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Hello, everyone! It’s been a while since I posted and I’m not sure in which frequency I’m going to put up readings from now on, since I found out I’m an incorporation psychic and started studying and developing in that area. So tarot is going to take the back seat for a while, but I’m thinking of opening private readings once my energy is more stable and I’m more connected to my guides.
But enough about me, in today’s reading we’re looking into something that’s been holding you back. That could be in any form. Maybe you feel like there’s an energy that’s been stopping you from accomplishing something or there’s a part of you that’s been self sabotaging or even something else. Whatever it is, we’re going to look into it. Please let me know if it resonates a go ahead to pick your pile 💜
1>2>3
How to pick: if you’re having a hard time picking your group, you can close your eyes, take a deep breath, relax your muscles and focus on your breathing. Once you feel your mind clearing and your body relaxing, open your eyes and try to feel which pile you’re drawn to the most. If you’re still unable to chose, you can skim your finger through the screen and see if any of the piles feel any different to you. If you still can’t chose, maybe this reading isn’t for you and that’s okay. Try looking for another reading that matches your energy.
Disclaimer: this is a general reading, so be aware that not everything in your group might apply to you. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t.
Cards: King of wands, Knight of pentacles in reverse, The Magician in reverse, four of swords, The High Priestess, The Hermit in reverse, ten of cups and The Star.
Back of the deck: The Hanged Man in reverse.
Hello, group 1! Welcome to your reading! The first thing I have to tell you is that there are two guides by your side that really want you to move forward with your life and find your true calling. One of them comes in a masculine and more jovial energy while the other comes in a feminine and more mature one. I don’t know if they are loved ones who passed away and stayed by your side or some other type of spirit guides. But whoever they are, they really want you to prosper and to start moving in the direction of your destiny. They tell me that what’s holding you back is a person, or at least your desire to fulfill this person’s expectations of you. This person’s energy is coming as of someone older and more experienced in a certain area. They could be your parent or some other sort of family member. Other alternative is them being your boss, teacher or some sort of mentor. Mostly they are someone you look up to and want to impress or become more like them. There seems to be a hierarchy between the two of you. This could be just your perception because you feel like this person is more competent or experienced than you, or there really is an official hierarchy like in the case of them being your parent or your boss. At the end of the day you feel like you are lesser than this person in an area and desire to reach their level. And that is what’s holding you back. Because your reason for wanting to become better is related to that person’s perception of you. Basically you want to impress them on their terms when those terms never favored you in the first place. You are different from this person in a fundamental way. You both perceive reality differently and the more you are trying to reach their level, the more you are letting your own nature be diminished. You have so much talent inside you, but you are not using it. You’re putting it to the side like it isn’t the most spectacular thing about you. And I don’t even feel like I need to specify this. You know what talent I’m talking about. You know what you are capable of. It makes no sense to try and be like someone else when what you have is so special. I feel like you might need a break to think this over without being persuaded by this person. It takes a toll on someone to pursue a path that feels unnatural. And you, my love, haven’t taken a break in a while. You need quiet time and space in order to listen to your intuition. Maybe you’ve been pushing yourself lately as a way to avoid doing exactly that. But your spirituality is calling you to pause for a moment. They are asking you to honestly reflect on what it is that you truly want in life (what would be your happily ever after?) and what is the best path you could take in order to achieve it. You haven’t been listening to your heart lately and that’s messing you up, my dear. The last thing I have to tell you is that you have a beautiful destiny. Whatever your calling is, it will reach you eventually. And when it does it will feel like freedom, even like magic. You will be grounded. But in order to find that calling you will need to follow the direction of your heart. Don’t close your eyes to your own needs. You’re the one responsible for caring for them. If you neglect them, so will everyone else.
Take care of yourselves, group 1. Know that you are deeply loved by your guides. They want you to find your destiny and your happiness as soon as possible. I hope this reading brought some light to you. Thank you so much for being here. Sending you lots of love 💜
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Group 2
Cards: King of Swords, Queen of Cups, nine of pentacles and three of cups in reverse
Back of the deck: knight of pentacles in reverse.
Hello, group 2! Welcome to your reading! The things that has been holding you back is your parents, or the people who raised you. Not to say that you have a bad relationship with them. For most of you I feel like it is quite the contrary. You admire your guardians quite deeply. They are showing up as the King of swords and the Queen of cups, so that tells me you see them as competent, successful, reliable, wise and highly intelligent people. You see them as so incredible that you might feel a lot of pressure to become as successful and amazing as them. You seem to think that you need to prove yourself for some reason. Like you need to give them back what they gave to you. But I don’t feel like they expect you to give anything back. Your guardians are happy with the life they built for themselves and that’s the only thing they want you to accomplish. They want you to find happiness and don’t care much about how that may look like. And despite knowing that, you still feel like proving yourself. You feel like you don’t belong in this amazingly talented family of yours and that makes you unworthy of their care and attention. Group 2, you seem to be so focused on how amazing your family is that you can’t even see what amazing qualities you have. The song “for the dancing and the dreaming” from How to Train your Dragon just started playing as I was writing that which only confirms to me that your family loves you for who you are and they don’t expect any “mighty deeds or rings of gold” from you. They just want you near and happy. If you are struggling to see that, why not just go ahead and ask? I’m sure you will realize that there is nothing you need to do in order to belong with your family. You always have belonged. Once you internalize that is when you’ll be able to move forward. Once you move out from under your family’s shadow and start letting the light shine on you is when you’ll finally be able to grow on your own terms. I’m seeing this big, huge tree that is centuries old and a little seed that fell from it and keeps looking up at the big tree and wondering why it doesn’t look the same. But the little seed will only be able to turn into a sapling and then into a tree once the wind or an animal takes it away from under the shadow of the big tree and into fertile soil and sunlight. No trees grow under the shadow. And you seem to be wanting to flourish right under the shadow. That will get you no where, group 2. In order to grow you will need to learn to seek the sunlight. You may not be able to see your own self worth right now, but how could you when you haven’t had enough light? Most people tend to be scared of the dark. You, on the other hand, keep running towards it. What scares you so much about the light that makes the dark feel like comfort? And what do you need in order to gain the courage to step into the light? Just a heads up, but it feels warmer under the light.
Thank you so much for being here, group 2. I’m hoping this reading was of help to you. Sending you lots of love 💜
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Group 3
Cards: three of wands in reverse, ace of pentacles in reverse, four of cups, the Hermit in reverse, three of cups in reverse, Death and Knight of cups in reverse.
Back of the deck: ten of pentacles in reverse.
Hello, group 3! Welcome to your reading! The first thing I have to tell you is that I’ve been yawning non stop ever since I started pulling your cards, which shows me how deeply tired you are. So the first message I’m getting is that you need to rest. You won’t be able to move forward and forge your own path if you do not have a clear and rested mind, body and spirit. Now onto your cards, they tell me you have been waiting for something to happen in order to move forward with your life, almost like you are waiting for a sign from the universe to tell you what to do and some of you are starting to feel comfortable in this energy of stagnation, of waiting around. It looks like you’re begging the universe for a sign but you don’t even look around for those signs. It looks like some hidden part of you believes that it won’t feel as good to have it in reality as it does in your fantasy. Maybe the reason is because you’re scared of what it would actually entail getting what you want. It looks like you see yourself as too small for this thing. Like you won’t be able to handle the pressure or the responsibility. An example of a situation like that would be you wanting to enter this specific college course, but you feel like you aren’t intelligent enough and you keep waiting for something or someone to tell you that you have what it takes to accomplish that, but you aren’t studying for the entrance exam and you don’t even know that dates in which you can apply. Another example would be if you had a crush on someone and continuously fantasized about them, but never said hi or developed a conversation, scared of being rejected, so you kept waiting for the universe to push you two together. Basically you’re so scared of making a move and not being enough that you keep expecting the thing you want to fall into your lap like magic without you having to expose yourself. You’re not considering how it would actually look like to have that in reality. I get the feeling you must be very young, in which case, I have to tell you that what you’re going through is normal. You don’t know some things about the world yet and have an idealized and detached from reality understanding of some things you’ve never been through. So know that nothing of what I’m saying is coming as judgement, but as an orientation. What you imagine is rarely what happens in real life. In order to pass a college exam you need to study for it. In order to get a date with someone you have to interact with them. In order to move out of your parents house you need to be able to afford living on your own. In order to learn how to play an instrument you need to learn music theory first. There are steps before the end goal and you are either ignoring those steps or you don’t even know they exist. Which makes it practically impossible for you to get to where you wanna go. If you want to get to the other side of the river, you need to cross the bridge. But you haven’t even found out where the bridge is. So it looks like the first thing you need before even thinking of moving forward is figuring out how to find that bridge. And if you’ve never done that before, it wouldn’t do you harm to ask others who already found the bridge to show you how to do it yourself. But I feel like the biggest things that’s holding you back is both your fear and your conformity. Your fear of reaching higher than you can go and falling and hurting yourself in the process adding to the feeling of conformity you get when you daydream about accomplishing your goal. When you dream about it, it feels almost as good as if you had it already. And maybe that’s where you need to be right know. Who said you have to get out of this state of conformity? I’m coming back to the feeling of tiredness that I felt in the beginning of your reading. Maybe you don’t have the sufficient energy to move towards this goal of yours at this time in your life. Which is more than okay. No one said you have to do anything about this wish of yours right now.
HOLY SHITTTT ok this is big, actually. When this person will arrive into your life you'll actually feel it into your gut. This person will bring transformation into your life. Everything that was there before??? DESTROYED. I both pulled the tower alongside the tower so it won't be easy at all for you, but it's for the better i swear. With the hierophant too, it will hit you right in your beliefs about religion and family traditions, everything will change in your personal life but at least they want something serious with you, even if it's hard and transformative. The old way will be swiped out from your life to make the new way come to you. This person, with the 2 of cups and the judgement, will come into your life like a catalyst but with a big pink ribbon on it (I don't know why i said that but idk, i felt like saying it). They'll love you so much and it will be a true and very long romance into your life, love at first sight too. There seems to be something really special about this person actually. They'll also be a provider for you but just know that things will be slow and won't begin in just a day!! Then, we have the holy ace of cups with the justice rx with the emperor and the 3 of swords rx. Hear me out, I don't feel like it's something negative for you. This person has been wronged by someone else in love, like an ex or previous lover, and they're afraid that something like that would happen again. They're protecting their heart with all their body and authority to not let it be broken again. They just became their healing journey and maybe you'll be their catalyst too!! Btw, have i already said big ass provider and sugar daddy (I don't mean it's a man but i just feel a lot of masculine energy in here) energy????
Pile 2
Someone really difficult will arrive soon into your love life. I don't mean they're a player or a flirt, they're just intense. They've been stuck in their mind for so long, isolating themselves just to be in their head alone. They don't love being with other people this much but they're trying to escape this loneliness. However, during this isolation, they managed to mature and grow, they're way more stable than before and they can regulate their own emotions better than before. This person seems like they've been healing their wounds and focus on themselves more than ever. I wouldn't say that this isolation was bad for them, they really needed it to become the person you'll meet soon. They value stability in their personal life, however, they might run away or hide the moment they feel someone is threatening that stability. They'll offer you something stable once they get to know you and everything will feel mutual and equal between the two of you. The 7 of swords, however, it's like a warning sign about this person. They really might be an avoidant type of person and they might lie a lot to protect themselves from any harm. They might also be isolated by their family, even if they crave that type of love so much. They might also be really shy and struggle with communicating their feelings with others. With the hanged man and the knight of pentacles, they're a really slow building person when it comes with relationships. They need to analyze everything from different points of view and it might be frustrating to you. Knowing them, it might feel easy and fresh at the beginning but, to avoid any internal instability, the better thing to do is to cut them out of your life since they won't give you anything serious because of their childish behaviors towards relationships in general. They crave love but they don't want to give any in return. The 4 of wands rx here is a warning too, they can't commit and they might leave you as soon as a new person might arrive in their life (the fool and the death), they're looking for stability but also for the thrill, they crave stability too but they're also afraid of it.
Pile 3
Welcome group 3!!! Now it's your turn for a reading about the person who's coming into your life!! This person lives his life looking forward to love, but not just a fling, a real, mutual and soul merging true love. They're a hopeless romantic who's diving in the dating world to find the one. They're romantic and very attached to the idea of building a family with their person. Sometimes they're impulsive with their words and jumps in situations where people might take advantage of them. They want to love and give so much that sometimes they over give to people that don't deserve it at all. They love romance and they're a true empath who loves to help people in their healing journeys. I feel like they're the type of person that every night they pray to the north star to give them a love who doesn't destroy his heart. I don't actually think they're lucky in love, but they're still there hoping for it somehow (i would have given up since the beginning so i really admire their attitude towards love life). They're soooo ready to give anything to their lover and FASTTTTT, however they might obsess over a person for a few days and then forget, and this is the problem. They like to party a lot and to have fun but with the 5 of cups here, i don't think they feel good after that. So, will this person be more faithful towards their crush this time or will they move from one person to another again?
Thank you for reading my pick a leon general reading!!! I hope you liked it and, if you'd like it, leave me a feedback too!!♥️
🗽How’s Your Destined Person’s Love Gonna Change You for the Better? ♦︎ Timeless Pick A Card
At very special stages in our lives, every now and then, we encounter very special individuals who seem to possess this uncanny ability to change us forever. Sometimes for the worse. Sometimes for the better. But ultimately—hopefully—for the wiser🌾
Well, how would meeting your Destined Person change you for the better though?? After all, this is your The One😉 How would you bring out the best in each other?🎁
En garde!🤺
A higher romance leading to a sweet union is all yours for the experiencing! But before a wondrous, fated encounter could take place... Do you dare to evolve in order to match the love and wisdom your Destined Person has to offer?🐛
song: Ready to love by SEVENTEEN
film: Butterfly and Sword (1993)
major arcana: XII The Hanged Man, II The High Priestess Rx, VI The Lovers Rx
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Pile 1 - You On the Outside are What I Always am On the Inside
vibe: Way Of Life by Core Of Soul
‘To love someone else is easy, but to love what you are, the thing that is yourself, is just as if you were embracing a glowing red-hot iron: it burns into you, and that is very painful.’
Love - Gold Historian (Raphael Holinshed)
You are a person before you are a lover. Deep inside, there was always this child who wanted to love, to be loved, to be Love itself. But you weren’t always clear about how to be or do Love safely in this world that didn’t always know how to reflect or teach children what sane, mature Love was all about🎎 You roamed about for quite a while, looking for persons to love and ways to express Love, but you were often very messy. And you were often betrayed, too.
And so, at some point in Life, for some time you burrowed your face in the pillow and decided that you would never extend your arms anymore⚔️ That it was ultimately pointless trying to love another or even show that you’re capable of it, because the world gave you so much disappointment. And when you decided on this, the truth was, you lost a huge chunk of your real-self, because the True You was always a loving person💗 There was no other way around it: you ARE love itself.
Are you…by any chance significantly/strategically Libra or Pisces?😚 Perhaps Saturn/Jupiter/Stellium in 7H or 12H? In this incarnation, you’re supposed to meet your Destined Person who in many ways, in every way, in the essence of who they are as a person, reflects back to you every bit of goodness, kindness and loveliness that you’ve tried to suppress or hide from the world🥹
Compassion - Green Astrologer (Robert Fludd)
One way that you’ll recognise your Destined Person is that they reflect outwardly, exceedingly confidently freely, these strong qualities of yours that for some karmic reasons got you into a lot of troubles in the past. By their example, by them just existing and doing and being who they are, you are reminded of your own powers and potentials: those yet to be shared with the world, those yet to be proven that they were always your superpowers🔥
The suffering? The bullying and betrayal? Darling, all of that was just part of the plot—part of your understanding the full spectrum of your personal power through experiencing contrasts☯️ Of course, you could’ve felt super miserable when going through the motions, but even if right now you’re still going through it all, I’d like to promise you that it’ll all be worthwhile, and you’ll be sure of every bit of this promise when you finally get to know your Destined Person🐢
Oo la la… You know why?🤭 Because when you get to know your Destined Person, you’ll be amazed at just how brilliantly they express all of your inner qualities! You will fall hopelessly in love with this person who seems to embody all of your greatest qualities so LOUDLY, so VISIBLY. Who they are on the outside = who you secretly are on the inside. And you’ll find a sense of strength and courage to reclaim yourself again🎣 Your Destined Person will make you fall in love with yourself by just being themselves🤷🏻♀️
Kindness - Silver Magus (Merlin)
In them just being themselves they will heal you in all the ways a person can be healed😘 I just know you’ve been through a lot but especially in terms of how you’ve felt betrayed by the world. I think there is a part of you that’s sensitive and easily hurt by even just the concept of unkindness, let alone cruelty. Your Destined Person—with an unhinged sense of humour—possesses this cute optimism, as well as acute sense of humanitarianism what will nourish your spirit back to Life!🐞
For quite a while in your Life now, you’ve been itching to go back to what feels natural to you. Whatever this may be for you, the truth of the matter is that you’re right now being called to a higher—a more evolved Life Purpose of yours—that can only be navigated together with your Destined Person!👫 You see—you’ll know—that when you’re with the right person, every bit of the cells in your body will recognise the safety and the ‘naturalness’ of it all.
