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PICK A CARD READINGS
All the pick a card/pick a pile I wrote, divided by topics.
TAROT SPREADS
All the tarot spreads that I designed for anyone to use. Different topics and question. You're free to use them as you want but don't reupload, thank you.
COLLECTIVE READINGS
November 25, 2025 -> On control and going with the flow
MISC
Ask Game - Get to Know your Tarot Reader
Astrological Associations of the Tarot Major and Minor Arcana - Cheat Sheet
I realized I haven't made one of those yet and I find them quite cool. So each pile/tile will either be yes or no (or maybe), with the advice/comment to help you understand your situation better. Depending on your question you may pay more attention to the YES/NO reply or to the comment that comes with it as with tarot, things are rarely so cleanly cut.
DISCLAIMER - Remember that this is a general reading meant for many different people and situations and it's possible not everything or even nothing at all fits. If something doesn't resonates or triggers you you are free to let it go. Don't ruin your sleep over a tumblr post and as always nothing is set in stone and you are free to do and think whatever you want in this world.
Also I offer private paid service if you want a more personalized reading :)
ALL PICK A CARD ★ PAID READINGS
PILE 1
YES - the result you are seeking regarding your situation will require perseverance and effort over time but will be immensely rewarding and fulfilling. You are invited to invest in this situation keeping in mind your long term goals and what you need to do to establish a solid foundation and think of what values and heritage it leave behind. Think of it as building a palace and being proud of every stone you laid down, and of all the future generations who will enjoy your hard work long after you're gone.
PILE 2
NO - Right now you need to think of your own stability and physical sovereignty. Mostly related to ideas surrounding resources (money, energy, time, and other physical aspects) but also your health. It is not time to have fun like the grasshoper enjoying summer, but work like the ant that prepares for winter. Right now things may seem easy and bountiful but a windfall is never far so take care of what you have, because you have plenty enough, but don't waste it recklessly to prepare for the hollow season.
PILE 3
MAYBE - The situation in your mind calls for a more focused way of thinking things through while anchoring your actions in the actual state of things. This is not the time to be wishy washy or lost in your dreams but to analyze things as they are and make a plan you can follow through. Be firm, rational and weight the pros, cons, and impact of your choices.
PILE 4
YES - Times call for being bold and passionate. This is a resounding yes to go after what it is you seek and do it with a fiery confidence and determination. Move forward with the trust of someone who knows they will win and who is free from fear and doubts. Do not let your dream fade away but rest assured you have everything it takes to go after what you want.
PILE 5
YES - If your question is about bringing harmony in a situation opposing two forces, or a relationship with someone, then this pile encourages you to bridge the gap and bring harmony into the dynamic. Despite the differences, there is more in common between these two things/people/you and them than you think and a beautiful exchanges is possible. A loving word or a gift of peace can go a long way to establish strong and fulfilling bonds.
PILE 6
MAYBE - This situation pulls you deep into the depth of dreamy emotions, but do you know how to swim? There is the opportunity here to find real love, kindness and care, but it is also possible to get lost in it completely. Be mindful of becoming too dependent at the risk of losing yourself far away from the surface. The advice is to be empathetic of the other person involved, but to not forget to care for yourself as the situation may not be as clear as it seems and getting hurt is a possibility.
PILE 7
NO/MAYBE - Something doesn't sit right with you in this situation and you have chosen to retreat and not take any action. Opportunities are passing in front of you and you are not reaching for any of them. However, this can't go on forever and sooner rather than later you will need to make a choice and break apathy. Reflect on why you feel so reluctant to move as there may be valuables things you are missing out on here. Perhaps things aren't as untrustworthy as you make them to be.
PILE 8
NO - It is time to leave something behind in order to move toward something better. Yes it is scary and you are not leaving without pain, but where you are going will be so much better even if it seems far and abstract. It is okay to take time to mourn what you leave behind, this tender part of yourself is important too. One day you will grow and remember this moment as something that shaped you and was an important turning point that made you wiser.
PILE 9
YES - Time is limited and you've wasted enough of it already. Go after what it is you seek, be ambitious and driven, but keep your intentions and plans to yourself. You do not want to attract unwanted attention, and you do not need the interference of other people's opinions here because your own light is all you need in this situation. Things may seem foggy right now but it will clear out the further you move toward your goal.
DISCLAIMER: This is for entertainment and educational purposes only. All interpretations, analyses, and opinions shared here are speculative and should not be taken as factual statements about any individual or yourself.
PILE 1
Page of Cups
There is a softness in you that is both a gift and something that quietly keeps you stuck. You feel deeply, you imagine deeply, you hope deeply, but sometimes that emotional openness stays in the realm of feeling instead of becoming action. It can look like waiting for the right mood, the right inspiration, or the right emotional clarity before you move forward. Your growth is being slowed by staying in a state of emotional potential rather than emotional direction. You are connected to your inner world, but you may hesitate to ground those feelings into something tangible, and that creates a cycle where you feel a lot but move very little.
