And I may just be one of those people. Despite of the loss that I had recently, I still keep going because I don’t want to end this yet. I still have a lot of things to achieve in life. And that does not include giving up this early, this young. Maybe sometimes that thought passes by but do I let it fully conquer me? Sometimes I do but most of the time, I don’t. I learned that no matter how tough life can get, it will all go down on how you would want to keep it going. Would you want to live a life with the feeling of being okay all the time or would you do all that you can to make it extraordinary? At the end of the day, the decision is still on you. You either stop or go. The choice will always be in your hands. With of course God’s guidance.

personal thoughts despite of everything

[thelovejournals]

I want to know you. You seem like someone worth knowing. Every day I feel like I’m surrounded by people with hard edges and sour faces but I get the sense that you’re different. Too often people seem to think that they have the answers to everything. Their faces are trapped in permascowls and they can’t be bothered with anything besides their own narcissism. You aren’t like that. You still ask questions. You’re still looking for the answers.

Ryan O’Connell (via thelovejournals)

[thelovejournals]

We always see our worst selves. Our most vulnerable selves. We need someone else to get close enough to tell us we’re wrong. Someone we trust.

David Levithan, Naomi and Ely’s No Kiss List (via thelovejournals)

[may-villero]

Honestly, I admire people who know what to do in life. I’m not saying this because I don’t have any plans in the future. I have aspirations but sometimes, one may find himself stuck in between these dreams and the cruel reality of life. Someone once told me that if you look closely, life isn’t as cruel as you may see it. And it’s not. But isn’t cruel a nice word to describe the reality? That’s because sometimes, things don’t turn out your way and when it doesn’t, you can’t help but wonder why and ask questions. This is when cruel comes to mind. And most often, it does. And so, I find myself stuck between this two. Nonetheless, there are things in life that keeps me going. And those things, those are the reason why I’m still fighting my way in this cruel beautiful world.

my personal thoughts

[thelovejournals]

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life (via thelovejournals)

[urbanoutfucks]

i hope u find someone that mindlessly plays with your hands and lightly strokes your legs and massages your back and plays with your hair and i hope that u feel like you’re home when u look at them

[may-villero]

no hun, i dont write to impress. i write to express-

[may-villero]

There's always that one point in life wherein you just want everything to end so you could rest. Rest from reality and escape from all your responsibilities. But at the end of the day, you're still in charge of how you would want your life to be. And then everything else makes sense, no matter how worn out with life you may be.

personal feelings

[may-villero]

Whenever we're together, I can't help but stare at you. That's how I notice everything. I am aware of all the flaws that you have. All those things that you seem to hate about yourself. And those things - those are the things that I love about you. The way you carry yourself despite of everything, makes me admire you more. There's so much more to you than what you show. I know because I can see it from the way you talk passionately about something that interests you. I can see it from the way your eyes sparkle whenever we talk about relevant things. I can see it from the way you tell me about your dreams, plans and goals in life. I can see them and that's one of the things I love about you. You motivate and inspire me to do the same and I guess that's more than enough.

my thoughts

[inspiring-pictures]

When a flower doesn’t bloom you fix the environment in which it grows, not the flower.

(via ociz)

[may-villero]

honestly it feels great knowing you are loved-

[may-villero]

you remind me of the blue ocean-

the calmness that i feel whenever i set foot on the warm sand makes me sigh in content. the serenity of the beach reminds me of when we are together- peaceful, subtle contentment, extreme bliss.