Being in the presence, in the embrace, of the right person sets your Soul free to pursue those higher ideals you might’ve forsaken in the past🗽 And for some of you, those ‘ideals’ might just be ‘being fully and unapologetically yourself’—no longer apologising for being you the way that you are or for having been born at all. This is one of the plethora of reasons your Destined Person has manifested in your 3D🥰
LEVEL UP🔻💚
because it’s all worth it if it’s for you - Priestess of Patience
reverberate into me and guide me back - Priestess of Ambition
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Pile 2 - Reborn, Over and Over, to Return to the Core of Myself and Love Me There
vibe: Itsumo no Tokoro de (at the usual place) by Sakamoto Maaya
‘Therefore, to love somebody else in the first place is always an escape which we all hope for, and we all enjoy it when we are capable of it. But in the long run, it comes back on us.’
Love - Gold Geographer (John Dee)
To me, you really are an adventurous spirit. Some people may call you ‘lover girl’ or ‘lover boy’. You’re always on the lookout for some kind of a romance—sometimes, a whirlwind romance🌪 I suppose you were always looking for something. Some kind of sensation. Perhaps, some place of belonging. And many of you have identified, perhaps subconsciously, that another person’s internal system can also be a sanctuary🪹🍃🪺
You, want to belong in somebody’s heart. Perhaps because there is a specific kind of warmth you’ve been looking for, craving, and wanting to be enveloped in🛌 The whole time, what you were really looking for was a Heart that has the same shape as yours. You were searching high and low, far and wide, for someone whose heartbeats you’d sometimes felt reverberate inside of you. And those beats were the reason you started out on this shadow work journey towards finding your way back to your Destined Person⛴
You’ve looked into many different faces, eyes and smiles, just to recognise one that finally feels like Home. Many times you found disappointments, fakes, and straight up betrayers and abusers🧌 But somehow you could never stop—you could never stop believing that someone exceptionally Kind and Warm would eventually meet you at the end of the road, and they’d tell you how proud they are that you’ve made it this far🛣
Compassion - Green Physician (Paracelsus)
Ngl, you’ve probably felt ‘used’ by many of the people you used to ‘love’ or care about a lot. This may include friends and colleagues as well, and not just romantic interests/partners. I’ll tell you this much: you most likely have a strong Scorpionic/Plutonic/Lilith aenergy in your chart, right? You are a power source. Originally, this power of yours was bestowed you for a great manifestation with your Destined Person🔌
So that’s why when the wrong people plug into your power source, you get drained. It wasn’t because you were ‘weak’; the Universe had to make you feel that way so that you’d know these were the wrong matches for your kind of Power🪫 So then, you’d take it upon yourself to get clear first about exactly what kind of Power Source you are🐣 I…don’t know if you’re gonna be happy hearing this…but…
The only Person who could fill the emptiness or calm the storms inside is your Destined Person and no one else. But in order to manifest them in your 3D, you’re required to die to many old paradigms and narratives that made you so scattered in your focus to begin with🧩 This was by design, honey. Your Higher Self devised this type of narrative progression for just your kind of Lore🧚🏻♀️ I dunno why. This is part of your inner exploration, right?
Kindness - Green Alchemist (Nicolas Flamel)
See, there must be some kind of hurt in your history that’s made it so challenging to focus on pouring all your affection purely on yourself🍶 Whatever it may have been in your personal story, know that each time things or relations fell apart in your Life, it was essentially your Destined Person calling you back to them. Relationships fell apart because your Destined Person’s frequencies were ‘jamming’ those lower-vibrational timelines⚡️📡⚡️
Now you had no other choice but to focus solely on loving YOU~♥︎ All so that when you finally meet your Destined Person in the 3D, you’d have become so grounded in yourself that your nervous system wouldn’t break apart by their sheer presence🤭 Your Destined Person has a magnanimous aura about them! That’s why you need to work on YOU to match that higher-vibrational expression of WOWZA🔋 Do you understand?
It will not all be in vain. You’ll see. I sense that quite a number of peeps resonating with Pile 2 might feel very ‘ordinary’ and there’s some part of you that wants to shrug these messages off and explain away the synchronicities, but… I think you’ve been feeling the ‘call’ for really quite a while now🫣 You’re meant to be ‘seen’ and ‘heard’, in some capacity~♪ Your Destined Person is someone ‘prominent’, and this whole time, gosh, you’ve just been rising up to match them in ‘status’ or ‘visibility’😍
LEVEL UP🔻💗
because it’s all worth it if it’s for you - Priestess of Love
reverberate into me and guide me back - Priestess of Ritual
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Pile 3 - Something In Your Eyes Taught Me That It's Safe to be Soft When I’m with You
vibe: Here, There and Everywhere by The Beatles
‘You cannot stay away from yourself forever, you have to return, have to come to that experiment, to know whether you really can love. That is the question—whether you can love yourself and that will be the test.’
Love - Red Astronomer (Johannes Kepler)
Hello, Twin~👋🏻 That’s most likely how your Destined Person has (or will) greeted you in the past. They call you their Twin just by looking into your eyes🥺 When you recognise each other in the 3D world, your Destined Person is going to acknowledge that you both practically have lived ‘the same lives’ just maybe at different timelines or geographical locations. This is the Pile for my galactic ones. Those of you who identify as Starseeds—twin flame or no twin flame. These are the ‘I’m here for the Great Work’ collectives🆘
You are practically ‘owned’ by the Grid; consumed by your Work. It has been like that for a majority of your Life that at some point, I think you got traumatised and forgot how to feel ‘safe’ at all. You’ve been through cycles and cycles of narcissistic abuse—could be familial, relational or professional👷🏻♀️👩🏻🍳👩🏻💻 For a while now, you’ve been on high-alert. You could be very ‘sensitive’ to the smallest, most seemingly menial triggers that other people have no concept for as to why these ‘nothings’ are so annoying to you. It’s because you’ve been in the trenches and you recognise even micro-aggressions in a millisecond!📡
And, the thing with you is that you’re a fighter; at minimum an ally of Justice👩🏻⚖️ You HATE letting people get away with even micro narcissistic aggression. Some of you, you could’ve experienced some form of ‘female bullying’, too. You HATE most people’s stupidity—and maybe even cowardice—in not being able to or willing to call out a narcissistic behaviour. Realising that you may always be the only one fighting, you chose to disappear🍂
Compassion - Red Geographer (Marco Polo)
You see, people didn’t understand your kind of Love. For fighting for justice or righteousness you’ve been called ‘difficult’. They don’t understand your Heart that wants to protect. Until you come in touch with your Destined Person in this mortal realm🪢 Oooohhhh let me tell you: this BITCH is an even stronger, bigger, difficult-er fighter than YOU~🥊 You’ll see, your Destined Person’s courage and stubbornness will put everything into perspective.
And then you’ll know, you’ll get your confirmation and validation that the whole time you weren’t the wrong one or the crazy one or the difficult one. Everybody else’s standards were the low-resolution ones!👾 Imagine a world where your trust and goodness are weaponised against you, and most people’s reaction/response is that: ‘you should’ve known better’🤷🏻♀️ Ummm why are we as a society coddling/excusing/enabling negative and harmful behaviours???
This wouldn’t fly with your Destined Person. In general. But also, this means that whoever has ever made you feel terrible or wrong for being the way that you are will one day deal with the wrathful, vengeful nature of your Destined Person’s😂 Again! This is just your Destined Person fighting for and defending what’s RIGHT! You’ve been RIGHT all along, and now, you’re the LIGHT in their Life. They’ll defend that Light with their Life🫀🤺❤️🔥
Kindness - Gold Alchemist (Roger Bacon)
When you ‘witness’ your Destined Person, the first thing that pops in your mind will be: wow, my whole entire Life makes sense now🛸🥫🍝 Ionno, just something about them. The way they think, talk, move, even the way their face lights up when they’re surprised. Everything about them makes sense to you and it seems like that also makes sense about you😝 Two sides of the same coin.
See, you both aren’t ‘intense’ or ‘difficult’ even if some people have convinced you so. The reality is that you’re both ‘pure’ and ‘honest’. There’s this disciplined integrity, if you will, that won’t let you bow down to what’s disingenuous💎 Such a quality is extremely rare in people and so, if there’s one absolutely definitive thing in which your Destined Person helps you become ‘better’, it is that their whole entire existence gives you stronger, bigger, deadlier ammo to reach for your Midheaven🧭
Well, could be for your North Node, too; whichever you resonate. The point is, you have a certain very big and important Mission in life as a Soul having a human experience, right? What’s really nice, really sweet and romantic is that you do have a Counterpart who in every way shares your priorities and passions🥨 If this has been your main pile, seriously, there’s nothing serious here to consider. To begin with, you never needed ‘fixing’; you only needed a Mirror Counterpart who finally makes you feel safe in your own alien skin🍌
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what are the shocking things will come in your way before the year ends?
꒰੭. listen to what your heart wants not what your eyes love about.
pile one
what a sweet start, the knight of cups is giving me of someone new is about to come in your way. probably, a new crush? an admirer confession, a new lover, a possible romantic interest or a new friendship, for some, meeting a soulmate is highly possible or for the minority of you, reuniting with an old connection is possible too. i'm sure one of this connection i've mentioned, you'll have it before the year ends. if we will look towards this person nature, this is someone who might be less younger or simply someone who inexperienced than you, they might be popular and loved by many people, this is someone who may have a pisces placements with the mixed of cancer placement as well. someone who is romantic, intuitive, and lowkey flamboyant, if this is an ex-lover or a failed connection, they may lurking with your socials for awhile now. they may have thinking of reaching out and have a thought in mind like, “what if we tried again.” that's not the end, you'll discover a secret, hidden info, gossip or a tea about you because there's a high chance that someone might bring this up to you due that they cannot longer fight/hold their conscience. it's giving, “i know you would not forgive me after this but i can't hold this forever and you deserve to know it.” although, the context doesn't need to be like that though since i'm just giving the energy of what it feels like but yeah expect that confession around winter season? well, maybe for some of you a romantic confession might be happening in mid year.
i can even call you this year as of a year manifested one. you are probably manifesting quietly lately and maybe doubting whether they will ever come in your way but i can't guarantee that all of them will be manifested by the end of the year but expect many blessings will may come. although not all of your manifestation may sprout but expect few of them to grow in the garden you seeded them all, there's also a suprise opportunity here regarding with your finances. well if you are waiting for something like "your application have been approved, congratulations!" whether this is a job application or a next school year application. this is the right message for me to forward that you would likely hear back from that before this year season ends. going back with your finances, you may discover something new to level up your income or for few who may be manifesting of "i attract many and kind clients", this month until the end of year is a must look forward because those silent people who are lurking into your business (physically /online), may finally have courage to buy something from you.
while if you experience being overlooked, neglected or unconsidered by others, that's the end. you are now stepping on a new chapter where people are starting to notice you. what i mean by that is not that "oh they suddenly glow up", no, typically not that but in a way that "ah they do this task better than everybody else. also, you will attract a lot of people who wants to share their story with you, intentional or not like you suddenly have this mini-social bloom before the year ends like suddenly you will have this moment where "why everyone suddenly interested talking with me?". for few of you, this is very specific message wkwkw, if someone ghosted you before they might return again, well it's up to you how will you approach this situation, but here's the advice. assertiveness is the key like honey, know your worth, you got the attention and you attract. it's cutest part and it's a cloud 9 feeling but don't spread yourself too thin okay? know what your worth is. in the other times, you don't have to respond to every message, invite, or even with every flirt actions because sometimes saying "no" to others is your biggest manifestation move.
ahh, i thought it was possible that one person would come on your way but i was wrong because when i pulled an extra card, i got another card that has a person illustration on it. i see this person as someone who is not playing games, mature, possibly older, and may offer protection to you although it doesn't have to be like as lover's connection, you might meet this person through work or at school, they can act as a mentor or a teacher towards you, like they can see your potential and they are willing to help you build and discover those hidden skills.
and then there's a bride, bouquet, and ring cards here coming from the oracle, at first, i thought it was like "dang, someone is getting married before the year ends???" but no, looking by it again. it was giving a combination of someone walking down the aisle in order to claim their blessings. i mean this is you, you are the bride card representing here. it's vows, i am ready to receive peace and love like you are waking through the aisle of your own self-worth, you are now leaving your self-doubt along with those breakdowns. idk what's going with me but i suddenly got here the word "bounce back?" although it's not related to the cards, i feel like those people who betrayed you, make you cry before? may become pressed seeing how radiant you become by the next few months because of the major overwhelming compliments that will melt your heart before year ends, well, maybe for few of you who got s/o you may got an actual commitment like "let's do this for real' or engagement with a ring, otherwise, for the majority of you it's a message that no more half love, no more maybes because this time you are reclaiming your inner child's joy.
before this year ends, you are no longer the person who started this year's, and yeah, every blessing and miracle there is an associated exchange, you are starting to notice people are walking away from you, a consistent habit that you start to lose interest with, or constantly seeing weird signs or experiencing nightmare dreams, except those you no longer need will be thrown at the trash respectfully. if you are looking for a sign to play again, to do silly things, to paint, to learn dance or to eat something that your childhood remind you of. great, this pile is really meant for you. it simply a reminder don't overwork yourself and learn to return your joy, it's no longer "what if it goes, wrong?" because right now, you are in your 'what if it goes right" stage. no more worries it's a turn to build your trust again with yourself, everything will be dropped down from the skies like glitters and confetti. that's the end. i hope you'll like this reading, I also cast a spell on you as a bonus. may you (group 1) spend the remaining months with full of joy, thank you for letting me read your energy, i love you!
(plausible astrological placements): pisces/cancer/taurus/libra/capricorn sun. libra moon or water moon. 2nd, 3rd and 11th house placements. aquarius/capricorn saturn, neptune in the 1st house. libra rising. venus-pluto aspects. mars-neptune aspects. moon 10th house or 4th house. leo/virgo rising. (ps. only if resonated)
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pile two
to begin this reading, i just want to share a small note. if you feel drawn to pile one, there’s a strong chance that some messages there are meant especially for you particularly within the first and second paragraphs, because they may carry messages that resonate deeply with you or reflect your current energy. i feel like the shocking news that comes your way is not a physical/material more come as a spiritual gift.
i feel a strong stalker mode here. there is maybe someone who is lowkey obsessed with you, this can be from a weird stalker/someone who is secretly hate you that is lurking through your account, they don't like your posts, i mean that, they have been studying you like a thesis, this is someone who is giving a sweet girl/soft boy energy, you lowkey trigger their envy nature Imao. i wouldn't be suprise too if you were once a topic of this person's tea to others, these past months you've been fucked up or come across with a super galactic detox maybe you cut people off, you stop seeking validation, or maybe stop chasing the person who does not even texts you back, by the time this year ends, you will be look back and says "hold on, i'm not sad anymore, why i suddenly feel glowing? and ah, here's the revenge part, the people who hurt you? they will feel it, the energy is bouncing back to them.
also, i feel like your ancestors are hyping you up, like, they may send you a random song that feels resonance with your current situation, you may also dream about the people from your past although you didn't even think about them. you might feel like you are losing everything but you didn't know that your ancestors making space for your blessings, and oh, if you are working on something, it's literally says here that your hard work finally pays off". this might be along with recognition like people suddenly pay attention to this, it will melt your heart, i also feel for the small group of you, you will attract abundance from something you really passionately about like your your life turning upside down. this might shocks you, imagine a creative skill or hustle that you love to do give you an opportunity to expand your wealth for the next remaining months.
this might be hard to shallow but someone from your family may betray you, like this person? they don't believe in you, they may smile at you when you are present, talk with you nicely, but that's not what i feel behind the scenes because they not only see you unworthy but also, unaware of how mad-person you are when it comes to skill and intelligence, anyone would envy when you have both. you are just low key, calm, and quite all times but you have a lot of plans for the remaining months (you mostly gonna achieve them though). this person they think you are lowclass or just dumb individual who is lucky to have the privilege of their life because of their parents. i think, this might happen around this month? or early november (pisces, aries, and scorpio season) you may hear this tea from someone who is also close with you, from someone who is acting like a motherly figure, the advice here is don't meddle with them, let them talk and focus on your goal, for my scorpio, sagittarius, and capricorn babies, there is something major might happen with your birthday season.
i feel that you are planning to change some of your habits? probably watch what you are eating or change your routine, otherwise, it's you, start transforming yourself physically before the year ends. you were feeding yourself energetically, like less drama, and more peace, less pleasing people and have more self-respect. like you gonna start to nourish yourself like someone you truly love. (i'm proud of you), there's a day too that you'll wake and felt nothing but... blessed. i hope you'll like this reading, i cast a peace of mind spell on you as a bonus. may you (group 2) spend the remaining months with full of love and joy, thank you for letting me read your energy. i love you²
(plausible astrological placements): cancer/pisces/capricorn/taurus sun. scorpio or taurus moon. libra or pisces rising. 2nd, 6th, 8th, and 10th house placements, venus in pisces or taurus. mars in leo or scorpio, mercury in taurus or virgo, neptune in the 12th house. pluto in the 8th house. saturn in capricorn or aquarius. strong venus-neptune aspects. moon-pluto aspects. jupiter in cancer or sagittarius, sun-moon opposition or trine themes, north node in taurus/scorpio axis.