King of Wands
You have vision, ambition, and the ability to lead your own life in a powerful way, but what is hindering you is how you relate to that power. There may be moments where you see exactly who you could become, but instead of stepping fully into that version of yourself, you hold back or question whether you can sustain it. This can also show up as inconsistency, where you feel bursts of motivation and confidence but struggle to maintain that energy long-term. Your highest self requires you to trust your ability to lead your own path, not just envision it. Right now, there is a gap between knowing your potential and consistently embodying it.
King of Swords (Reversed)
There is a disconnect between your thoughts and your clarity. You may overanalyze, second-guess, or even talk yourself out of things before you give them a real chance. This energy can become self-sabotaging in a very subtle way, where logic is used not to guide you but to limit you. You might tell yourself something is not realistic, not practical, or not the right time, when in reality it is fear being filtered through rational thinking. Growth is being hindered by mental loops that create doubt instead of direction. Instead of your mind supporting your progress, it sometimes creates barriers that keep you from moving forward with confidence.
Page of Wands (Reversed)
There is a hesitation to begin. Ideas may come to you, excitement may spark, but it fades before it turns into action. This can look like starting and stopping, losing momentum, or waiting until you feel completely ready before taking the first step. The truth is that readiness is not something that arrives fully formed, it is something you build through movement. This card shows that part of what is holding you back is not a lack of passion, but a lack of follow-through. You may be afraid of doing something imperfectly, so you delay doing it at all, and that keeps you in the same place longer than necessary.
King of Cups
At your core, you have the ability to be emotionally balanced, intuitive, and deeply self-aware, but what is hindering your growth is not fully stepping into that stability. You may understand your emotions, but not always act from a place of emotional maturity. There can be moments where you let feelings guide you in ways that pull you off course instead of grounding you. Your highest self requires emotional leadership, not just emotional depth. This means learning how to hold your feelings without letting them dictate your direction. Once you do that, everything else in this spread begins to align, because your emotions stop being something you react to and start becoming something you move with intention.
PILE 2
The Star (Reversed)
There’s a quiet loss of faith sitting underneath everything, and it doesn’t always look dramatic. It shows up as doubting whether things will actually work out for you, questioning if you’re really capable of becoming who you envision, or feeling disconnected from a sense of purpose. Your growth is being hindered by this subtle discouragement that drains your motivation before you even begin. It’s not that you don’t want better for yourself, it’s that part of you struggles to believe it’s truly possible or sustainable. When hope feels inconsistent, effort starts to feel pointless, and that’s where you stall.
King of Pentacles (Reversed)
There’s an instability in how you define security and success, and it’s affecting how you move forward. You may either feel like you don’t have enough control over your material or external world, or you might be placing too much importance on having everything perfectly stable before you allow yourself to grow. This creates a loop where you delay progress because conditions aren’t ideal. At the same time, there can be moments of self-doubt around your ability to maintain consistency or build something long-term. Your growth is being slowed by tying your worth or readiness to external stability instead of developing it internally first.
Four of Wands (Reversed)
There’s a disconnect from feeling grounded or supported, whether that’s in your environment, your relationships, or even within yourself. You may not feel fully settled where you are, and that lack of stability makes it harder to expand into something new. It can feel like you’re waiting for a sense of belonging or alignment that hasn’t quite clicked yet. This card suggests that part of what’s holding you back is feeling like you don’t have a solid foundation to build from, even if that foundation doesn’t need to be perfect to begin with.
Page of Swords (Reversed)
Your mind is active, observant, and constantly processing, but it can also work against you. There’s a tendency to overthink, to watch instead of act, or to get caught in cycles of doubt and comparison. You might spend more time analyzing possibilities than actually stepping into them. This creates a sense of being mentally busy but physically stagnant. Growth is being hindered by hesitation that comes from trying to figure everything out before moving, instead of allowing clarity to come through experience.
Four of Pentacles
There’s a tight grip on what feels safe, and that grip is keeping you in place. You may be holding onto old habits, mindsets, or situations because they feel familiar, even if they’re limiting your expansion. There’s a fear of loss here, whether that’s losing stability, control, or a version of yourself that you’ve outgrown. This makes it difficult to take risks or open yourself up to change. Your growth is being slowed by this need to protect what you have instead of trusting that letting go can actually create space for something better.
PILE 3
Nine of Wands (Reversed)
You’re more tired than you admit, and that exhaustion is shaping your choices. There’s a part of you that has been pushing for so long that now, instead of standing strong, you’re either dropping your guard completely or feeling like you don’t have it in you to keep going. This doesn’t just show up as physical burnout, it’s emotional and mental too. When you’re in that state, growth feels like another burden instead of something empowering. So you either avoid it or approach it half-heartedly, and that keeps you in the same cycle.
