Maya (she/her). Transgender; femcel; anxious; depressed; Shin Megami Tensei elitist; living in a constant state of derealization and depersonalization; unsure of how much information is supposed to be put in a tumblr bio due to the existence of pinned posts which seem to serve a similar purpose
i'm maya (she/her). i like jrpgs, drawing, making music, calculus, medical dramas, and am somewhat mentally ill - i have adhd, general anxiety, am depressed, and i experience persistent and continuous depersonalization and derealization. i'm a pretentious transgender 16 year old jewish girl, and i am incredibly socially awkward; i want to socialize on this platform, i'm painfully shy and have a hard time navigating The Social Plane - please feel free to message me or send me asks!
my favorite pieces of media are roughly as follows:
- video games -
jimmy and the pulsating mass
this is the best jrpg of all time. go play it *immediately*
i hate you, please suffer
wooden ocean
shin megami tensei
my favorite individual games are SMT1, SMT4, and occasionally SMT5; additionally, I love the SNES games and their aesthetics, and the DDS duology holds a special place in my heart
touhou artificial dream in arcadia
this game is an homage to the previously mentioned SNES megaten games, and I highly recommend it if you're into that!!
anthology of the killer
deltarune
milk outside a bag of milk outside a bag of milk
donut county
garfield kart
...generally, i like finding obscure and esoteric rpgmaker games by diving through the depths of steam!
- movies/TV -
st. elsewhere
genuniely this might be my favorite show of all time. i stan shirley daniels and wayne fiscus
serial experiments lain
yes i'm one of THOSE internet women
the simpsons
mostly seasons 1-8. i question whether or not i even need to specify this
futurama
i haven't watched the hulu era beyond like the first three episodes and the finale of the first season and honestly i have no interest in continuing
scrubs
but only seasons 1-8. and honestly probably excluding season 4, as strange as that sounds. scrubs is mostly on this list because of seasons five through eight and I could rant on and on about how much I love the weird way the show evolves in the face of the status quo demanded by its existence within the sitcom genre during over the course of those three seasons in particular
gilmore girls
most of season 7 barring the first two episodes and the series finale is mid. and this entry on the list is definitely excluding a year in the life. my gilmore girls takes are all very basic and i am a very basic bitch in that regard
the perks of being a wallflower
trading places
finally, i have my personal blog filter tags listed below:
#mayayayapping
any meaningful post whose purpose is achieved specifically by its text content
#mental stuff
adhd/dpdr/depression/anxiety/other
#my music
self-explanatory. as of january 2026 i haven't been able to post anything new and everything i have posted isn't that great though
#trans posting
basically mayayayapping but specifically about transgenderism-related topics
#jumblr
postings about my experience as a jewish person in present day present time. i’m raised like as reform as one can get though (sorry) so this is basically just the The Gentiles Frustrate Me Today tag
Two days into summer and my support network has been cut down to basically just my speech therapist and one or two online friends who barely tolerate me this is so fine
I really sometimes struggle with the fact that I can't go anywhere in the internet without seeing stuff that is profoundly antisemitic, posted by people who think that they're "on the right side of history" because they do so, and I just am supposed to act like this is okay and normal
And this will never affect them, this will never cause consequences for them, they will go on with their lives like it never happened and if, God willing, we return to a time where this behavior is not en vogue, they'll just pretend they never did it
Ugggghhhh fucking realll. I know so many people in real life whose antisemitism in part manifests in the form of them wanting to play Progressive Social Justice Moral Hero Who Hates The Evil (((Bad Guys))) without actually caring about putting in the critical thinking and effort and shit. Like it’s literally a fucking game to everyone and the consequences don’t impact them so they feel no motivation whatsoever to gaf and do some critical thinking and self reflection or even just entertain the idea that they might *possibly* be in the wrong about this thing they know nothing about
alr so lore time
back in 2020 i started using an old username which was commonly shortened as "slinky," and that was my online persona basically until i worked out my gender identity and found a chosen name in mid 2024 that i prefer ("maya")...
I asked my online friends to start calling me maya because at that point in time most of my socialization occured online and i wanted to experience some of that gender alignment
...
fastforward to present day present time february 2026. the behavior of asking people to call me "maya" has never stopped and as i joined new social media platforms i decided i'd just cut to the chase and have people call me maya
don't get me wrong though, there are still definitely major differentiations between cyberspace wired maya and meatspace real maya. it's just that it's all under one name which kinda just makes everything blurry...
wait chat holed the phone. the reason why im feeling like this might be that i didnt' take a single goddamn one of my meds this morning..l. ohhhh fuckkkk
I always took comfort in the fact that I’d never have to feel very alone on Valentine’s Day because I’ve never had much interest in romantic relationships and so my lack of participation in the holiday would never have to remind me of how I struggle to connect to other human beings and build interpersonal bonds
Which is to say. I’m very salty at the fact that platonic Valentine’s Day apparently is a thing and that (1) nobody told me about this until I found out about it by hearing about or seeing my friends participate in it with each other and (2) I am no longer exempt from feeling pathetic due to having nothing to do on Valentine’s Day and (3) I will now actually feel MORE pathetic on Valentine’s Day than if I was looking for a romantic relationship because the bar has now been placed much lower and I am STILL unable to reach it