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pile three
i see heavy overthinking in your energy right now. you feel a strong uncertainty about your future like you're over analyzing what will happen next in life, love, or with your career. i see that you don't have a peace of mind, you stressed a lot than you admit. also, i feel things like in your past still bleed and hurt. some things are left disappointment, anger, or grief internally that haven’t been fully processed that stay in the background and disturb your peace. i see stability here, you're finally building the kind of peace you used to chase. heavy capricorn sun here. i see you becoming a whole new soul, like you may focus on cleaning and organising your place. expect something clicks may happen before the year ends. this could be a literal opportunity, most likely a new job for those who are in job hunting, congratulations. you'll get hired. i see last year may not one of your best years like you can count the good things happen to you than bad. last year was really an exhausting year for you. and this things that pushed you through last year? they built you instead of break you.
if you post something in the coming weeks, expect a higher engagement on it. also, i see someone lurking in your story views. you already know who this is. this is someone who has a aquarius or scorpio placements is watching you level up. they’re intimidated but were intrigued too. they realize you're not same person you used to be. besides, you may find yourself handling a lot, juggling things like working on glowing up, healing, and going on your usual job at the same time. what's more, there is maybe a miscommunication from a situationship or someone that made you experience mixed signals but don't show up consistently. this person/situationship made you feel decoding your entire personality. but it's not your fault, it simply the vibes of this situation is giving a solid trial in your life. this trial thought you that you're the prize, that this person can't replace you no matter how many people they tried to meet. i'm trilled to tell you that there's a new wave of love here. this is either a renewed chapter with someone who steps up, or a completely new person who sees your worth immediately. but your ancestors, if you wanted real love. they advised you to fix your boundaries and love yourself first. this person that gonna adore you is someone who'll notice the tiny details about you. expect late night conversations and lovely compliments from them. this is someone who exactly would know if you changed your perfume wkwkwk.
i feel like you were planning to change how you look, starting with your hair. you maybe planning to get those 2 hair color combinations, if my word is right, i think it's called mermaid hair color? since most of your cards are blue, green, and purple. but you don't want to take this if it doesn't resonate much but i'm sure you were planning to change your hair. either way, your confidence skyrockets because that insecurity feeling will be officially retired. we have a nostalgia oracle card here and 6 of cups tarot card here. I feel like you might see or hear from someone from your past. not to reopen old wounds but to finally close them peacefully. you might have more time with family this year, you may appreciate more your family. i see you having a lot of happy days with them before this year ends, or you're you're rediscovering joy through simplicity. you might spend your time with nature, says go outside, ground yourself, play music, bake something, walk barefoot on grass. like you suddenly feels little things become magical again. it's like your inner child healing. you might also meet new people, some stays others are lessons but most importantly, you're attracting souls who match your authenticity. and within winter season maybe around december-february. expect someone with a very younger male. energy or someone playful to have a heartfelt conversation. this connection will reminds you love can be easy again.
i feel like within all piles your group does have a strong love of orbit energy. i'm not biased, okay. i feel like you have many secret admirers than the rest of the group, since i got another person that who's been quiet but watching. this is someone who panics while trying to act cool when you're around. this is someone who is mysterious and hates being vulnerability. if you're single, it can be you meeting someone new through social settings or online. someone who is confident but kind, could have leo or libra placements, charming af, sees you as "different." either way, you're not chasing love but love's orbiting you now. i hope you'll like this reading, i cast a "i attract love" spell on you as a bonus. may you (group 3) spend the remaining months with full of love and joy, thank you for letting me read your energy. i love you³
(plausible astrological placements): capricorn/taurus/virgo/cancer/libra sun. taurus or cancer moon. capricorn or virgo rising. 2nd, 4th, 6th, and 10th house placements. venus in taurus or libra. mars in capricorn or aries. mercury in virgo or gemini. saturn in capricorn or aquarius. jupiter in taurus or cancer. neptune in the 6th or 12th house. pluto in the 10th or 8th house. strong saturn-venus aspects. moon-saturn or moon-jupiter aspects. north node in taurus/scorpio axis. earth and water dominant chart.
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This reading is for anyone who’s ready to step into what’s waiting for them...the abundance, love, growth, and joy that is forming in your life. It’s not about wishing or hoping...it’s about noticing the shifts, seeing the doors opening, and realizing that all the patience, lessons, and small steps you’ve taken are finally paying off. This is about the energy you’re putting out, the alignment you’re holding, and the universe matching that with everything that’s best for you. So grab a comfy seat, breathe, and let yourself soak in this guidance that reminds you, the best is truly yet to come.
You know the drill- choose the pictures you are most drawn too. If you are drawn to more than one pile, you can absolutely read or stay for the other piles too :)
Hello Pile 1 :)
king of pentacles, 2oS, King of cups, emperor, PoS and Lovers
You’ve been standing in the hallway for a long time, haven’t you?
There is this specific kind of silence that happens right before a massive life shift. It’s not a peaceful silence-it’s a restless one. It’s the sound of you pacing back and forth in your own mind, weighing Option A against Option B, trying to figure out if you’re being "realistic" or if you’re just being scared. If you’ve felt like you’ve been wearing a blindfold lately, hovering over a decision but unable to land, I want you to take a deep breath. That tension you feel? That’s not a sign that you’re lost. It’s the tension of a bowstring being pulled back. The further back it goes, the more power you’ll have when you finally let go.Right now, your energy feels a bit "twitchy." You’re gathering information, you’re scrolling, you’re researching, and you’re trying to outsmart your future. You think that if you just get one more piece of data, the path will become clear. But the truth is, you already know. You’re just waiting for permission to be as powerful as you actually are. You’ve been playing the role of the observer in your own life, watching for red flags and waiting for the other shoe to drop. But "the best is yet to come" isn't just a catchy phrase for you; it is a structural renovation of your entire reality. What is headed toward you is a level of stability that you might not even have a reference point for yet. We often talk about "success" in one-dimensional ways-either you have the money, but you’re stressed, or you’re happy, but you’re struggling. The energy shifting into your life right now is refusing that compromise. You are moving into a phase of "The Master."
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7ow, heirophant, 5os, knight of sword, ace of swords and 4oP
Okay, lemme start by saying this- You’re tired of being the strong one, aren’t you?
I can feel the tension in your shoulders before I even start. If you chose this pile, you’ve likely spent the last few months, maybe even the last few years, in a defensive crouch. You’ve been holding the line, protecting your peace, and trying to keep people from overstepping your boundaries. It’s felt like a constant uphill climb, hasn’t it? Like every time you take one step toward your dream, someone or something appears to challenge your right to be there. The "best" that is coming for you isn't just a physical gift; it is the end of the war. It is the moment you get to put the armour down because there is finally nothing left to fight. Lately, life has felt like a series of small, nagging conflicts. Maybe it’s coworkers who don’t get your vision, family members who keep pushing your buttons, or just that internal critic that tells you that you have to work twice as hard as everyone else just to stay level. You’ve been standing on your own little hill, fending off "arrows" from every direction. You’re good at it-you’re resilient, you’re tough, and you’ve got a backbone of steel, but God, it’s exhausting to always be the one who has to hold it all together. You might even feel a bit cynical right now. When someone says "the best is yet to come," a part of you probably wants to roll your eyes and ask, "Okay, but when do I get to nap? When does the struggle actually stop?" I want to validate that feeling. You aren't being "negative." You’re just depleted from being your own one-man or one-woman army. You’ve been dealing with people who play mind games, people who thrive on "winning" at your expense, and those hollow victories that leave you feeling more drained than the actual conflict did. You’ve walked away from situations recently feeling like you "won" the argument, but lost your peace of mind in the process. The "Best" that is manifesting for you right now is a Thunderbolt of Truth. You’ve been trying to solve your problems using the same old rules. You’ve been looking for "the right way" to do things, trying to follow the tradition, the blueprint, or the "proper" path to success. You’ve been looking for a mentor or a system to give you the answers. But the universe is about to cut through all that red tape.
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JUDGEMENT, HERMIT, DEVIL, KNIGHT OF CUPS, 2OC AND 6OC
People reading pile 3, have you felt like you’ve been living in a waiting room for the last few months? Or maybe even years? There is a very specific energy around you right now-it’s quiet, it’s introspective, and it’s a little bit lonely. You’ve been pulled back from the world. Maybe you’ve been isolating yourself on purpose, or maybe the universe just made it so that your social circle shrank, your old hobbies lost their spark, and you were left standing alone in the dark with a single lantern. You’ve been doing the "inner work", and let’s be real, that work is exhausting. It’s messy. It involves looking at the parts of yourself you’d rather ignore and answering the hard questions about why you keep ending up in the same patterns. But I need you to understand something crucial: You weren't being punished with loneliness. You were being prepared for a massive spiritual "Wake-Up Call." For a long time, there has been something "heavy" sitting on your chest. It might be a habit, a toxic obsession with someone from your past, or a self-sabotaging belief that tells you that you don't deserve the "Best." You’ve felt chained to a version of yourself that you outgrew a long time ago. You know that feeling when you keep going back to a situation that makes you miserable, just because it’s familiar? That "devil on your shoulder" has been whispering that this is as good as it gets. The "Best" that is coming for you is the moment those chains finally snap. You are approaching a point of total "Judgement", and I don't mean that in a scary, biblical way. I mean it as a moment of absolute accountability and liberation. You are finally going to see the "Shadow" for what it is. You’re going to look at those old addictions, those toxic exes, or those cycles of "not enoughness," and you’re going to realise they have no power over you anymore. You are being called out of the grave of your past and into the light of a brand-new day. This is a "Phoenix" moment. The old you is burning away, and the version that is rising is untouchable. What makes this pile so beautiful is that after all that dark, heavy "Hermit" energy, the universe is bringing back the sweetness. You’ve been so guarded. You’ve had to be. But the "Yet to Come" part of your story involves a return to innocence. You are going to start feeling like you again, the version of you before the world told you who you had to be. There is a huge wave of "Nostalgia" coming your way, but it’s the healing kind. This could be a literal person from your past returning someone who actually deserves a place in your life, or it could be a passion you had as a child that suddenly starts to breathe again. You’re going to find yourself laughing more. You’re going to find yourself looking at the world with soft eyes again. The cynicism that you used to protect yourself is going to melt because you won't need it anymore. You are safe now.
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You are a walking, talking collection of atoms. But have you ever thought about the effect that collection has? How your physical presence shapes the energy of a room, how your biology filters your reality, and how it all connects to the universe around you? It’s time to explore what you're really made of.
PILE ONE
You were born a sensitive soul, a warrior in the making. You may have often felt like life itself was after you, like the universe had a personal vendetta when it comes to your soul. But that was never the case. Souls like yours get distorted or destroyed in this world, not because you do not have a space here, but because society does not value this virtue. A seed was planted when you came here, and it has been watered along your development. You are a sensitive being, so you needed to build your armor along the way, carrying not only your wounds but the ones that were projected onto you, not realizing how heavy everything was.
On an energetic level, you feel like a tornado, something god-fearing, something raw and untamed. But you are also the calm after the destruction, the stillness that follows the storm. You are a paradox wrapped in thunder.
Your heart was never meant to be closed. The world tried to make you jaded, but it did not work. Underneath every layer of armor you built, the softness remained. This is your greatest strength and your deepest wound. You feel everything. The joy, the pain, the grief, the beauty. You feel it all as if it is happening to you, even when it is happening to someone else.
This is why you carry so much. You absorb like a sponge. You take in the emotions of rooms, the unspoken tensions between people, the weight of collective suffering. You were not built to be numb. You were built to be a vessel. And a vessel that feels everything must also learn how to empty itself, or it will crack.
There is something ancient about you. Something that makes people pause, that makes them lower their voices, that makes them want to confess their secrets or hide their truths. You carry the energy of someone who has seen too much to be fooled anymore. You are not easily impressed, not easily manipulated, not easily won.
To the ones who pretend, you are exposure. To the ones who hide, you are a threat. To the ones who are ready, you are a gateway. Your energy forces people to choose: to look at themselves honestly or look away from you.
Some will lash out. They will call you too much, too intense, too sensitive. They will project their own unhealed shadows onto you and walk away feeling justified. Let them go. They were never meant to stay. Your people will recognize you and welcome you home.
When you pass through a space, you leave behind a clearing. Like a tornado that has swept through, the air feels different afterward. Lighter. Cleaner. The things that were not rooted get blown away. The things that were strong remain, tested and proven.
You are an ancestor in training. You are learning now how to carry weight so that future generations do not have to. Every wound you heal, every burden you release, every tear you allow yourself to shed, you are clearing a path for those who come after you.
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PILE TWO
You were born already fearless, curious. You could be premature for some of you; it almost feels like you could not wait to arrive and get to work. You have often felt like you have a bigger purpose, that you are not simply here to be, but to change the world itself, the collective energy, the minds of the lost ones. Well, you were on the money.
On an energetic level, you feel like abundance, success. It is clear to everyone around you that you were born to reach new highs, to be heard, and to lead. Even if a lot is possible to achieve for you on a personal level, there is more planned for you. You have the power to bring people together and move them.
It is hard to convince a nation to walk forward, to move despite fear, to believe they can fight back, but you do it effortlessly. You are here as a phoenix, the one that sets itself on fire so it can be born again brighter. You keep walking where a lot of people stop. Fear is a fuel and not a constraint. A lot of people wish they could be more like you and embody this energy, to be able to go after what they want so ardently.
When you enter a room, something shifts. The energy is instantly felt. They feel more awake, motivated, almost like a shot of espresso. You restore hope where it seems to have vanished, finding the last spark and transforming it into a bonfire. People are proud to be associated with you, not only for who you are but for what you represent and how you ignite everything you touch. You show people their own potential. You remind them that hope is not lost and that they have the power necessary to get what they deserve. You do not settle for the status quo because you want the best, not only for yourself but for your community, for the world.
To the lost ones, you are a mirror of what they could become. To the fearful, you are proof that courage pays off. To the skeptical, you are an inconvenience they cannot explain away. Your very existence challenges the idea that the world cannot change. You are living evidence that one person can shift the collective.
Some will try to pull you down. Not because they are bad people, but because your light makes them uncomfortable with their own darkness. They will test you, provoke you, doubt you. Do not take it personally. It is not about you. It is about what you represent: the possibility of transformation.
When you pass through a space, you leave behind more than memories. You leave behind momentum. People who encountered you will find themselves thinking bigger, dreaming larger, moving faster. Your energy lingers like an afterburn, propelling others forward even when you are no longer there.
You are not just building a life. You are building a blueprint. You are showing the next generation of visionaries that it is okay to want more, to be more, to demand more from themselves and from the world.
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PILE THREE
You were born with a deep sense of balance already. Your parents could describe you as an easy baby; you slept through the nights and weren't fussing much unless something was wrong or you were uncomfortable. Even growing up, you were probably comfortable in your own energy, having no problem playing by yourself. This is mainly because you were never alone, soulmates and spirits from past lives are acting as guides in this one for you.
On an energetic level, you feel like a teacher, someone reflective, the one with the answers. Simply being is enough for you to change things around you. Maybe you are unaware of the curious eyes that follow you, of the energies that linger around yours, of the pull you exert on others. You feel like an answered prayer, and people often feel inspired by you. You are like a breath of fresh air that tells the other souls that it is okay to be yourself. The natural serenity you embody almost forces the people around you to question themselves; to wonder how come they are not at peace like you. What are you doing exactly to be like this? Some of them try to get close to you, to study your ways, all of this to realize that you simply are.
Your metaphysical print is one of an old soul, someone that has lived many lives and is now in this one to lead by example. You wish for bliss and peace, you act accordingly, treat others with respect, and simply live your life. The people that are at war with themselves get almost erratic around you, incapable of matching your energy. You are the reminder of everything they cannot reach, a mirror of their instability. Being around you makes them naked, vulnerable, and they lash out. Not because you have done anything wrong, but because they could only feel worthy around you if you get to their level and get mad as well. But you do not.
People often think anger is powerful, which it is, but true peace is harder to reach. No matter how bad someone tries to throw you off balance, you will simply get it back. It could be annoying to the restless, but it is inspiring to the open ones, the ones that are open to change and knowledge.
After you leave an environment, some of your energy remains, protecting and balancing the surrounding vibrations. You are an expert in keeping love and peace in your environment, acting like a spiritual diplomat. Whoever gets to be in your close circle is blessed as well, with some of your luck rubbing off on them. The universe will always provide for you, not only because they love you, but also because being who you are is a lesson for a lot of people on this earth. They learn through observing you what is available. They get to see all the ways they have been torturing themselves. You break the invisible chains they have placed upon themselves.