Death (Reversed)
There’s something in your life that has already reached its natural ending, but you’re still holding onto it. This could be a mindset, a habit, a situation, or even an identity that no longer fits who you’re becoming. The resistance to letting this go is one of the biggest things slowing your growth. It’s not that you don’t know change is needed, it’s that part of you is uncomfortable with what comes after. Staying where you are feels more predictable, even if it’s limiting. That hesitation keeps you in a space that you’ve already outgrown.
The Fool
You’re being called toward a new beginning, but what’s holding you back is your relationship with risk. There’s a part of you that wants to leap, to try something new, to step into a different version of yourself, but another part of you questions whether it’s the right move. Growth here requires trust, not certainty. You don’t need to have everything figured out before you start, but you may be waiting for that feeling anyway. This creates a pause where movement should be, and that pause keeps you from discovering what’s actually possible.
Four of Cups
There’s a sense of emotional disengagement that’s quietly keeping you stuck. You might feel unmotivated, uninterested, or disconnected from opportunities that are right in front of you. It’s not that nothing is happening, it’s that you’re not fully open to receiving it. This can come from disappointment, from things not working out the way you expected before, or from feeling like nothing truly excites you right now. When you’re in this energy, you overlook what could actually help you move forward.
Four of Pentacles
Control is playing a bigger role than you realize. You’re holding on tightly to what feels safe, whether that’s your current situation, your habits, or even your way of thinking. There’s a fear underneath this of losing stability or stepping into something uncertain. But that tight grip is also what’s keeping you from expanding. Growth requires some level of release, and right now, there’s resistance to that. You’re trying to protect yourself from change, but in doing that, you’re also preventing yourself from evolving.
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Hello, everyone! It’s been a while since I posted and I’m not sure in which frequency I’m going to put up readings from now on, since I found out I’m an incorporation psychic and started studying and developing in that area. So tarot is going to take the back seat for a while, but I’m thinking of opening private readings once my energy is more stable and I’m more connected to my guides.
But enough about me, in today’s reading we’re looking into something that’s been holding you back. That could be in any form. Maybe you feel like there’s an energy that’s been stopping you from accomplishing something or there’s a part of you that’s been self sabotaging or even something else. Whatever it is, we’re going to look into it. Please let me know if it resonates a go ahead to pick your pile 💜
1>2>3
How to pick: if you’re having a hard time picking your group, you can close your eyes, take a deep breath, relax your muscles and focus on your breathing. Once you feel your mind clearing and your body relaxing, open your eyes and try to feel which pile you’re drawn to the most. If you’re still unable to chose, you can skim your finger through the screen and see if any of the piles feel any different to you. If you still can’t chose, maybe this reading isn’t for you and that’s okay. Try looking for another reading that matches your energy.
Disclaimer: this is a general reading, so be aware that not everything in your group might apply to you. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t.
Cards: King of wands, Knight of pentacles in reverse, The Magician in reverse, four of swords, The High Priestess, The Hermit in reverse, ten of cups and The Star.
Back of the deck: The Hanged Man in reverse.
Hello, group 1! Welcome to your reading! The first thing I have to tell you is that there are two guides by your side that really want you to move forward with your life and find your true calling. One of them comes in a masculine and more jovial energy while the other comes in a feminine and more mature one. I don’t know if they are loved ones who passed away and stayed by your side or some other type of spirit guides. But whoever they are, they really want you to prosper and to start moving in the direction of your destiny. They tell me that what’s holding you back is a person, or at least your desire to fulfill this person’s expectations of you. This person’s energy is coming as of someone older and more experienced in a certain area. They could be your parent or some other sort of family member. Other alternative is them being your boss, teacher or some sort of mentor. Mostly they are someone you look up to and want to impress or become more like them. There seems to be a hierarchy between the two of you. This could be just your perception because you feel like this person is more competent or experienced than you, or there really is an official hierarchy like in the case of them being your parent or your boss. At the end of the day you feel like you are lesser than this person in an area and desire to reach their level. And that is what’s holding you back. Because your reason for wanting to become better is related to that person’s perception of you. Basically you want to impress them on their terms when those terms never favored you in the first place. You are different from this person in a fundamental way. You both perceive reality differently and the more you are trying to reach their level, the more you are letting your own nature be diminished. You have so much talent inside you, but you are not using it. You’re putting it to the side like it isn’t the most spectacular thing about you. And I don’t even feel like I need to specify this. You know what talent I’m talking about. You know what you are capable of. It makes no sense to try and be like someone else when what you have is so special. I feel like you might need a break to think this over without being persuaded by this person. It takes a toll on someone to pursue a path that feels unnatural. And you, my love, haven’t taken a break in a while. You need quiet time and space in order to listen to your intuition. Maybe you’ve been pushing yourself lately as a way to avoid doing exactly that. But your spirituality is calling you to pause for a moment. They are asking you to honestly reflect on what it is that you truly want in life (what would be your happily ever after?) and what is the best path you could take in order to achieve it. You haven’t been listening to your heart lately and that’s messing you up, my dear. The last thing I have to tell you is that you have a beautiful destiny. Whatever your calling is, it will reach you eventually. And when it does it will feel like freedom, even like magic. You will be grounded. But in order to find that calling you will need to follow the direction of your heart. Don’t close your eyes to your own needs. You’re the one responsible for caring for them. If you neglect them, so will everyone else.