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✧˖°.How will your future partner/spouse yearn for you✧˖°.
in this pick-a-card reading, we will discover how your person aches for you in the softest, most beautiful ways🤭✨ - how they crave for your voice at the end of a long day, how they replay your laugh in quiet moments, and what they will do to feel closer to you 👀💖. let’s uncover how your presence will be their comfort, and how your touch is their favourite place to belong🫠😳. together, let’s dive into the depths of this reading and find out their truth🫣❤️.
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⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile I ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
you make your person lose control, like i’m not even kidding babe😭. your presence shakes something in them, and they feel like they’re losing their mind over you. every time they think about you, they go crazy. it’s like they can’t think straight, and oh i’ll be honest bub - THEY LOVE HOW YOU GET THEM SO WORKED UP 🤭 👀.
first thing i want to mention is that your partner is a very disciplined and firm figure. they’re not easily fooled or budged. but you just….damn. YOU SHAKE THEM. i swear to god, they don’t even know how to stand on their own two feet when they think of you - BYE IM LIVING FOR THIS TYPE OF YEARNERS. you’re #blessed baddie☺️💖.
your person yearns for you by surrendering themselves to you. they want you to take control. they want you to dominate them. i hear them saying, “tell me what to do, i’m all yours”, and when they say this, there’s a sort of submissiveness in their voice - almost like confirming they belong to you. but one thing i wanted to say is that your person is not the type to melt. they aren’t easy to impress. and they sure as hell won’t be obeying orders. but when it comes to you? they’re on their knees, begging for you to control them.
i’ll be honest, it will take some time for them to show this side of themselves. they might even deny it in secret - brushing all these feelings off as a “one-time-thing”. but you and i know very well that they feel this typa way for you very often 😉✨. (who do they think they’re hiding from, right bestie? 🤫)
once your person accepts how they feel for you, and that they no longer think that this connection is a “one-time-thing” - they’re going to yearn for you in an unapologetic way. they won’t care about their “defensive” attitude anymore, they’re only going to care about serving you and doing the right thing. you have this way of asking and getting the things you want. i don’t know how to explain it, but you naturally make people work in your favour, pile 1. because of your natural tendency to order around, your person might feel a little jealous and anxious, and might see others as a threat. i wanted to mention this part in the beginning, but i felt like it would make sense if i addressed it now - your person feels very anxious towards the connection you guys have. they’re afraid you’ll find someone better, and there seems to be an ego-clash between the both of you, as well as the people around you. due to their jealousy and insecurity, they might tend to argue with you or with the people around you, but this is during the beginning of the relationship. they’ll overcome this, but they need a lot of reassurance. you might also feel exhausted because of how disruptive their behaviour can be sometimes, but it’s very important to address it in a mature and positive way. lashing out on each other will only make things worse, so please be a little mindful. once there is mutual understanding, then you guys will go on a joy-ride 🫣🤭.
your person not only yearns for you physically - but they also yearn for you emotionally. you stimulate them, and they want to worship you all the time. i’m sensing here that they can never take their hands off you, and they want to keep maintaining physical contact with you 😳😙. but again, the power and authority is in your hands - so you can always demand what you want, and they’ll gladly serve you😁🙃💖.
⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile II ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
your person is going to yearn for you in the most gentlest yet controlling way - it’s going to catch you so off guard🫣👀. you might not even realise it, but suddenly you’ll see that all your work, all the things you’ve been struggling with and desiring for will be cleared and fulfilled. how you may ask? that’s because your person has been secretly completing things for you and fulfilling your desires. let me give you an example: you’ve been complaining about how much work is pending and you’ve been working so hard to save for a designer handbag that you’ve always wanted. whether you know it or not, your person has taken a mental note of this and has quietly helped you meet your deadlines and has also bought you that designer handbag you’ve always wanted - and here’s the thing, they’ve used THEIR money to gift that to you.
your person is a silent yearner. they’re quiet. you can’t see it, but it’s always there. they yearn for you in secret, and they’re not boast-y about it. their love is not proud and loud. your person does not want other people to know about the sacred bond you share. “it’s none of their business,” i hear them saying while kissing you. they’re not secretive about it because they’re ashamed of what y’all have - NO!! they’re secretive about it because your person is afraid that people will try to pull you guys apart and break what you have.
your person will always have your back. “through thick and thin, through fire and water, through dust and wind, through good times and hard times - my love for you will remain the same,” THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I HEAR THEM SAYING RIGHT NOW. BRB IM GONNA CRY THIS IS SO PURE. i can literally feel the love they have for you through the cards, babe🥹💖. their love for you will never die - and they mean it. they’re going to be with you through all your cycles, lessons, and chapters - through all the good and bad ones. they’re going to be your back bone, and when your legs feel worn and you can’t stand anymore, you can rest on them for comfort.
this connection feels fated. it feels sure. it feels promising. since the beginning of the reading, this connection felt unique. it felt deserved. you guys deserve each other. the universe has pulled your energies together, and this person is your other half🥰❤️🔥.
⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile III ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
your person is going to yearn for you by putting in their hard-work and building the life you’ve always wanted to live. your person is the type who believes that action speaks louder than words. not only will they yearn for you by spending quality time with you, they’ll also yearn for you by putting in the effort and increasing their finances so that they can support you in the future. your person years for you by being present🤭✨.
your person will yearn for you by going back and forth in their mind about you. they’ll think about you while juggling daily responsibilities and they will try their best to distract themselves, but the thought of you just keeps on popping up 👀🤫✨. this isn’t calm yearning. it’s mentally-active yearning. you’ll be on their mind more often than they would like to admit.
their feelings for you is very calm, almost like a part of them knows that you’re meant for each other. there’s a sense of familiarity, a sense of promise, and a sense of truth. they’ll know that you guys are meant to be way before you would even know it. they won’t admit it, but their actions will confess. you’ll notice that their commitment will feel way too good to be true, but it’s their silent way of admitting that they know y’all are meant to be is what will speak volumes.
they will yearn for you by promising a family, and promising a future together. they will yearn for you by providing emotional happiness, comfort and peace. their attraction for you is not shallow, it’s the kind of yearning where they imagine you guys laughing together and feeling emotionally safe together. it’s the kind of yearning where they want to live in the moment and make memories with you. for your person, your happiness matters more than theirs, and they will do anything to see a smile on your face.
i also got a feeling here that you aren’t the type to pressurise your partner into earning well and building a solid future for the both of you. you’re the type who equally contributes and stands with your person. but your person is the type who will want you to feel at ease and wants to take on the responsibilities of working for you - does that make sense? they don’t want you to feel exhausted from working. in fact, they want you to feel relaxed☺️💖.
however, i did want to mention that your person might tend to be impatient and burnt-out. they might want the results to show faster. they don’t realise that things take time, and it’s completely okay to equally contribute. your person will be too hard on themselves, so please communicate with them. they need to be told that they’re not in this alone, and that together, y’all will be unstoppable.
hiii loves🫶 i hope this reading finds you in good health, and i hope you are doing well. this reading is much shorter compared to my usual ones because i’ve barely got time on my hands😭🙏. but i hope you enjoy this reading🥰💖 and i would be so glad if you could like my post and re-blog it, and please let me know which pile you picked - i would love to hear your thoughts and know if this reading resonated with you!! take care of yourself, and i will see you in my next reading. thank you for being here☺️❤️
(note - tarot & oracle cards provide guidance and possible insights into what could happen based on current energies, thoughts, feelings and actions. the cards can highlight potential paths or outcomes, but they do not predict the future in a fixed way. this is a general reading so take what resonates!)
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“Let’s Get Married” by Jagged Edge
“Chunky” by Bruno Mars
“Guerilla” by Ateez
“Candy Girl” by New Edition
𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 ⟢⟢
Six of Swords ⤸
Six of Wands ⤸
THE DEVIL
Knight of Swords ⤸
THE EMPRESS
Queen of Coins
THE WORLD
Two of Cups
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 ⟢⟢
People become obsessed with you because you seem to be consistent and stuck in your ways. There’s an idea of being a “regular” or someone who is always around but not always obvious upon first look or first inspection. You could be someone who falls into the background or operates as a “background character” who’s trying to go unnoticed, but that actually causes people to give you attention instead of ignoring you. With the two reversal cards in the beginning, people’s obsession with you could be slow moving or “progressing”. At first, you may really go under people’s radar, but as they see and/or interact with you more day by day their interest in you creeps on them and “consumes” them in some way. Sixes in tarot usually represents balance and movement happening in some way, but with the reversals it’s the total opposite where you may actually unsettle people because of your stillness. Those horror movies where they’ll depict a ghostly woman or child with jet black hair just staring at the camera blank faced, and then they suddenly disappear comes to mind, so your presence could come off similarly to others. As a result, they end up obsessing over why and what made you that way.
On one hand, The Devil upright and Knight of Swords in reverse shows how incessant the feeling of obsession overtakes people when it comes to you and your presence. On another hand, the two cards show people become obsessed with you because of the quiet power you hold. The Devil is a Major Arcana, and Knight of Swords in reverse can depict a bully or someone who can tend to bulldoze over others because they feel their smarts and wit carry them far. You may come off this way to others, but The Empress softens the way this manifests. The trope of the quiet kid who keeps to themself yet is respected by everyone because of their ability to hold their own despite people trying to test them comes to mind. It could be a situation where you could be a more bossy, type A personality person if you wanted to be; you could rule over others or be a leader in some sense if you wanted to be also, but there’s a softness in your personality that doesn’t want to do that, and that intrigues people. People could become obsessed with you because they want to see both sides of you; they feel this more bossy, leader, and dominate personality exists, but they may feel as if they have to trip you up just to see it, and they become hyper focused on making what they perceive to be your mask slip.
Eventually, with The Empress leading into the final cards, people may reach their final stage of becoming obsessed with you once they actually interact with you. The word “becoming” was almost misspelled which gives pause to go back and focus on it; there’s a reminder of Michelle Obama’s book and documentary titled “Becoming”, so that could be important. The idea of taking care of others and “watching over one’s own” could be what ultimately causes people to become fully immersed in you and what you’re doing and how you’re doing it. Going back to the prior paragraph, people may expect to see a harsher version of you, but they’re only left to find underneath a silent exterior – you’re someone who’s trying to protect your own peace and those you consider your own; the mother cubs from the Lion King come to mind, so you could end up making people feel as if they’re apart of your pride, and as a result they become obsessed with you and “immersed in your world”. The type of obsession people have when it comes to you could lead to them wanting to merge and even be you. It’s like you leave them wanting to be in your skin.
𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐈
𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲 ⟢
“10 Seconds” by Jazmine Sullivan
“Despacito” by Luis Fonzi & Daddy Yankee
“thank u, next” by Ariana Grande
“Rock The Boat” by Aaliyah
𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 ⟢⟢
Queen of Cups ⤸
Nine of Coins
THE CHARIOT
Knight of Cups
Page of Cups ⤸
Six of Cups
THE LOVERS ⤸
DEATH ⤸
King of Wands
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 ⟢⟢
People become obsessed with you because of how vulnerable you seem. You could be someone who is living in a sort of glass house where people feel like you tend to throw stones at others because of your own insecurities and doubt about yourself; Cher Lloyd’s “Love Me For Me” comes to mind. Another house example could be that of a celebrity’s or the golden house in the neighborhood – where on the outside everything is rosy and perfect, and you have a manicured lawn, the finances to live in an enviable home, and the life where anyone else would kill for or be happy about, but it’s obvious to others the pretty outside is a cover up for how run down and “dingy” everything is on the inside. The chatter that happens around celebrities where people obsess over how their lives are “never as they seem” comes to mind also. In short, people obsess over you because you’re in the public eye and materially you should be on top of the world, but to others they feel as if you have to be hiding some sort of insecurities or pettiness that truly exists in you like it seems to exist in those who obsess over you.
The Chariot and Knight of Cups shows people obsessing over how “good” and “wealthy” it must be to be you. The depictions of people who don’t have material wealth looking to their wealthy friends and joking about how they probably don’t understand what it’s like to not be privileged comes to mind. People become obsessed with you because it’s like your life is what they daydream of wanting and having one day, and they want to follow your every move to criticize how you live their dream life. There’s a reminder of how when celebrities do anything in their career there will always be a group of people who say, “I wouldn’t have done that if I were them; I would’ve done this instead”. People obsesses over you because you’re living both your and their dream life, and they fantasize bout this type of life so much that they also have a deep, intense need to fantasize about how you personally live. Those who chose this pile are represented by the Knight of Cups and Six of Cups – where you’re very artistic and idealistic; you could be known as the person who always happens to find a way to make things work out for you instead of wallowing in disaster, and this could cause people to obsess because they do the total opposite. “Maybe it’s Maybelline” comes to mind which just emphasize how much your ability to stay positive and focused on your own despite those who are jealous of you hyper focusing on and criticizing you just makes them more obsessed than they are initially.
Overall, people become obsessed with you because you mirror a part or an idea of themselves they’re yearning to exist. When people become obsessed with you it could feel like they’re in The River Styx, quicksand, or something of that nature that causes them to wallow in their spirits and become numb to their own selves. As people interact with you and/or look for ways to escape thinking about their everyday lives, they turn to you to fantasize about and criticize. King of Wands shows you as someone with big ideas that lead to you feeling fulfilled materially and emotionally, and people’s obsession with you is a classic case of eyes being green with envy because their lives are “polar opposites” in comparison to yours. King of Wands in the deck being used is represented by Cronus, so when people obsess over you they could feel destructive and want to bring you down “to ruins”, so you can experience what they feel in terms of the insecurities and jealousy. The obsession people have with you leaves them wanting you to wallow in misery with them.
𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐈𝐈
𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲 ⟢
“Heartbeat” by David Alexander
“Cinema” by CIX
“B*tch from Da South” by Latto
“You Can’t Win” from the movie The Wiz
𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 ⟢⟢
Five of Swords ⤸
Five of Cups ⤸
THE HIGH PRIESTESS
DEATH
Five of Coins
Three of Cups
Ten of Swords
Eight of Swords
THE HANGED MAN
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 ⟢⟢
People become obsessed with you because you always end up okay and/or “on the side with the greener/brighter grass” after you separate from them. Those who become obsessed with you could often be people who you once had some sort of bond or relationship with like a ex significant others and exfriends (possibly even former coworkers and classmates if you interacted with them often enough). Whenever relationships end (especially if it’s on a sour note) there’s a sort of grieving process of the connection and at some point in the process people tend to wonder how the other person is doing. “You ain’t really fuck with me then but how ‘bout now? Cause I’m up right now... And you stuck right now” comes to mind. People become obsessed with you because they expect you to be regretting the decision to depart from them; they want and expect you to be in as much pain as they are, but you seem to do “just fine” without them; Mary J. Blige’s “Just Fine” and Ariana Grande’s “better off” both come to mind also.
You’re depicted as The High Priestess and Death in this situation. The meme “she princess; he frog” seems to be important. The High Priestess shows you as someone that moves on gracefully once a relationship ends; this card is represented by the goddess Persephone who rules over Spring and vegetation alongside Demeter and also the Underworld alongside Hades. The dichotomy of Persephone seems to be key to the reading also as she’s able to survive and rule over areas of life where things are growing, springing forward, and blossoming, and areas of life where things are decaying and coming to an end. This could talk of how you’re someone who thrives regardless of your environment and regardless of who’s around you, and this causes people to obsess because they’re stuck trying to figure out how that’s possible. Funnily enough, Death in the deck is represented by Hades himself which strengthens the idea of you doing well in situations where other people would be struggling and stagnant; you could be the type of person who actually embraces and even seeks out change instead of settling for the same, boring routine of life.
Five of Coins into Three of Cups and Ten of Swords shows you could be the type of person who is never really alone, as in you could always call someone up to hang out or talk to if you truly needed it. Sometimes when relationships end, some people isolate themselves and find it hard to get back into the groove of connecting with others again, but you could be the type of person who finds friends easily or at the very least has no shortage of people who want to be friends with you (whether they approach you or not). As for the people who obsess over you, they could feel inhibited or set back when it comes to making connections afterwards because their connection to you might’ve been very “soul binding”. An idea is coming through where once people lose you it’s like their life goes into shambles, and they realize you’re really the person who brought all (“most”) of the good things in their life to them. In the remix of FNF by GloRilla (feat. JT and Latto), Latto raps, “they ain’t shit without me; all my exes like Safaree,” so when people fall out with you similar tings could happen to people, and it makes them obsess because they’re stuck reminiscing over how things used to be.
𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐈𝐕
𝐒𝐡𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐲 ⟢
“euphoria” by Kendrick Lamar
“Runaway” by J. Cole
“It’s My Birthday” by Jacob Latimore
“An Open Letter [Interlude]” from the Hamilton Mixtape
𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 ⟢⟢
Three of Cups
Four of Cups ⤸
Page of Wands
Five of Swords
STRENGTH
King of Coins
Three of Swords ⤸
Two of Swords
Ace of Swords
𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 ⟢⟢
People could obsess over you because of who you’re connected to. You may come off as someone who has a strong group of friends and/or people to rely on, and people may hyper focus on you because they’re comparing themselves to you. Those who obsess over you are represented by the Four of Cups in reverse; they could feel unhappy with where they are in life, and they could be very isolated, but they look to you because you’re the Page of Wands: someone who seems to be fearless, energetic, and “extroverted” comes to mind (actually, “outroverted”, which seems to be a term for people who seemingly can find and get along with a group, but internally feel separated or like a “black sheep”). The movies “Jennifer’s Body” and “Carrie” come to mind, so the themes revolving around those movies (or more so, the way those movies are synopsized for society) could be important in understanding why and how people obsess over you.
Those who obsess over you may not necessarily do so with bad intentions; Five of Swords into Strength shows they could actually do so with the intention of “trying to motivate themselves”. They could being obsessing over you as a result of how they feel about themselves; they look to you because they may feel you mirror them in some way, and it’s like they want to unlock their own potential by “looking to you”. Going back to the term outroverted, although you seem to be connected to many people physically (like people always see you around with certain people, or whenever you’re in a public space you always seem to find someone/multiple people you know) it may be obvious to the people who obsess over you that you weren’t always that way? Or they may feel as if it seems you have these connections, but you’re not totally comfortable in them. Artists like Beyoncé and Summer Walker come to mind because they’re these well known artists who are in a world of connections, but at the end of the day people still feel like they’re awkward with people sometimes, or they rarely want to pop out in public because they much rather prefer more intimate moments with their close, loved ones.
Strength into King of Coins shows those who obsess over you see you as a high figure who is well established “everywhere. within your [their] own right”, and even though they can tell you may feel uncomfortable with it they still feel as if you “carry it [attention, conversating with large friend groups] well”. Three of Swords in reverse gives the feeling those who obsess over you really want to feel accepted by you; they want to be part of your inner circle, and they want to get close to find out how you’re able to “be who you are and do what you do”. Miley Cyrus’s “Fly on the Wall” comes to mind, so those who obsess over you could act similarly to the paparazzi or Miley’s significant other in the music video. The Swords reducing at the end of the reading could be a little concerning as one hand they could indicate people obsessing over you to better themselves and eventually doing so, but on the other hand it could also show people obsessing over you and deciding they want to become you – not just take inspiration from in order to better themselves; the way people view the relationship between GloRilla and Megan Thee Stallion now comes to mind. Those who obsess over you want your approval and company for sure, but there’s a possibilty their admiration could turn to jealousy if they’re “uncentered with themselves”.
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...I love you and think of you always.
ღ pile one
i miss you. i miss you so much. but there’s a reason why we’re not together right now. we need to be going through this stage of our lives alone so we can grow and learn as people, but please know that i miss you so much.
i’m currently working on my future, building my empire if you say so haha. i’m working hard, it seems like all i do is work. but i know that one day all of my hard work will be worth it. because i can share it with you, my dearest love. it’s a new stage in my life, for sure! i feel like i’m finally where i’m meant to be. i know that this is one of the last stages i need to go through before i meet you.
do you know that i dream of you often? well i try to connect with you in my dreams. do you remember? do you try to connect with me in my dreams as well? oh i miss you so much, i can’t emphasize it enough.
i know you don’t know me…yet haha but please trust your gut, always my love. i will never tell you what to do, i don’t want to control anything, i just want to reassure you that whatever situation/person your worried about, there’s a reason why you feel like that my love.
do you know that we have a lot of similarities? i know you think you won’t find someone who understands you, but i do. i understand you so completely and you understand me so completely, we’re alike my love and i love it!
sigh i wish i could flirt with you right now, i love flirting with you! i like how you react when i flirt with you haha!
i know it will happen when it will, i know there’s reasons why we haven’t met, but i wish we could be close right now. i wish we could be together already. i miss you my love, but please don’t worry because i know in my heart that one day we will meet.
don’t worry about me my love i’m working hard for our future!!
ღ pile two
oh how i wish i could kiss you right now. is that too forward? am i freaking you out? ah i apologize if i am ah it’s just i imagine what our future will look like. all our dates, how our home will look, all the fun adventures we will have. i also imagine how it would feel like to kiss you, to feel your lovely lips against mine.
i have always craved a deep, romantic, passionate, relationship and i know i will have it with you, i mean you are my soulmate after all. it almost feels like i manifested you, maybe we manifested each other haha. so what, maybe i have looked up what manifesting is haha. haven’t you, my dear soulmate?
i hope you know that honesty to me is very important and i want us to always be honest with each other, i never want there to be secrets between us. if there’s any miscommunication, i want it figured out right away. i want us to always be on the same page.
oh my love i know that you have been hurt from the past. hm, did you just end a connection with someone? are you still hung up on someone? hmm… no im not jealous… okay perhaps i am…. a little…hmmm. ah well i want to let you know my love, that that thing…sorry i meant person… i guess… never deserved you. and i hate that that…person… is making you doubt if you will ever find true love.
i am your true love, i am your person my darling. we will have so much fun, we will laugh at everything, i will always make you feel good, i promise. i want you to know that it’s safe to love me, i will be patient with you my love, please don’t worry about a single thing.
i know in the beginning you may not trust me and that’s okay, i understand. i want to prove to you that you can trust me and that i will never ever hurt you. and that’s a promise baby.
oh together we are magic baby and i can’t wait to share my life with you. and i can’t wait to dive into your world baby. please know that i’m working hard.. hm i’ll say i'm pretty successful if i say so myself haha. i know it will be a special day when we meet, until then my darling.
ღ pile three
do you ever listen to music, specific songs, and think of me? because i sure do. sometimes i sing and think of you. i think of how you look like, what your personality is. what i’m sure of is that you're lovely, in every sense.
oh i tend to yap a lot and therefore i talk really fast it just feels like my mind runs a mile a minute. ah would that bother you? ah and you make me so nervous so i don’t even know how fast i’m going to be talking in our first dates. oh god i really hope that doesn’t bother you. oh but if it does, would you tell me? haha i promise i don’t mind.
i guess you could say i’m more on the shy side and only talk to people i trust and well since of course i trust you i know i will be talking a lot. oh i wouldn’t mind hearing your voice and thoughts forever and ever. you can talk more than me for all i care haha.
hm if i have to share with you something about me is that im pretty playful. i mean yeah of course i can be serious but i can have fun! haha i feel like everything we do together is so much fun. and you bring out my playful side even more, more than anyone ever has. you heal my inner-child my love. sometimes i wish we met when we were younger, i know you would’ve been my crush instantly haha.
i hope i’m worth the wait… i know that you’re worth the wait my love. i mean of course you are, i mean you’re you. you are special in every single way. you consume my thoughts, i think of you all the time. you have an effect on me, you really do.
would it sound weird if i told you i think about how our wedding will be? of course my love, you can choose the location, the decorations, everything! haha but i want you to know that i will be there, supporting you through the process because i heard weddings can be pretty stressful and i want you to feel like you can always rely on me. well if you want me to of course i don’t want to annoy you haha.
i can’t wait to give you millions and millions of gifts, do you like receiving gifts? because a way that i will express my love to you is gift-giving. what’s your love language, my love? god i want to know everything about you. i wish i knew everything about you already.
i want to remind you my love that you are strong, you are powerful, you are limitless. i am in awe of you my dearest. i will support you in everything that you do.
i will be there with you my dearest, i will, i promise. i’m honored to call you mine. i hope you will be honored to call me yours.
✨ Pick A Pile: What They Imagine Doing To You In A Forbidden Place (18+) ✨
You will get in the Tumblr reading:
What forbidden place their mind wanders to
What draws them toward you in that imagined scene
The emotional tension underneath it
The first thing they want from you in that moment
The reason they see you as temptation itself
What will be in the Patreon $2 extended reading:
What stops them from acting in real life
The one thing they want you to do first
What shifts in their body language when they finally close the distance
The moment they lose all restraint
What they think would change between you afterward
The forbidden question they secretly wish they could ask you
Some of the best and most enticing questions are saved for Patreon, because that is where we sink deeper into the emotional pull, the private longing, the things left unsaid, and the moment energy finally breaks open.
Now breathe, soften your shoulders, and choose your pile.
PILE ONE
You are someone who occupies their mind in a way that feels both dangerous and irresistible. When they imagine you, the energy always shifts into something quiet, close, and filled with unspoken tension. The forbidden place their mind wanders to is somewhere dim and secluded, somewhere where two people only end up when they are trying not to be seen. For some, it is a quiet hallway behind a gathering. For others, it is an empty balcony at night, or a shadowed corner of a place neither of you were supposed to explore. The location feels less like a fantasy and more like a waiting room for a truth they have not admitted aloud.
They imagine the air tightening when you arrive. They imagine your breath shifting when you notice how close they are standing. Nothing explicit. Nothing rushed. What they want to do to you first is simply to be near enough to read the smallest changes in your expression. There is a kind of reverence in the way their energy approaches you. They want to lean in, not to take, but to understand. The forbidden part is not the place but the intensity. It is the moment when nothing is happening yet everything is happening. It is the spark that lives between two people who have been circling each other for far too long.
What draws them toward you is the feeling that you see through them. They imagine the way your presence loosens something in them they usually keep guarded. They imagine the charged silence, the feeling that one step closer would shift your entire dynamic. They imagine being the one who finally breaks it. They want to touch your face gently, as if learning it. They want to say something honest, something they would never dare in daylight. You awaken the part of them that wants to stop pretending they are unaffected.
The emotional tension is what obsesses them. It is the slow build. The almost. The hush. The awareness that one choice could change everything. They imagine you looking at them like you already know what they are thinking, like you are waiting for them to step into the truth of it. They replay that imagined moment far more than they replay anything physical.
And for your extended reading on Patreon
There is something they want to confess in this imagined scene, something that would shift both of your roles instantly. In the extended reading, we explore the moment they finally give in to it and what they believe you would do next.
Available for $2 and linked in my bio.
PILE TWO
For your person, the forbidden place is not just a physical location. It is a mood. A secrecy. A sense of stepping out of the world and into something that is only yours and theirs. When your energy shows up in their imagination, the setting is always somewhere that feels slightly off limits. A quiet library after hours, an art gallery where the lights have already been dimmed, a room in a house they should not still be in, or a long hallway where every sound echoes. The place itself becomes a cocoon where the pressure between you transforms into something slow and magnetic.
They imagine the moment you appear as if they were already waiting for you without admitting it. There is this pull in their chest, like you are the distraction they should resist but cannot. What they want to do first is simply draw you into their orbit, not by touch, but by presence. They want the world to shrink until it is just the two of you standing far too close in a space no one else can enter. What obsesses them is the anticipation. You bring up a version of them they do not show to others. Someone curious. Someone brave. Someone willing to risk being seen.
In their mind, you are the one who shifts the air. They imagine you glancing up and everything inside them tightening. The forbidden part is the feeling that they should look away but do not. They imagine you noticing that held breath, that flicker in their eyes that gives them away. They want to hold your gaze longer than they should. They want the silence to thicken between you, full of all the things neither of you are saying.
Emotionally, the tension is almost overwhelming. They imagine wanting to reach for your hand but stopping themselves, not because they do not want to, but because the wanting itself is so intense it feels like a confession. They imagine being the one who steps closer, slowly enough that you feel it before you understand it. They imagine you leaning into the moment without hesitation. This version of you makes them feel bold and unguarded in a way that scares them a little.
What draws them toward you is your contrast. You are soft where they are restless, intuitive where they are cautious, grounded where they are uncertain. They imagine being pulled toward you like gravity. The forbidden part is that they should be walking away but instead find themselves drifting closer and closer until it feels impossible to leave.
They imagine the first thing they would say to you in this hidden place. Something low voiced. Something that reveals more than they intend. Something like, I should not be here with you right now, but I cannot make myself leave. The truth under their fantasy is that you feel like a risk worth taking, even if they never speak it aloud.
And for your extended reading on Patreon
There is one moment in their fantasy where they stop holding back and let the truth slip through. In the extended reading, we explore exactly what they would whisper, why it scares them, and what they hope you do in response.
The $2 extended reading is linked in my bio.
PILE THREE
Pile Three, the forbidden place your person imagines with you is less about geography and more about timing. In their mind, it is always a moment that should not happen. A moment that takes place too soon, too late, or when everything around you insists that the two of you should stay composed. They imagine it happening in a hallway during a gathering, in a dark corner behind a curtain, or in a room with an unlocked door where anyone could interrupt. They imagine a setting where the thrill comes from knowing better while wanting you anyway.
Their fantasy always begins with an accidental brush. You pass by. They feel the heat of you. And suddenly the entire world sharpens. They imagine their thoughts stumbling, their breath catching, as if the nearness of you pulls them into a quieter, hungrier part of themselves. What they imagine doing first is not something bold. It is something subtle and charged. They want to stand close enough that your arms almost touch, close enough that you feel their attention even if they never speak.
This person imagines studying your face as if they are trying to memorize how desire begins inside you. They imagine trying to look away but failing. The forbidden part is that they know exactly how they should behave around you, yet the idea of holding back feels impossible. You pull forward a version of them that is honest and unguarded, someone who does not pretend to be indifferent.
Emotionally, there is something undeniable between you. They imagine wanting to ask a question that is not appropriate for the moment. Something like, Do you feel this too. They never say it aloud in their fantasy, but the thought pulses through them. They imagine your eyes answering for you without a word.
You appear in their imagination as someone who shifts their entire mood. When they think of you, they imagine the quiet way you tilt your head when you are curious. They imagine the subtle warmth of your voice. They imagine leaning in to hear you better, even when they already can. What draws them toward you is your softness and your depth, the mix that feels both comforting and dangerous.
They imagine the two of you lingering in that forbidden place longer than you should, neither stepping back. They imagine the hum beneath your silence. They imagine your breath brushing between you. The tension becomes its own space, its own secret room. They imagine wanting to reach for you slowly, as if giving you every chance to pull away. But in their fantasy, you do not.
There is one more detail that obsesses them. In their imagination, you are the one who finally shifts closer first. Even if it is only a small movement, it is enough to undo every boundary they have been trying to respect. They imagine that moment again and again, as if your choice to lean in changes everything they believed they had control over.
For Pile Three, the forbidden place is not a room. It is the moment your energy matches theirs and they realize there is no going back. They imagine wanting to give in, wanting to let the tension unfold, wanting to see what you do when no one is watching.
And for you extended reading on Patreon
There is something they want to say when the moment turns private, something they have never admitted even in their imagination. In the extended reading, we explore the first place their mind goes when they finally let that desire rise to the surface.
The $2 extended reading is linked in my bio.
PILE FOUR
Pile Four, the forbidden place your person imagines with you is a place that carries silence like a secret. It is not loud, not crowded, not reckless. It is somewhere that feels almost sacred. A place where people are supposed to keep their voices down and their thoughts clean. They imagine you in a quiet library aisle, in the back corner of an art museum, in a softly lit studio where everything is still enough to hear every shift in breath. They imagine you somewhere that asks for calm while their thoughts about you are anything but.
Their fantasy begins with admiration long before it becomes desire. They imagine seeing you absorbed in something you love. The way you focus. The way you move. The shape of your attention when you care about something. It draws them toward you without them realizing it at first. They imagine approaching slowly, almost reverently, as if they are stepping into a moment that matters.
What they imagine doing to you comes from a place of hunger that is softened by awe. They imagine standing close enough to feel the warmth of your presence. They imagine brushing their fingers near yours when you both reach for the same book or the same frame on the wall. They imagine your fingers not pulling away. They imagine you both pretending to keep looking at the object in front of you even while your attention is caught on something much deeper.
Emotionally, this person is overwhelmed by how you make them feel. In their imagination, you are someone who lights up a quiet place simply by existing in it. They imagine wanting to study the small movements you make, the way your eyes widen when something intrigues you, the curve of your mouth when you think. They imagine wanting to understand your thoughts before you speak them, wanting to lean in until your breath brushes the side of their cheek.
Pile Four, your energy feels rare to them. They imagine you as someone who changes the atmosphere without trying. Someone who carries an unintentional kind of magnetism. The forbidden part of their fantasy is not the place itself but what rises inside them when they are near you. They imagine struggling to keep their expression neutral. They imagine feeling their composure slip with every second they stay close to you.
The first thing they fantasize about doing to you is something slow and deliberate. They imagine their hand hovering near your waist, not touching at first, but close enough that your body can sense their intention. They imagine looking at you to see if you lean in. They imagine the moment your eyes lift to theirs, full of knowledge, full of quiet permission.
They imagine the two of you stepping a little deeper into the forbidden place. Maybe between stacks of books. Maybe behind a museum archway. Maybe into a room where the light softens into gold. They imagine wanting to hold your face gently, wanting to see how you breathe when their thumb traces the line of your jaw. They imagine the world falling away as if the two of you do not belong to anything outside this moment.
The forbidden part of this fantasy is that they know they should keep their distance. They know they should admire you from afar. But they imagine you looking at them with the same desire, and that thought alone ruins every boundary they tried to set.
For Pile Four, their forbidden place is always somewhere quiet. Somewhere intimate. Somewhere where their desire for you could echo in the silence if they are not careful.
And for your extended reading on Patreon
There is one private desire they have that they only allow themselves to imagine in this quiet place, something gentle but intense that they would never say aloud. The extended reading explores the first moment they let themselves act on it. The $2 extended reading is linked in my bio.
Pick A Pile: What They Imagine Happening The Moment The Door Closes (18+)
This reading explores the private, unspoken moment that exists right after separation from the outside world. It is about tension, imagination, emotional proximity, and the quiet electricity that fills a space when privacy finally arrives. This is not about explicit action. It is about what lingers in the air, what their mind replays, and what they quietly hope might unfold.
What you receive in the Tumblr reading
The emotional atmosphere they imagine when the door closes
How their energy shifts around you in private
The first thought that crosses their mind
The role of anticipation, restraint, and curiosity
The symbolic meaning behind the closed door for them
What the $2 Patreon extended reading explores
The exact moment their restraint weakens
What they imagine saying or not saying
The deeper emotional motive behind their desire
How they imagine you responding energetically
The private outcome their mind keeps returning to
The extended reading continues each pile in depth and is linked in my bio.
Pile One
When they imagine the door closing, what follows is not urgency. It is reverence. They see the room as if it has softened around you, edges blurring, sound dampening, the world outside becoming distant and irrelevant. Their attention narrows completely. You become the center of the space, not because you demand it, but because their awareness chooses you instinctively.
They imagine how you move once privacy settles in. Not performing. Not guarding yourself. Just existing in a quieter version of yourself. That authenticity is what holds them. The way you might exhale differently, shift your weight, let your shoulders relax. These small changes feel intimate to them. It feels like being allowed to witness something not meant for everyone.
In their mind, the door closing gives them permission to be present without distraction. They imagine listening more closely to your voice. They imagine pauses in conversation that feel intentional rather than awkward. Silence becomes a language they understand with you. It is not empty. It is full of meaning, of things neither of you are rushing to say.
They think about proximity without urgency. About standing near enough to feel warmth without crossing a line. They imagine the tension that comes from restraint, from letting the moment breathe. For them, anticipation is part of the experience. They enjoy the awareness that something could happen, even if nothing does yet.
Emotionally, this pile reveals someone who associates intimacy with safety. The door closing does not trigger impulsiveness. It triggers grounding. They imagine themselves more honest in private. More vulnerable. Less performative. They imagine noticing details about you they would miss in public spaces. The rhythm of your breath. The way your energy shifts when you feel unobserved.
What they imagine most is not an act but a feeling. Being chosen in the quiet. Being allowed to stay in the moment without interruption. Being trusted with your presence. The closed door becomes a symbol of mutual consent to exist together without outside expectations.
This is someone who fantasizes about connection that unfolds slowly. They want the moment to linger. They want to remember it not for what happened, but for how it felt to be there with you. Undistracted. Unrushed. Fully aware.
And as this vision plays out in their mind, they always imagine the same thing. That neither of you is in a hurry to open the door again.
Patreon Extended Reading Title: The Moment Everything Becomes Too Quiet to Ignore (18+) linked in my bio.
Pile Two
When they imagine the door closing, their thoughts shift immediately toward contrast. Outside noise falling away. Inside awareness sharpening. They imagine the exact second when privacy becomes real, when the air changes and something unspoken settles between you. For them, the closed door is a threshold. Once crossed, nothing feels casual anymore.
They picture the way you look around the room as if confirming you are alone. That small pause matters to them. It feels like a shared agreement. They imagine their own posture changing in response, standing differently, breathing slower, becoming more deliberate with every movement. They are acutely aware of you in that moment. Of how close or far you are. Of how much space exists and how charged that space feels.
This pile carries a strong sense of curiosity. They imagine watching you without interruption. Not in a detached way, but with fascination. As if the door closing gives them permission to notice you fully. The way your energy fills the room. The way your presence changes their internal rhythm. They imagine wanting to understand you in this quieter setting, away from outside influence.
Emotionally, this person associates privacy with honesty. They imagine conversations deepening. Words becoming more intentional. They imagine things being said that would never surface in public. Confessions spoken softly. Questions asked without fear of being overheard. The closed door becomes a container for truth.
They also imagine tension building through stillness. Through moments where neither of you moves, but both of you feel everything. For them, the anticipation is intoxicating. The knowledge that something could unfold, but does not need to rush. They imagine holding eye contact longer than usual. Letting silence stretch. Allowing desire, curiosity, and emotion to exist without being immediately acted on.
This pile suggests someone who craves intensity that is slow and controlled. They imagine restraint as part of the experience. Not because they are afraid, but because they want to savor every second. They want to feel the weight of the moment before anything shifts.
When they think about the door remaining closed, they imagine time behaving differently. Minutes feeling longer. Sensations sharper. Awareness heightened. They imagine leaving that room changed, even if nothing outwardly dramatic occurred. Because the real impact was internal.
In their mind, the door closing is not the beginning of an action. It is the beginning of awareness. Of attention. Of something forming beneath the surface that cannot be undone once acknowledged.
Patreon Extended Reading Title: The Moment Everything Becomes Too Quiet to Ignore (18+) linked in my bio.
Pile Three
When they imagine the door closing, their thoughts move inward first. This is not about the room or the setting as much as it is about the emotional shift that happens the instant privacy is secured. For them, the closed door represents safety. A space where they no longer have to perform, explain, or hold back parts of themselves.
They imagine a shared exhale. As if both of you feel relief at the same time. The outside world no longer watching. No expectations pressing in. They imagine you becoming more yourself in that moment. Less guarded. More present. That is what draws them in most. The version of you that only appears when no one else is around.
This pile carries a deeply emotional tone. They imagine the door closing and suddenly feeling brave enough to be honest. Not dramatically, but quietly. They imagine conversations that drift into vulnerable territory without effort. Talking about things that matter. About fears, desires, and thoughts that do not get shared lightly.
They picture themselves listening closely. Watching your expressions change as you speak. They imagine feeling protective of that openness. As if the closed door creates a vow to treat what is shared with care. This person sees privacy as sacred.
There is also a strong sense of emotional intimacy building through closeness. Not necessarily through touch, but through presence. Sitting near each other. Sharing silence without discomfort. Feeling the hum of connection in the background of everything else. They imagine the tension being emotional before it is anything else.
This pile suggests someone who imagines the moment as transformative rather than impulsive. They do not rush ahead in their thoughts. They stay in the feeling. The weight of being chosen to witness a private version of you. The significance of being trusted with that space.
When they imagine leaving after the door opens again, they picture carrying something with them. A feeling. A memory. A bond that did not exist before. Even if nothing obvious changed, everything feels different inside them.
For this person, the door closing marks the beginning of something meaningful. Something that lingers long after the moment ends.
Patreon Extended Reading Title: The Moment Everything Becomes Too Quiet to Ignore (18+) linked in my bio.
Pile Four
When they imagine the door closing, their thoughts go immediately to the shift in power and presence. This is the pile of awareness. The moment feels charged because they imagine finally being fully seen and fully seeing you in return. The closed door signals a pause in time. A moment where nothing else competes for attention.
They imagine noticing details they usually miss. The way you move when you are relaxed. The way your voice changes when you are not performing for the world. They imagine the space between you shrinking, not rushed, but inevitable. As if the room itself encourages closeness.
This pile carries a sense of restrained intensity. They imagine wanting to hold themselves still at first, to observe the energy, to let the tension build rather than break it. They are very aware of the emotional weight of the moment. For them, the closed door is not an invitation to act immediately, but an invitation to feel everything fully.
They imagine standing or sitting close enough to feel your presence without touching. Breathing in the same air. Sharing a silence that feels heavy in the best way. This person associates intimacy with anticipation. With the quiet hum that exists before anything happens.
There is also a strong sense of choice in this pile. They imagine the door closing and feeling the importance of consent and mutual awareness. They want the moment to unfold naturally, guided by shared understanding rather than impulse. This makes the fantasy more powerful for them. The knowing. The unspoken agreement.
They imagine eye contact lingering longer than usual. Expressions softening. A sense of being on the edge of something that could change the dynamic between you. Even if nothing physical happens, the emotional impact feels undeniable. They imagine walking away later feeling altered by the closeness alone.
This pile suggests someone who values depth over speed. The door closing represents the chance to connect on a level that feels private, intentional, and rare. They imagine carrying that moment with them long after it ends, replaying the stillness, the awareness, the shared presence.
For them, the door closing is not about what happens next. It is about what becomes possible.
Patreon Extended Reading Title: The Moment Everything Becomes Too Quiet to Ignore (18+) linked in my bio.
Pick a Pile: How to break the cycle? ★ 6 piles tarot reading
-> "What it is that you need to break free from in order to move forward where you want in life?"
Okay so I'm full into creative transmutation at the moment so I thought this pile could be a fun thing to do. The idea is that we all want to become a better version of ourselves, to shine brighter, be more than what we currently are - and what gets in the way more often than not is ourselves. Therefore I wanted to inquire on what it is that you need to break free from in order to move forward where you want in life.
Part 1 will be about inquiring on the blockage, and part 2 will be about breaking free. Hope these are useful!
Pile 1 > 2 > 3 // 4 > 5 > 6.
ALL PICK A CARD ★ PINNED POST
PILE 1
Cards: Knight of Cups, 8 of Pentacles, the Fool, Justice (rx), the Empress
For people in this pile, I see a group of people who is highly sensitive, to the point of perhaps being a bit naive. I'm not talking about your goal or dream here, but your tendency to just follow the wind wherever it blows and not backing it up with actual dedicated and repeated work. It's like, one day you're full of hope, confident and in love with your idea, but the next your mood shift brutally, and you bounce between feeling intimated by the task or discouraged by the memories of your past failures; so you decide to take a self care day to recover and it turns into a week of inaction, so you bounce again and you turn into a tyrant towards yourself, you put pressure on yourself but it's like despite all your efforts nothing really moves. Basically you're too volatile and you have little self-awareness of your emotional processes, so you're basically at the mercy of your shifting mood and fragile mental landscape, which is neither pleasant nor a fertile ground for actual progress towards your goal.
Okay so how to deal with this problem, honestly I think some of you need some help to do that because I think it goes beyond simply ''just fix it lol''. But to give you some clarity, there's definitely a need to bring things back into balance. Yeah life is chaotic, some days are full of grief, others are time to celebrate, while other days again are time where you feel focused and clear-headed, there is no point denying or fighting that. However, what you can do is taking a more ''nurturing'' stance towards yourself. Imagine you are your own mother and the child. You can see clearly where you struggle, where you are lacking something and what you need to feel better, fulfill your needs and grow. So try to take a step back on the situation so that you are not just a leaf blowing in the changing winds, but an active participant to your well-being. Perhaps you need outside help, perhaps you need to address some needs that are left uncheck and are the reason everything is all over the place. Perhaps you need structure, but also time to play, rest and get fed before going back to your homework. Perhaps you need to let go of pent up energy bottled up inside. Whatever it is, it's going to be different for every person, and on different day. The idea is to see yourself as a fragment of nature that changes depending on the weather and the season, and to move with it with love and care, so that you can move forward with a bit more balance and grace. That way you will not only achieve your goal and get where you want in life, but also achieve a mental and emotional space that is so much more pleasant and healthy to be in. Basically the whole idea is recognizing your very specific needs (again might need help and/or research on the topic) and find ways to work with them, not against them.
PILE 2
Cards: Strength (rx), 2 of Pentacles, The Hanged Man, Knight of Swords
For people in this pile, the issue is rooted in a tendency to avoid tackling the problem upfront. It's like, you know what you want to do is a lot of work, effort and time to invest, and you don't feel ready or strong enough to tackle it, so you have a tendency to be avoidant towards the issue. That can look like not structuring your efforts enough or having a clear plan of what you need to do, and it can also be being indecisive about what decision to make or where exactly you need to go. Another element is a fear to take risks that might lead to failure because you can't predict clearly what the outcome is going to be, so you hold back. The overarching thing is that you have an extremely hard time to get out of the ''observer'' role, thinking that if you can see and understand all elements of the situations, then you'll be able to take actions and solve the issue.
However, not doing anything and waiting for the solution to magically appear in your mind, leading you towards foolproof success, is unrealistic and holding you back. It's not like you have no control over yourself, in fact, you have too much, but in the wrong place. You cannot control the outcome with just your mind, and holding yourself back because you want to be able to do it all from the safe place of your brain is what I mean by putting structure in the wrong place. What needs to be done instead is to just get out of your mind-fortress and step onto the battlefield. Be direct, spell out what is not working, what is, and what can be done about the issue. Let it all out. Try things out, fail, try something else, try again. Have more faith in your strengths, skills and talents and be confident towards you achieving your goal. Your mind is clouded with doubts, which spoils your self esteem and faith in your abilities, and this will lift once you start doing and moving through directed actions. Don't just rush in mindlessly, and keep going steadily, and you will get where you want to go.
PILE 3
Cards: 4 of Swords rx, Ace of Pentacles, Queen of Pentacles, the Fool, Ace of Cups
For this pile, I see a group of people who are exhausted, or at the very least, have a problem with balancing their energy levels to invest it in the goal they have. Perhaps you have time management issues, or you feel like you don't have the energy to invest in your project. It could be more litteral than that and you may not have the money you wish you had to invest in your project properly. In all case, it's a physical issue related to time/energy/money. It's not that you don't have the means to invest into what you want to pursue, like, there are practical things you could do, but you miss the mark because there is something that is not aligned or not invested or used properly. Basically mismanaged funds in the realm of time, energy and/or money. Like, if we take time, you might have the time you want, but your don't structure it properly and it always feel like you don't have enough of it to do what you want. Or for money, your could be spending it recklessly in other areas and not investing where it would actually bring you forward. And for energy, there might be areas of your life where you are carrying too much/overextending yourself while neglecting what would actually help you in your pursuit of your goal.
The Queen of Pentacles rx also points at neglecting things that could be nurturing for yourself, so there might also be an aspect of this unbalance-ness that is q bit self-destructive, or at least self-sabotaging, where you are not nourishing yourself in ways that would help you thrive. You might be over-focusing on areas of your life and things that you feel obligated to do at the expense of what you actually want to do. Perhaps also overfocusing on what's lacking is increasing the problem instead of helping you gently float towards a solution.
Okaay so for the solution or how to break free from this blockage, we got very contrasting card compared the the earlier ones. The Fool and the Ace of Cups talk about a radically different way to look at things. It seems the way you go about pursuing your goal is too materially-focused, in the sense that I see you as a problem-solver who tries to manage all the different elements to make it work but while disregarding joy, inspiration and personal fulfillment. It's too dry and life is not a math equation. What I mean by that is, yes, you need to be aware of your means and limitations in a physical sense, but you are also limiting yourself by not tapping into what makes you feel alive and free! I think you are too cautious, too aware that things could fail, so you spend all your time worrying about what could go wrong and trying to plan against it. It's making you overly concerned with staying safe, while also drying up what makes you feel alive. Perhaps the solution is in being a little more weird, crazy or simply passionate. I get the sentence in my mother tongue ''On ne peut pas vivre d'amour et d'eau fraiche'' which kinda translate to ''You can't live from love and fresh water only'' meaning that you need to be rational to be successful and not a hopeless romantic, that leads to nothing even if it's pleasurable. Perhaps you had people around you telling you some similar idea. I totally relate by the way, and I think it's bullshit and life doesn't need to be so serious all the time. However I might understand it, yet these words are so deeply printed in me that I can't help but not follow what my heart tell me because if feels like not something I should do. Anyway, I think you are, at the core, someone who yearns for passion and free creativity, and it's time to unleash that part of yourself. It will actually bring you further than your current approach. It could be helpful to think of yourself as a younger version of who you are, like a child or a teen. Any time of your life where you felt free to play, experiment and radiate joy without fear or guilt. The key to your progress doesn't lie in more structure or more discipline, it is hidden in what makes you feel happy, alive and free. So let loose and see what happens! :)
PILE 4
Cards: King of Wands, the Tower rx, the Hierophant, 8 of Swords, King of Cups, 9 of Wands, the Emperor rx, Knight of Cups, Knight of Wands, 6 of Swords
For this pile, with the King of Wands and the Tower that came up in a reversed position (it actually flew and flipped in the air and ended up sideways, which I personally read as somewhat reversed), it seems there are some actions you are unwilling to take, or choices that you afraid to make, because you fear deeply that the results could be disastrous. Next to it, the Hierophant and the 8 of Swords point at an inner struggle that you are feeling between what you think you need to do based on everything that you learned and saw in the world and around you, and what you want to do deep down, which you refuse or are unable to see. Perhaps your path involves going off the beaten track and trying something risky, and you are so afraid of doing things differently that you convince yourself that it will lead to nothing good (to say the least). Perhaps part of why that fear is so strong is that you feel like you've tried and failed in the past and you fear that it will happen again. You are keeping yourself caged in, stuck in place in a situation that you hate and that makes you feel lost and drained, because you keep listening to ''the good word'' of those around you and ignoring your own wisdom that could help you out of that. I think deep down you know that the solution provided by others won't work for you and your goal, but because you don't feel or think that you can trust your own capacity to carve out a way out in the wall, you stay stuck where you are. All in all there is a lot to process in your mind to clarify the situation and the way to break free (the Moon is peeking through), so we're going to draw a few more cards to see that.