Take care of yourselves, group 1. Know that you are deeply loved by your guides. They want you to find your destiny and your happiness as soon as possible. I hope this reading brought some light to you. Thank you so much for being here. Sending you lots of love 💜
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Group 2
Cards: King of Swords, Queen of Cups, nine of pentacles and three of cups in reverse
Back of the deck: knight of pentacles in reverse.
Hello, group 2! Welcome to your reading! The things that has been holding you back is your parents, or the people who raised you. Not to say that you have a bad relationship with them. For most of you I feel like it is quite the contrary. You admire your guardians quite deeply. They are showing up as the King of swords and the Queen of cups, so that tells me you see them as competent, successful, reliable, wise and highly intelligent people. You see them as so incredible that you might feel a lot of pressure to become as successful and amazing as them. You seem to think that you need to prove yourself for some reason. Like you need to give them back what they gave to you. But I don’t feel like they expect you to give anything back. Your guardians are happy with the life they built for themselves and that’s the only thing they want you to accomplish. They want you to find happiness and don’t care much about how that may look like. And despite knowing that, you still feel like proving yourself. You feel like you don’t belong in this amazingly talented family of yours and that makes you unworthy of their care and attention. Group 2, you seem to be so focused on how amazing your family is that you can’t even see what amazing qualities you have. The song “for the dancing and the dreaming” from How to Train your Dragon just started playing as I was writing that which only confirms to me that your family loves you for who you are and they don’t expect any “mighty deeds or rings of gold” from you. They just want you near and happy. If you are struggling to see that, why not just go ahead and ask? I’m sure you will realize that there is nothing you need to do in order to belong with your family. You always have belonged. Once you internalize that is when you’ll be able to move forward. Once you move out from under your family’s shadow and start letting the light shine on you is when you’ll finally be able to grow on your own terms. I’m seeing this big, huge tree that is centuries old and a little seed that fell from it and keeps looking up at the big tree and wondering why it doesn’t look the same. But the little seed will only be able to turn into a sapling and then into a tree once the wind or an animal takes it away from under the shadow of the big tree and into fertile soil and sunlight. No trees grow under the shadow. And you seem to be wanting to flourish right under the shadow. That will get you no where, group 2. In order to grow you will need to learn to seek the sunlight. You may not be able to see your own self worth right now, but how could you when you haven’t had enough light? Most people tend to be scared of the dark. You, on the other hand, keep running towards it. What scares you so much about the light that makes the dark feel like comfort? And what do you need in order to gain the courage to step into the light? Just a heads up, but it feels warmer under the light.
Thank you so much for being here, group 2. I’m hoping this reading was of help to you. Sending you lots of love 💜
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Group 3
Cards: three of wands in reverse, ace of pentacles in reverse, four of cups, the Hermit in reverse, three of cups in reverse, Death and Knight of cups in reverse.
Back of the deck: ten of pentacles in reverse.