I think the first step would be to try to calm yourself down and reach a place of more kindness and empathy towards yourself. The situation you are in is in no way easy, and you need to give yourself some grace. On top of that, remember all of that you've been through already and realize all that you've accomplished already. You are resilient and you can go through this obstacle too, as you've done before. You don't need everything figured out today. Take it one step at a time. Recognize your emotions and accept them, they are valuable messages that can guide you, they are not there to punish you but to guide you away from what is not making you happy and what can make you so. The second thing has to do with authority and obeying rules. What rules do you bend to that don't feel true or valid for you? What authority in your life is crushing you instead of protecting or structuring you? It is time to let go of those rules that constrict you and explore what actually aligns with your heart and soul. Go after your passions, what makes you feel full of Life and Passion. Yes that might mean cutting off where you currently stand, that might be a price that seems heavy, but it is the road to freedom and a new life that is truer to what you want and who you are. You might think you don't know what to do, but it's because you are ignoring what's screaming inside of you. The desires you don't want to face because you deem them too shameful or not realistic enough. They are real though, and they won't remain silent. So pay attention to them and see that you can be the rule-maker of your own life. You can free yourself, cut away your bonds, and carve your way out towards freedom, full of knowledge of yourself and your own truth.
PILE 5
Cards: Temperance, the High Priestess, the Empress, 6 of Pentacles, Ace of Swords, 4 of Cups, King of Swords, 5 of Swords rx, 8 of Cups, the Hierophant, the Fool. Justice, 5 of Wands
For people in this pile, I see that you feel like things aren't moving regarding your situation, most probably due to your own inaction. There seem to be a great desire to attract something beautiful and fulfilling to your life, can be any type of situation but for a lot of you I sense the idea of a relationship or something relationship-related. However, you don't seem to be taking any action towards that. I think the blocage comes from a need to restore the balance of an exchange that was not balanced to begin with. You seek to gain greater clarity over the situation, but it's like it's not supposed to come from you. You want it to come to you, that things get healed as a result of that. So you're not moving and you're waiting for things to resolve themselves by someone else's actions. I think this decision of yours to not act stems from the realization that love needs to be backed by actions, and you're waiting to see said actions before investing anything else into the situation. You are upholding your standards and not budging on them, setting boundaries and having authority over yourself. The issue perhaps is that, on some level at least, this iron fist you have over yourself is causing anguish. Like you want to remain strong and get what you want exactly how you want it, but it's also causing stress because what if you are fucking everything up and not getting what you want at all? That's what might be getting through your head.
The solution to how to break free is to understand that some things you can't repair on your own so you just need to accept them as they are. Yes you might wish the situation was different, but you are right to hold your ground. Perhaps things will turn out positively (by your standards), perhaps they won't, but you can't remain stuck in that mind-space. Let go of your attachment to the result and keep moving forward. If we are talking about a relationship, if they want to mend it they will find the courage and then it's up to you what you do with this. In any case, you'll have learnt a whole lot about yourself and became a better person. One advice I think is to detach from societies expectations, and I want to add your own perception of what society (at large - so could be family/friend/social circle/social media content) want you to do in that situation. Like perhaps people expect you to act in a specific way and you need to discard that. Your decisions are your own and it's time to choose your own values and lifestyle. I also want to say that staying mentally stuck where you are right now is draining your power of creation and initiative, so breaking free from this waiting game you are stuck in will mean finding excitement for life and the future again, so that you can find pleasure to move forward and experience what the future will bring to you. I drew two more cards as a last advice and got a message relating to the importance of remaining fair and open to communication as a way to clear misunderstanding, and making judgement based on facts over feelings (be it positive, like love and desire, or negative, like feeling angry or vengeful). Take it as you want!
PILE 6
Cards: 7 of Swords, 8 of Swords, the Tower, Queen of Wands and Queen of Cups, Strength, Ace of Swords, 7 of Cups, King of Swords, the High Priestess, the Empress
Okay, for people in this pile, I think there is something you are currently doing that is as close to self-sabotaging as it gets. There is something that you are doing that feels dishonest or that at least is seen by others as being dishonest if not straight up wrong. You react to this by refusing to see the situation, and I think it's because you do not have the full control over your reaction. It seems you are prone to outburst of emotions that lead to things being said and done that are outside the realm of what's acceptable for the people on the receiving end. The result is that you are destroying things in the process, could be relationships, feelings of trust and friendliness or even a whole situation like a job. I think you want to appear like you have things under control but it doesn't seem to be the case. It seems all these boiling feelings you are trying your best to push down but that erupt in the worst way and create chaos around you are the result of you not owning up to your actual power in this situation, so it's like you're trying to indirectly fuck it up so you can be freed from it instead of actually working on a way out that would not only be healthier but also more rewarding for you. Basically, you feel overwhelmed and it's like you can't or don't want to face the truth, and instead of seeking clarity you take refuge in your fantasies about the situation/the stories you tell yourself, or you could straight up be fogging up your mind to avoid thinking about that whole situation.
How to break free? Well you need to see the wrong of your actions and recognize your responsibility in them. Stop hiding behind illusions and lies you tell yourself and own up to your mistakes. You are not a bad person but the truth is that your actions reflect badly on you, AND they are counter-productive to what you want to achieve. So you need to deep dive within yourself, understand why you are really acting like that, take stock, reflect and learn from this because you've got a great deal to learn from this situation and great deal of growing up to do. I hope I don't sound too harsh, but really I want to highlight of self-sabotaging you are acting and there might be a self-esteem issue/self fulfilling prophecy you are trapping yourself into and it's not going to help you build the future you want and can get. The stance you actually want is to have a more constructive approach to your problem/situation. Instead of trying to blow it up and appear all winning and bloodied on the battlefield, lower your shield and find ways to get what you want (or get out of what you don't want) in a way that's smarter, kinder and more graceful. The solutions might be very simple, you just gotta admit your faults and accept that you currently are wrong but are able to correct the situation and find a way to make things work that's better for everyone involved.
I want to tell you something honestly and from the heart, because the energy around you right now shows that you’ve been living with so many mixed feelings like you’re standing in a long hallway and you’re not sure where it ends. There’s this quiet sense that life didn’t give you the picture you once imagined. Maybe you expected deeper emotional stability, more support, more warmth, or simply a kind of comfort you thought would be yours by now. But things turned out differently, and that left you feeling like the distance between you and the happiness you want is bigger than you hoped. Not because happiness is far it’s actually close but because your heart is carrying an old wound, something from the past that didn’t heal cleanly. That old scar makes you cautious, afraid of expecting too much, afraid of attaching, afraid of sudden disappointment. And this creates a kind of blockage inside not from bad luck, not from anything dark but simply because memories are still alive inside you. They resurface every time you try to move toward something new, almost like the past whispers, “Remember what happened,” even though you’re trying to walk forward.
At the same time, there’s a strong light trying to rise within you. Something is pushing hope back into your life, nudging you to smile again, reminding you that your path isn’t blocked and that what you want is still possible.. you just need one brave step. But that step keeps getting delayed, not because you’re unmotivated, but because deep down you’re constantly trying to balance what you feel with what you think you’re supposed to do. You’re carrying responsibilities heavier than anyone realizes whether at home, with certain people, or just with yourself. You keep trying to handle everything, please everyone, and keep every part of your life stable at the same time. And that creates pressure that drains your daily energy and slows your progress. There’s weight on your shoulders, the kind that doesn’t show on your face but appears as exhaustion, overthinking, sleepless moments, the desire to rest but not being able to rest, and the sense that the road is longer than it should be.
Deep inside, you also have a very strong intuition an inner voice that senses things before they happen. But the problem is that you’re not hearing it as clearly as you should. Not because you don’t want to, but because there’s too much noise around you: opinions of others, expectations, fear of making choices based on feeling, and fear of repeating past mistakes. All this creates hesitation. It feels like you’re standing between two paths, one you want to take but it scares you, and another that feels safe but doesn’t fulfill your heart. This isn’t weakness it’s a conflict between your mind calculating, your heart hoping, your past holding on, and your future calling.
There’s also a social and family influence around you not something harmful, just pressure that isn’t openly spoken. Expectations, comments, comparisons, or a sense that you’re supposed to fit into a certain role even if it doesn’t match what you truly want. This makes you feel like you’re stuck between who you really are and who you’re “supposed” to be in other people’s eyes. And this forms a hidden blockage: the desire to break free mixed with the fear of disappointing others or facing their reactions. And in the middle of all this, you have a strong desire to start something new a project, a skill, a career step, or a personal plan.. but things are moving slowly because your energy is spread thin across too many directions, between yesterday and tomorrow and everything happening today. This mental and emotional scattering creates more blockage than anything else. It’s like you’re trying to build a new future while carrying a hundred unfinished stories inside.
The blockages around you right now are very human.. old wounds that haven’t healed, emotional pressure, fear of change, heavy responsibilities, family expectations, and inner conflict between who you want to be and who others think you should be. There’s nothing dark, no supernatural force just tired hearts, deep sensitivity, high awareness, and souls that have been carrying too much for too long. You have so much inner power once you allow yourself to release some of that weight and listen to your own voice again. Your path is open.. you just need to lift the layers that years have placed on your heart. And every single one of these blockages can melt away once balance returns and the emotional load begins to fall off your shoulders.
⭐️Pile 2:
The energy around you right now shows that you’re experiencing very complex feelings, like you’re walking down a dark hallway full of questions and deep thoughts. I can feel that you are trying to understand everything before you move, every step is calculated, and every decision feels heavy on your heart and mind. There’s this sense that you’re trying to create fairness for yourselves, to be just in everything that concerns you and those around you, but life doesn’t always give you the chance to see things balanced or to give yourself the justice you deserve, and this creates a lot of inner tension. You’re feeling confused, like you’re seeing many choices ahead, each one tempting or risky, and this makes it hard to know where to start, as if decisions are heavy and movement feels slow.
At the same time, there is a strong desire to move forward and to experience change. Your hearts are calling out for adventure, but there’s also an inner awareness that you need clarity. I sense that if you don’t think carefully, you might end up in situations or make decisions that don’t truly serve you. The energy around you carries light and hope, encouraging you to see the bright side, but there’s also a hidden fear of the unknown, or hidden emotions that sometimes influence your choices, making you overthink before taking any step.
Additionally, there’s a feeling of a heavy responsibility, like you have to carry more than your share or follow rules and boundaries set by society or family, and this creates ongoing pressure. Some of you are trying to balance your inner desires and ambitions with the reality around you, and that balance isn’t easy, which can create feelings of distraction at times. There’s also a creative energy and a desire to start something new, but movement requires careful steps and patience, and there’s no need to rush.
I can see that the blockages for you in this reading are, confusion and too many choices, fear of making a decision, pressure from responsibilities and obligations, hidden emotions or fears of the unknown, distraction between the desire to move forward and the need for clarity, and inner burdens from expectations or boundaries imposed by society or family. This isn’t magic or ghosts; it’s all connected to your psychological, emotional, and rational sides, and it’s a natural load caused by deep thinking and awareness of your future and your decisions.
Your path ahead is open, but it needs calming your mind, listening to your inner guidance, and easing some of your mental load. Once you take these steps, the blockages will start to dissolve, and your energy will flow more freely, making movement and progress easier.
⭐️Pile 3:
The energy around you right now shows that you are going through a major transition in your lives, like the ground beneath you is shifting and the things you were once confident about are suddenly unstable. There is a strong feeling that something old is ending and something new is beginning, but this transition is far from easy, and every step requires deep thought before you move. A sense of instability is very clear, as if the things that used to feel familiar have become uncertain, creating fear and anxiety about the future and the unknown. Despite all this, there is a strong inner desire to explore, to learn, and to experience new emotions, but at the same time, your inner voice warns you not to rush or make hasty decisions. It’s as if your intuition is constantly saying, “Take your time, focus on what matters, don’t let negative energy control your choices.”
At the same time, there is a deep internal drive to seek a greater meaning in life, a search for emotional and spiritual freedom, and a sense that part of you is not satisfied with imposed rules or traditional paths that you feel expected to follow. This creates inner tension because on one hand, you desire freedom and emotional liberation, and on the other hand, there are responsibilities, obligations, and expectations. This conflict between wanting liberation and needing security generates significant inner struggle. There’s also a fear of losing control or anxiety about losing what you currently hold onto, and this internal burden weighs heavily on both your heart and mind, blocking forward movement. The energy is scattered between the desire for adventure and the need for safety, between the desire to take new steps and the fear of the outcomes, between the heart that craves experience and the mind that calculates every move. All of these intertwined forces are creating a clear blockage on all levels.
I can see that the blockages for you in this reading are.. first, fear of change and the unknown, because although there is a strong desire for freedom, the fear of consequences holds you back. Second, a loss of stability and security, as if everything familiar has suddenly become unclear. Third, the desire for emotional and spiritual freedom conflicts with responsibilities and obligations, creating a sense of mental pressure and confusion. Fourth, internal distraction between what you want and what is possible, between emotion and logic, between adventure and commitment, as if you need to find balance amidst all these changes. Fifth, hidden feelings or fears of the unknown, which sometimes aren’t obvious but show up as tension, worry, or discomfort. All of this is natural, connected to your psychological, emotional, and spiritual self, and reflects a major transitional phase you are experiencing, one that requires patience, awareness, focus, and the ability to listen to your inner guidance.
Additionally, there is a strong internal drive pushing you toward growth and development, a desire to learn new skills, start projects, or try new experiences, but movement is not easy due to the psychological pressure and hesitation present. The path ahead of you is open, but it requires calming your mind, organizing your emotions, and gradually reducing the mental load. With these steps, the blockages will begin to dissolve, energy will flow more freely, and you will be able to face change with greater confidence and deeper awareness, feeling more in control of your path instead of being ruled by fear or hesitation.
This phase is also a big opportunity to re-evaluate your life what is truly important to you? what you need to release? and how you can balance freedom with responsibility? This inner awareness is the key to dismantling blockages, because when you listen to your intuition and lighten your psychological load, every step becomes clearer, positive energy increases, and your future vision becomes sharper and stronger. You will then be able to move forward with steady, confident steps toward your goals.
Their private fantasies about your first kiss (18+)
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PILE 1
Their fantasy of your first kiss begins with warmth radiant, golden, almost overwhelming in its sweetness. With The Sun leading the energy, your future partner imagines a kiss that happens in a moment where your joy and your chemistry collide unexpectedly. They picture you laughing, smiling, glowing in some soft, natural light. Maybe sunlight through a window, maybe the glow of a late afternoon sky. Something about you in that moment feels alive, vivid, irresistible. You look like pure warmth to them, pure brightness, and they crave the moment they get to taste that light on your lips.
But beneath that soft glow, there’s something deeper. The Eight of Cups shows that they fantasize about your first kiss happening in a moment of emotional vulnerability almost like the kiss is a turning point. They imagine the tension building after some quiet, meaningful conversation. Maybe you reveal something personal. Maybe your eyes soften in a way they’ve never seen before. In their fantasy, they notice the shift that moment when your soul opens just a little, when your guard drops, when your softness peeks out from beneath your strength. And in that moment, they move toward you. Not out of lust, though that’s certainly simmering underneath but out of longing, out of ache, out of wanting to soothe something in you.
Then the Queen of Wands ignites everything. In their fantasy, there is something intoxicating about your confidence, your allure, your heat. They imagine the moment before the kiss being charged your eyes locking with theirs, your breath catching slightly, your expression giving away more than your words ever could. They find you magnetic. They think about the way you might tilt your head, the way your lips might part just a little, the way your presence commands theirs without effort. This is where the fantasy becomes undeniably sensual. They imagine wanting to touch your waist, your jaw, your back not to control you, but to ground themselves, because your energy floods them.
And then comes the Four of Pentacles… the hunger. The possessiveness. The desire to hold onto you like they might lose you if they don’t kiss you right then and there. This is where their fantasy gets darker, deeper, more primal. They imagine the first kiss as something they can’t stop once it starts. A kiss that begins soft but quickly becomes needy like they’re starved and you’re the only thing that could possibly satisfy them. They fantasize about your hands in their clothing, your fingertips gripping them, the subtle sound you make when you give in a little.
They imagine pulling you close not forcefully, but insistently. As if your lips were made to fit theirs. As if the kiss confirms something they’ve felt for too long. They want to savor you, but also take you. They want to feel your warmth pressed into them. They want to feel you melt under their mouth.
Their private fantasy is this:
Your first kiss is sunlight turning into fire
a sweet beginning that burns into an unforgettable hunger.
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PILE 2
Your future partner’s fantasy of your first kiss is electric charged with intention, skill, longing, and control. The Magician shows that they imagine orchestrating the moment in a way that feels perfect without seeming planned. They fantasize about reading your body language flawlessly, knowing exactly when your breath hitches or your eyes linger a little too long. They want the kiss to feel inevitable like gravity pulling you two together. They picture themselves leaning in slowly, deliberately, giving you time to want it, to crave it, to feel the tension tightening between you.
But the Seven of Wands reveals something more primal beneath that confidence: they fantasize about you resisting just slightly. Not in a rejection sense, but in a teasing, playful, charged way. They imagine you pulling back for a moment, giving them a look that makes their blood heat like you’re daring them to chase you. Their fantasy involves the thrill of closing that small space between you, the challenge of your fire meeting theirs. They want your first kiss to feel like passion overcoming restraint, desire slipping past hesitation. The moment when neither of you can hold yourselves back anymore.
Then the Ten of Cups softens everything. Because beneath the lust, their fantasy is deeply emotional. They imagine the kiss feeling like home. Like relief. Like everything in their life quiets for just a moment. They fantasize about the tenderness in your eyes, the warmth in your hands, the softness of your breath right before your lips touch. They want your first kiss to be a merging of energies passion and devotion, desire and safety. They imagine the kiss lingering, deepening, spiraling into a sense of belonging they didn’t expect to feel so soon.
But the Page of Swords brings the spark of curiosity the edge of hunger. In their fantasy, once the first kiss happens, they can’t stop studying you. They imagine pulling away for a second to look at your mouth, your eyes, your flushed expression. They imagine you biting your lip without realizing it. They fantasize about going in for a second kiss that’s deeper, more exploratory, more intoxicating. They want to taste the noises you make, the way your lips respond, the way your hands grip them.
Their fantasy is sensual in a detailed, exact, hyper-focused way. They imagine the texture of your lips, the warmth of your breath, the way your fingers tremble slightly when you’re aroused but trying to hide it. They want to kiss you until you forget your name. They want to make you gasp. They want to feel you press into them as the tension snaps and gives way to pure, raw desire.
To them, your first kiss is this:
A spell. A challenge. A promise.
A moment so charged you both know you’ll never forget it.
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Their private fantasy of your first kiss begins with Justice a sense of perfect timing, perfect balance, perfect inevitability. They imagine a moment where everything between you feels aligned. Maybe you’re sitting close, maybe you’ve just finished a deep conversation, maybe there’s tension building slowly and quietly. They fantasize about reading you perfectly knowing exactly when you’re ready, when your guard slips, when your heart opens. They want the kiss to feel earned, fated, mutually desired.
The Six of Swords shifts their fantasy into something intimate and quiet. They imagine the kiss happening in a peaceful, private moment somewhere away from noise or pressure. Maybe in a car after a long drive. Maybe walking together at night. Maybe sitting close on a couch. They fantasize about a slow, leaning-in moment, almost fragile. A softness. A vulnerability. They want the first kiss to feel like crossing a threshold from wondering to knowing, from tension to touch, from emotional distance to undeniable closeness.
Then the Knight of Cups arrives like a wave of romance. Their fantasy becomes tender, poetic, almost cinematic. They imagine brushing your hair back, cupping your jaw lightly, whispering something soft that makes you blush. They fantasize about kissing you like you’re precious, like you’re someone they’ve wanted for too long. They want the kiss to be slow, deep, sensual filled with emotion rather than rush. They imagine savoring you, exploring you gently, making you feel desired in a way that hits your soul first and your body second.
But the Nine of Pentacles is where the fantasy turns sultry. Because for as soft as the kiss begins, they fantasize about how intoxicating you become under their touch. They imagine how your confidence melts into warmth, how your elegance gives way to want, how your composed exterior trembles when passion finally takes hold. They fantasize about the moment you kiss them back harder, the moment your fingers curl into their clothing, the moment your breath quickens.
They imagine wanting to worship you with that first kiss.
To taste your strength and your softness.
To feel you surrender only because you want to.
Their fantasy is dark honey slow, rich, addictive.
A kiss that begins with balance, turns into sweetness, and ends with hunger.
In their private thoughts, your first kiss is:
A shift in destiny.
A quiet surrender.
A slow-burn desire that explodes the moment your lips meet.
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Pile 1
9C, POW, 10C, 5W, QOW, 2C, 10S, WOF
First things first. I instantly thought about “Speed Drive” from Charli xcx and when i went on to play that song i realized that my headphones weren’t connected to my phone. I would take that this pile has a very dreamy pastel like color to itself. Now that i look at the cards it’s so cute haha. I see your aura as either very light blue or a pinkish pastel or even a very watery yellow. I know that the style isnt really embodying what i’m saying here but i see the gyaru style if you know how that looks. Some of you may have some sort of very colored dots on your auras. You are a very friendly individual but you tend to quite keep to yourself. It’s weird but some of you remind me a lot of Luna Lovegood. You are a cute “weirdo”. Perhaps you dont talk a lot. I do see the three aura colorsbeing very similar yet they are somehow different. I feel like you will know which one is yours. The blue auras are very soft spoken and kind but have a tendency to come off as unusual, perhaps you have some aquarius and pisces placements in your charts. The pink auras remind me of pinkie pie but still give off that unusual vibe. They are very energetic and joyful and romantic. All of the colors are very cute tho. The yellow auras are very confident, still very optimistic but they have been through a lot and they love to lead. This pile is incredibly friendly, like i cannot comprehend how this is possible actually. I get such good vibes from you. You could be very empathetic individuals. I told you, you have this happy go lucky vibe to you it’s so cool. I like yalls, i’d like to be a “young” spirit as you are :) I also get that you love your families and that you have a very good relationship with them.
Pile 2
Justice, Empress, 7P, AOW, Emperor, POC, AOS, 5P
For this pile i pick up something else. Your aura is heavy and full of sorrow. Seems to me that you were forced to mature, perhaps went through something very heavy. You remind me of a character from dostoyevsky’s books. Perhaps you dress very dark academia. When i looked at you i heard the Hunchback of notre dame, the piano version. Your aura is like a caravaggio painting, very dimly lit so you can see only the important features, the light. I am not sure what you are going through but i am not a big fan of your aura, youre a bit too serious. I see a dark figure and their body has a fine golden lining and it is warm. You are very intelligent and calculated, no doubt in that, but you lack positivity lets say. You need to let more light in, perhaps pray or write down your troubles. You need to let go of this heavy energy. I see that you are a strong individual and that you value material wellbeing but dont underestimate the importance of spiritual well being. Be kind to yourself more often. You remind me of a gothic church. I see light going through the stained glass but more light needs to enter in order to bring some happiness into your live. In my visions i also saw someone goth and that person was a dark purple but most of the people who choose this pile are brownish when it comes to aura. Some of you might be law students, you are very strong and sturdy and you have a sharp tongue. You need to hang out more. Spend time with your friends as well. Dont keep all the pain inside yourself. You are an old soul and youre hella mature, as i said, be kind to yourself. You did so well so far, keep going but take care :)
This pile gave such strong mysterious and intense vibes. Maybe some of you have strong scorpio placements. You are very detached and cold and calculated, you have such a misty vibe. As i saw judgement i felt like you might feel quite close to religion and if not, you love the whole dark angel aesthetic. Ya’ll might have heavy 12th house energy as well to be honest. There is this lack of clarity when it comes to you. It’s intense and mysterious but it’s also like fog, it’s like people cant get to see through you but you see through them. You are someone who seems very unassuming at first and then as people get to know you, you show how sharp you can be. Your honesty can hurt people badly and i feel like some of you tend to argue a lot, unknowingly hurting other people’s feelings, making people stay away. I got this random fact in my head, i feel like most of you are either metalheads or like very loud and intense music. If you lack that “crazyness” this might not be your pile. I also get that you are very unemotional and very based on facts, you dont care about people’s feelings, you believe in justice and in truth. You’re not afraid to leave someone behind if things dont go the way you want them to. I wouldn’t call this egoism, i’d say you are just very indifferent. It’s gonna sound weird but your energy reminds me so much of Johan from Monster but not in a bad way, the way your intensity projects itself. This song reminds me heavily of your energy so maybe you can check it out :) You sound exactly like the instrumental version of the song i placed below, heavy focus on the “misty” sounding part (2.26-2.42). As i was about to shuffle for the next reading the judgement card fell once more. You also carry heavy karmic energy and right now i’ve also heard that you might have a similar energy to archangel michael’s just so you know.
Before i start doing anything i just gotta say you remind me so much of that one herbalist from Potion Craft. You have a greenish, nature like aura. Perhaps you might be very interested in gardening and flowers. I also get that you could love medieval stories or even wish you were living in the medieval era😂 i just saw on tv on history a coin from the templar knights times so i guess my intuition is spot on, let’s see the cards. Now that i’ve pulled my cards i see that you are very grounded and you are very interested in exploring. You remind me of a traveler in a way, but not in a young unexperienced traveler type of way, more like someone who is very knowledgeable in the ways of life. You are very knight-like. Grounded, strong, serious, curious. You also give very earthy vibes. I feel like at the moment you might be facing something that challenged your stability and your ability to take care of yourself properly and you are just tired, you want to take a nap under a tree or something, take off your helmet and just watch the sunset. As for aura i see this very light, old kind. An old soul wanting to rest. You’re like a sunset in the distance. I also get that you’re also very worldly. I see a combination of colors, i see green, light brown and so much more, it’s like a painting, very pretty. You bring light and stability to those around you, a sense of security. People feel safe around you. The song i chose for you pretty much sums up how you feel to others in a way. Cautious, very grounded, calm, but full of life. You enjoy eating good, having good sex, hanging out with your friends, you appreciate the beauty of life and you are thankful for everything the Universe has to give. I keep hearing change and it’s at the bottom of the deck so o feel like you hang on for dear life when things take a turn. Even though you are a greatful person, you prefer things to be the way they are now😂
Pile 5
Chariot, Sun, 10C, 9C, POC, Devil, KOC, 7C
This pile is a bit complicated. It’s such a young energy but not the childish kind like pile 1, this one is like a teenage girl that went through a heartbreak for the first time and is now learning to love herself. You are someone who knows what they deserve but let people walk over them intentionally out of love. You are someone very polite and have a wonderful energy overall, it brings back memories of myself when i was younger. You are kind, you love and love and love and you try to be as optimistic as you can be. As i look at the cards i notice how i forgot to write the cards i got at a previous reading so i think that you, just like me, are scatterbrained 😂 you want so much from life and after the things youve been through you’ve finally come to the point where youre happy with yourself. When i look at you i see the kind of person to hang out in cd shops just to see if the store has cd’s from your favorite band. Youre like a breath of fresh air to me, you are so light in energy that you just bring peace with yourself wherever you go. Some of you are funny as well. You are like an afternoon nap when you wake up and the whole room is yellow from the sun setting. You give such a city like energy. You are like a teenage girl that who runs away from home with their friends to go run through the city at night or something like that. Words cant actually describe the vibe you give but this song sure does :3
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There are attractions that glow softly… and then there are those that strike like a pulse beneath the skin, the kind that doesn’t ask for permission before taking hold. This reading belongs to the second category the kind where longing presses itself into every breath, where desire is not an accessory but a gravity, where two souls don’t simply meet… they collide. Your future spouse doesn’t just want you; they feel pulled to you as if the universe strung a wire between your hearts and tightened it with every heartbeat. What you’re about to read is their confession raw, sultry, magnetic. Not softened. Not restrained. Just desire speaking in its truest voice.
PILE 1
I don’t know how to explain the way you affect me without admitting that you undo me more easily than I care to confess. There’s something reckless about how you entered my life like a spark landing on dry skin but instead of burning me, you woke something that had been dormant for far too long. When I first saw you, I felt something inside me step forward before I even consciously chose to. I told myself I’d be cautious, that I’d keep my distance, that I wouldn’t let myself fall under the spell of someone whose presence feels like both a beginning and a dare. Yet every time I try to steady myself, you pull me forward again. It’s maddening, this constant swing between wanting to run from the intensity… and wanting to drown in it.
I’m not proud of how vulnerable this makes me. You’re the one person who makes me feel exposed without touching me, the one whose absence feels physically wrong, the one who somehow reads desire in the movement of my breath. Sometimes I try to pretend I’m unaffected cold, composed, untouchable but then you smile, or you glance at me from the side, or your voice dips into that soft, dangerous tone… and everything inside me fractures. I want you with an ache that’s almost territorial, a craving that hums beneath my ribs even when I’m trying to think of anything else. I’m drawn to your warmth, your softness, but also the fire you hide behind your eyes the fire that tells me you’re not someone I can ever half-love. You demand the whole storm, and without meaning to, I’m already offering it.
What scares me is how beautiful it feels. How easy it would be to give in completely, to let you unravel me with just your closeness, to let you teach me what it feels like to be wanted by someone who doesn’t hesitate. I imagine leaning into you not cautiously, not carefully but fully, the way gravity leans into the earth. I imagine your hands on me, grounding and igniting in the same moment. I imagine a life where I stop pretending I don’t feel this magnetic pull and instead let it drag me into your arms, your breath, your warmth. I want to be reckless with you. I want to lose myself in the way you look at me like there’s something between us that neither of us can escape. And maybe there is. Maybe that’s why it scares me. Because wanting you feels like stepping off a cliff… and somehow trusting you’ll catch me before I fall.
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PILE 2
From the very beginning, you awakened something I thought I’d buried beneath patience, logic, and restraint. I’ve always been the type to move slowly, deliberately, carefully but you? You turned my composure into kindling. The moment our energy collided, there was this rush, this heat, this dizzying sense that something inside me was being pulled toward you faster than I could process. I tried to reason with myself, to remind my heart that attraction can be misleading, that desire can be blinding. But every time I stepped back, the universe shoved me two steps closer to you. You move through my thoughts like lightning startling, bright, impossible to ignore. And every time I try to breathe through it, I feel that fire again. It’s almost unfair how effortlessly you unravel the distance I try to create.
You have this mix of softness and power that catches me off guard. It’s the way you look at the world, the way you carry yourself as if you’ve weathered storms and learned to dance in the wind. The more I see you, the more I want to understand every layer of you the light, the shadows, the contradictions, the quiet aches you hide behind your smile. I crave the intimacy of knowing you in all your forms. I imagine tracing the thoughts you don’t say aloud, the ones that flicker across your expression for half a second. I imagine learning the exact sound of your breath when you’re excited, the way your voice changes when you whisper something meant only for me. My desire for you doesn’t come in soft waves; it hits hard, sudden, like a force that takes the air from my lungs and replaces it with heat.
What I feel for you is not just want it’s momentum. You pull me forward, not just emotionally but physically. When I picture us together, I see a connection that’s charged enough to make the world around us blur. I see your hands in my hair, your body pressing into mine, a closeness that feels inevitable rather than chosen. I want the kind of intimacy where I know your voice in the dark, where I can read your thoughts through the way your fingers curl against me. I want the slow burn, the breathless edge, the heat that comes from being so close that the rest of the world disappears. I want the comfort after the intensity your chest rising under my cheek, your arms wrapped around me like you’re afraid to let go. I want all of it. And the truth is, I think I’m already falling into you. Not slowly, not cautiously but with the kind of intensity that leaves marks long before lips ever meet.
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PILE 3
You unsettle me in a way I secretly love. There’s something about you that feels like temptation sculpted into a human shape, something that lingers on my tongue like a taste I’m not supposed to crave and yet here I am, wanting more with every breath. You’re not the kind of attraction that glows gently in the corner of a room; you’re the kind that stands in the doorway and makes my pulse stumble. From the moment our paths crossed, I felt a shift in the air, like my body recognized something my mind wasn’t ready to name. And even now, when I try to keep myself steady, your presence tilts my world again. You have no idea how hard it is to act unaffected when everything in me angles toward you.
I want to touch you in ways I haven't let myself imagine out loud slow, exploring, reverent, but laced with hunger. I want to know how your breath feels against my neck, how your body curves when I pull you closer, how your voice sounds when it melts into something unguarded. You bring out a version of me that is bolder, hungrier, less patient. Around you, restraint feels impossible; desire rises too quickly, too sharply, like a spark catching dry wood. But there’s something deeper beneath that fire a fascination, a pull, a sense that you’re not just someone I want to touch but someone I want to understand, someone I want to memorize slowly and completely. Your mystery isn’t a wall; it’s an invitation. And I’ve never wanted to accept an invitation so badly.
The truth is, I feel possessive in ways I can’t easily justify. Maybe it’s the way you move, or the softness you hide under that sharp intelligence, or the way your energy feels both familiar and forbidden. I imagine you next to me not just physically but intimately, emotionally, in the kind of closeness where your heartbeat becomes something I recognize without needing to count. I want the nights where we pull each other closer out of instinct. I want the mornings where you’re half-asleep and reaching for me without thinking. I want the kind of connection that feels like heat and gravity and fate tangled together. And god, I want to taste the way you breathe my name when desire finally cracks open the space between us. You’re the kind of temptation that doesn’t burn me you brand me. And I’ve never wanted to be marked by anyone the way I want to be marked by you.