Hello, group 3! Welcome to your reading! The first thing I have to tell you is that I’ve been yawning non stop ever since I started pulling your cards, which shows me how deeply tired you are. So the first message I’m getting is that you need to rest. You won’t be able to move forward and forge your own path if you do not have a clear and rested mind, body and spirit. Now onto your cards, they tell me you have been waiting for something to happen in order to move forward with your life, almost like you are waiting for a sign from the universe to tell you what to do and some of you are starting to feel comfortable in this energy of stagnation, of waiting around. It looks like you’re begging the universe for a sign but you don’t even look around for those signs. It looks like some hidden part of you believes that it won’t feel as good to have it in reality as it does in your fantasy. Maybe the reason is because you’re scared of what it would actually entail getting what you want. It looks like you see yourself as too small for this thing. Like you won’t be able to handle the pressure or the responsibility. An example of a situation like that would be you wanting to enter this specific college course, but you feel like you aren’t intelligent enough and you keep waiting for something or someone to tell you that you have what it takes to accomplish that, but you aren’t studying for the entrance exam and you don’t even know that dates in which you can apply. Another example would be if you had a crush on someone and continuously fantasized about them, but never said hi or developed a conversation, scared of being rejected, so you kept waiting for the universe to push you two together. Basically you’re so scared of making a move and not being enough that you keep expecting the thing you want to fall into your lap like magic without you having to expose yourself. You’re not considering how it would actually look like to have that in reality. I get the feeling you must be very young, in which case, I have to tell you that what you’re going through is normal. You don’t know some things about the world yet and have an idealized and detached from reality understanding of some things you’ve never been through. So know that nothing of what I’m saying is coming as judgement, but as an orientation. What you imagine is rarely what happens in real life. In order to pass a college exam you need to study for it. In order to get a date with someone you have to interact with them. In order to move out of your parents house you need to be able to afford living on your own. In order to learn how to play an instrument you need to learn music theory first. There are steps before the end goal and you are either ignoring those steps or you don’t even know they exist. Which makes it practically impossible for you to get to where you wanna go. If you want to get to the other side of the river, you need to cross the bridge. But you haven’t even found out where the bridge is. So it looks like the first thing you need before even thinking of moving forward is figuring out how to find that bridge. And if you’ve never done that before, it wouldn’t do you harm to ask others who already found the bridge to show you how to do it yourself. But I feel like the biggest things that’s holding you back is both your fear and your conformity. Your fear of reaching higher than you can go and falling and hurting yourself in the process adding to the feeling of conformity you get when you daydream about accomplishing your goal. When you dream about it, it feels almost as good as if you had it already. And maybe that’s where you need to be right know. Who said you have to get out of this state of conformity? I’m coming back to the feeling of tiredness that I felt in the beginning of your reading. Maybe you don’t have the sufficient energy to move towards this goal of yours at this time in your life. Which is more than okay. No one said you have to do anything about this wish of yours right now.
On another note I've got an idea for a more niche tarot pick a pile aimed at creative people (in a wider sense). So im wondering what questions would be interesting to include.
Please reply if you are on a creative path/trying to bring your creations to the world in some ways. You can also comment/reblog with details.
What would you be most interested to know
What are you in the unique position to express creatively to the world?
How to work through your creative block?
How to better connect with your creative fire?
What should you include more in your work?
What could you do to complete your current project?
What is the core of your creative vision?
What theme or vision is currently emerging in your art?
Really interesting, pretty evenly spread out but two are defo more popular so I'm thinking of combining these two into the reading to have a ''creative expression/purpose/fire'' themed reading, and I could do a second reading in the future that's more ''troubleshooting creative blocks/issues/routines'' that could be fun too.
Idk when it'll be out, I'd like to do more 6 piles readings instead of the usual 4 piles, but it takes so much time and energy that means I usually take 1-2 weeks to do a full 6 piles reading properly (if I don't get distracted) with downtime to recover. I'm probably too sensitive but my energy levels have been so fucking low this past year and a half I'd rather do things comfortably.
On another note I've got an idea for a more niche tarot pick a pile aimed at creative people (in a wider sense). So im wondering what questions would be interesting to include.
Please reply if you are on a creative path/trying to bring your creations to the world in some ways. You can also comment/reblog with details.
What would you be most interested to know
What are you in the unique position to express creatively to the world?
How to work through your creative block?
How to better connect with your creative fire?
What should you include more in your work?
What could you do to complete your current project?
What is the core of your creative vision?
What theme or vision is currently emerging in your art?
PAC: Love reading - In what way are you self-sabotaging this relationship and how can you change course?
Today I wanted to do a Pick a Card love reading and focus on the ways you are self-sabotaging a specific romantic relationship, with a second part focusing on how to change course.
The idea is that sometimes we get in our own way and we can't see the pattern. The whole point of this reading is to realize what it is you're doing that is blocking yourself and how to better act in order to improve this relationship.
How does that work?
Take a moment to recollect yourself, breathe, close your eyes if you need to, focus on the moment. Look at the 4 pictures and select the one that draws you in the most. Not the one you think looks cooler but the one that creates that pinching feeling inside of you. The one that makes you feel it has something to say.
It is possible to feel attracted to more than one pile, just as it is possible to only find parts of the reading relevant. Remember that this reading is meant for many people so it won't be perfectly applicable to your situation.
PILE 1
How are you self-sabotaging?
Cards: IV of Pentacles + Dreams + Erotic Bliss + 9 of Pentacles Rx; Strength + Resentments + Loving Yourself + X of Cups Rx; X of Swords + Renewal Rx + Unrequited Love Rx + V of Wands Rx
Your pile has intense erotic feelings, perhaps even dreams, about this person, but reality doesn't match the height and perfection of your desire, in the sense that it exists mostly in your head. It makes you feel diminished and lacking and you retreat within yourself, shielding yourself behind your walls. You may be holding onto your sensual daydreams and enjoying them in private and you may find some bliss that way, but it is also very frustrating. Regardless there is a big sexual blockage here that's stopping you from expressing your desire towards your person, and it seems a big part of it stems from your own relationship with your body and sensuality.
You feel unsatisfied emotionally as well, but I think this stems from the fact that you are lacking in the self-love department. You rely too much on external validation for your sense of self-love and when you don't get that gratification, you feel rejected which leads to resentments. Again there's the imagery of building a wall around you, this time covered in barbels. You don't allow yourself to be vulnerable, keeping bottled up emotions surrounding rejection hidden within.
This is shown in the next message as well. You have this deep rooted fear of being stuck in an unrequited love, of being rejected and humiliated. I have this image in mind of a boat filling up with water and you keep trying to empty it but there's a hole and it keeps filling up at the same rate. There is no renewal (healing of yourself) possible because you're not fixing the hole and it keeps you in misery, in a state of constant struggle. There is also a component of comparing yourself to others and assuming you're not good enough for your person.
How to change course?
Cards: Knight of Swords + Forgive; 2 of Cups + Fear Rx; The Moon + Relieved Rx; Magic
I think part of you reaaaaally wants this relationship with your person but you're not accepting it. You need to understand that you're doing nothing wrong, that it is not shameful, it is normal and natural, beautiful and human even. You may be feeling guilty about this situation because you FEEL you're doing something wrong, and you really need to forgive yourself. Try to focus on the beauty of it instead.
You also need to get over your fear of intimacy. I see the two figures of the two of cups approaching each other mutually. It's a beautiful and sweet card, it's a card of union and happiness, and you know that's what you want, but you're so scared of it that you won't let it happen.
The overall message is to examine your subconscious for biases and shadows, in particular when it comes to fear of intimacy and sexual shame, so that you can relieve that pressure and come forward in love. Perhaps for some of you it stems from a lack of experience, so you might want to educated yourself from trusted sources to help you get a healthier and more balanced picture in your mind. But overall nothing will beat learning yourself, but you got to make way to learn without judgement and shame.
Desire is a beautiful power of nature. It is magical. It is yours. Stop underestimating or undermining it, or thinking it is not yours to have because it's not true. I'm getting that for some of you it might be stemming from religious trauma and shame regarding sex, so you might want to look into that as well in order to heal.
PILE 2
How are you self-sabotaging?
Cards: 6 of Cups Rx + Sorrow Rx; Page of Swords Rx + Fear of Abundance + Change; 8 of Swords Rx + Intuition Rx + Page of Cups Rx + Relieved Rx
The way you are self-sabotaging is, first, by not being able to let go of past pain surrounding love and to cling onto the past. Perhaps you are nostalgic for sweet memories that are long gone, something that felt pure and simple and that you feel you may never find again.
I feel that you somewhat lost your sense of adventure. You overthink about your past loss and make the false logical conclusion that you'll never receive anything good in matters of love, or that no change is possible. You are stuck in a negative, overly defensive intellectual stance which became like some type of reflex you have a hard time detaching from to progress on your journey.
It's similar on the emotional side since you seem to be over protective of your old feelings. Like, the past seemed so great you feel like nothing will ever compare. You can't seem to release and accept that something new and beautiful in a different way may arise. Which means you have a hard time opening yourself to new messages of love. The curiosity is buried under a pile of fear.
On that note, you are not listening to your intuition at all because it is so polluted by your negative spiraling thoughts. You feel disarmed but you don't see that you have everything that you need to break free. To be more precise, you know yourself, you know what you've been through, but you get lost in the maze of your own mind. And if we add the blocked feelings you hold onto, I see that the problem you have is not so much about external things but rather, the way you deal with your thoughts and emotions.
How to change course?
Cards: The Emperor Rx + Nurture Rx; King of Cups Rx + Your are Deserving Rx; The Lovers + Creativity Rx; 3 of Wands Rx + Anxiety + Manic; The Lover (oracle)
Interestingly, you got a lot of swords in the struggle part but none in the advice part, which makes me thing that the first things you need to do is get out of your head a bit.
With the Emperor, there is this idea that you need to become a good ruler to yourself. Right now you are some type of old tyran that keeps talking about the old times without caring for the present. You need to nurture your present needs, be kind and empathetic with yourself and take the action needed for your own good. How would you feel if someone treated you the way you are treating yourself?
With the King of Cups, there is an extra-emphasis on the realm of emotions. I think that part of why you emotionally stay stuck in the past is that you lack self-worth making you feel undeserving of love.
The Lovers popped up but I think it talks about yourself, about how you need to merge the gap within your own heart. It may seem like a convoluted and difficult task that requires skills and experience, but really, you just need to come forward as you are and communicate where you are at. Be true, be metaphorically naked in front of the other and let them see you for who you are.
Lastly, you are being warned about where you're putting your mental energy. It's like as I said, part of you is stuck in the past, but the part of you that focuses on the future is looking at it wrong. You're feeding it with distorted information, and this creates a storm of anxiety and erratic thoughts that keeps on escalating with no end in sight.
Last advice you got the Lover again (oracle deck) with the sentence ''it is safe to surrender to the good feelings''. So to wrap up with what i was writing earlier, rather than follow your fears and regrets, the best course of action is to follow your bliss! Feed your mind and heart with sweet things to create the change you're wishing for.
PILE 3
How are you self-sabotaging?
Cards: Ace of Swords Rx + Unknowing + Shame Rx; Empress Rx + Courage Rx; 8 of Swords Rx + Intrusive Thoughts; Page of Wands Rx + Bottled up + Manic Rx
There are some areas of uncertainty in this relationship that makes you feel confused about the situation. It's taking your power away a bit and makes you feel like you don't know what to think or how to act. But I think some of this has to do with a lack of communication that makes you think that this situation is unexplainable where it could actually be if you stepped out of that stance. I feel like you would feel ashamed to bring some subjects up but it's a faulty reasoning.
You lack the courage to express your needs and boundaries, to speak up about what would make you happy and fulfilled. I think you know clearly what you want and what you need but you're just not defending that and you're letting yourself get treated differently than you would need.
I think it makes you feel powerless, like you have no control of the situation, but you don't see that it's the result of a very deeply ingrained pattern of thinking that you can totally untangle if you put in the work.
Lastly, I think this lack of being able to stand up for your needs is leading to a lot of frustration and bottled up feelings that may result in outbursts of anger or fights that may look a bit erratic from another perspective. You might have a tendency to jump to conclusion when it's not what you need in the moment.
How to change course?
Cards: 10 of Swords + Creativity Rx + Wounded Heart; 4 of Swords Rx + Love; 5 of Cups + Trauma Rx; Page of Cups + Anxiety Rx + Forgive Rx
I think a big message is to air out your worries, talk about them or express them in one way or another so they can get resolved. You might even benefit from therapeutic art making I'm getting. But yeah you've got a lot of pain to process and you need to start working on that if you haven't already, and you might want to reach out for help in order to speed up the process.
Love can and will play a part in your healing journey, but you shouldn't have to hide you you are in order to live this love. Find those who inspire you to blossom in order to grow together and heal each other in an act of reciprocity. You need to learn to be authentic and not hide because you are scared you are going to be judged for something that is not your fault. Pay close attention to how someone makes you feel after you left them. Do you feel at peace or at war? Learn to listen to that feeling and you'll be guided towards what you need.
PILE 4
How are you self-sabotaging?
Cards: The Chariot Rx + Wish Fulfilled + The Protectress Rx; The Empress + Hope + 2 of Pentacles Rx + Energy; Judgement + Shame + 5 of Cups Rx + 8 of Swords
The first message is that you are extremely eager to see your wish fulfilled in exactly the way you want, not allowing things to run their natural course. In that situation, the desire to be in full control is not the way to go about it. It seems that this situation is winding path full of detours, and you try too hard to rectify the trajectory instead of going along the ride. The reason for this is that you're trying to protect yourself because you're scared of the pain inflicted by disappointed love, or love that has no place to go, but you don't see that this over-protective behavior is the very thing that inflicts you pain.
The second message talks about depletion, about an imbalance within yourself that stops you from standing in the full power of the Empress, who embodies grace, abundance and safety. The oracle card ''Hope'' is quite signification here, as it shows a hand crossing fingers to make a wish, illuminated by rays of light. I think that the very thing you're not allowing in your garden is hope. If we link that to the previous message, it's your lack of hope that make you frantically try to do things in a specific way, because you will like if you don't act NOW you will lose everything, because you lack faith that you will get this love in your own time. I don't think this hope is totally dead though otherwise you would have given up, but you don't let it blossom enough, you're stepping all over it in your awkward dance to juggle too many things at once.
The third message talks about your struggle to overcome your own limiting patterns and beliefs. I think you've been through past losses and defeats regarding love and you feel somewhat cursed regarding that area of your life. Like things are never going to get better and you're doomed to be alone forever. You feel really ashamed about this situation, thinking there must be something wrong with you. The card shows a hand floating in the emptiness, with an open eye crying. It's like, you have so much to give but in so much pain that all that flows are tears. You feel isolated and powerless and you direct that towards yourself. You feel like you're unable to see or act and that creates immense tension within yourself because you want to break free, but you're doing it wrong by resisting this transformation that needs to happen within yourself first and foremost.
How to change course?
Cards: Temperance + Reflection + Optimism Rx + Space, time and self; Ace of Swords + Anger Rx + Slow Down + 4 of Swords Rx + The Servant Queen; Yin and Yang; 10 of Wands + Knight of Cups
I think you would benefit from being more patient and let things flow more. Let things progress gradually. There is this idea that you are guided towards what you need and you need to learn to listen to this guidance more. Spend time thinking about what it means to you and develop that, find that inner balance and harmony, that gentle optimism. Things will grow in due time.
You have a tendency to be restless and this is exhausting you. So I see that one big thing you need to do as well is being mindful of your energy levels and take time to rest, cool and slow down. The clarity you need will happen naturally once the clouds have parted and you're in a better headspace. Right now you're just going round and round making dust, let it settle.
You are worthy of love, of receiving beautiful things, you need to understand and believe that. Especially when we saw that the patterns and beliefs that were holding you back where rooted in those past losses, you really need to heal that, not just for this love connection, but for your own well-being.
Really there's a strong overarching message that you need to trust your guidance more, to switch from an erratically active mindset to a more receptive and flowy one. The goal is to balance both energies, not to be one or the other exclusively.
Once you unburdened yourself, you'll be able to express and let your feelings flow without restrain. I think that's the goal for you and what you're not able to do at the moment. But I was shown what comes before that because you can't run into this with the mindset you currently have. You really need to shift it before you can embody the Knight of Cups.
PAC: You vs Them Love Connection Check-in❣️- 4 Piles Tarot Reading
💞 You, Them, the Dynamic and advice for you 💞
Here is a romantic love themed pick a pile tarot reading focused on checking in on the relationship between you and the person on your mind. There a four parts: first and second part focus on the Current Energy/Thoughts/Feelings and Intentions of You and Them, part three focuses on the connecting dynamic between the two of you, and part four is some advice for you in this situation. It is possible that You and Them is flipped!
-> Focus on the person you have in mind, then select the picture that draws you in the most.
DISCLAIMER
Remember that this is a general reading meant for many different people and situations and it's possible not everything or even nothing at all fits. If something doesn't resonates or triggers you you are free to let it go. Don't ruin your sleep over a tumblr post and as always nothing is set in stone and you are free to do and think whatever you want in this world.
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PILE 1 🔥
YOU
[Current Energy] For your current energy regarding the connection, you seem to be focused on making bold movements and bring changes to the situation. Perhaps there are things you realized about yourself and/or the connection, or you reached a point where the current state of things doesn't satisfy you anymore and you have this urgency to shake things up. There is also a sense of this connection activating the part of you that seeks the sweetness/the thrill of love and flirtation and this is pulling you towards your person quite hard. The issue with this is that you may not have any solid plan or even the mental and emotional ability to bring stability to the situation, like coming boldly towards your person without being able to bring commitment in the long run. Could be a bit immature and wearing rose-colored glass regarding the situation.
[Feelings] Your feelings are young and full of passion. You look up to your person with excitement and a burning desire to explore them inside and out. There is an aspect of wanting to appear confident, beautiful and strong even if it doesn't match what is inside. Seducing feels incredible with your person and you're enjoying those moments a lot because of the stimulation and excitement it provides on every level. Basically I don't think you know enough about your person to really have a rooted sense of love and appreciation, but the spark is there and very strong.
[Thoughts] Your thoughts are somewhat a bit more tainted by worry as there seem to be something you know has to be left behind in order to move towards this connection and you are reflecting on this intensely. This connection requires deep change, to put an end to something and for some of you that might be a chapter of your life, a part or a version of yourself or even another connection. At the moment I don't think this change has been implemented yet, it seems still in the phase of being thought about as a necessity, a question that is being thought of.
[Intentions] This kinda reflects on the feelings like you want to match this person ''status'' in the sense that you put them on a pedestal and you want to appear like you can match them (I'm not saying you aren't able to, but you defo feel like you aren't). Like fake it till you make it kind of thing. You want to appear confident, optimistic, fun to be around and in tune with yourself. But there is an aspect of you that is watching, judging and holding off slightly, like you are ready to put some distance if things don't go as you want them to go. It doesn't read as malevolent but slightly guarded and calculating.
THEM
[Current Energy] They are in a state of non action, and if there is communication it's very surface level and they aren't investing or unveiling much. It seems they are currently observing the connection in a new angle. Perhaps they came to a new realization about you or perhaps they learned something that made them think differently, so it's like they are flipping things in their head and trying to see things differently. So while that is happening and until they find a resolution to their questions, they hold off and observe you. Basically they are looking for truth regarding what is happening and what this connection is and there is a strong need to get to the bottom of it and not push things one way or another until it's figured out. Strong wait and see what you're gonna do to draw some conclusion about you.
[Feelings] There is a feeling of frustration and dissatisfaction about the state of the connection and this is emerging on top of their feelings. Right now it's like they are worn out and lacking trust in where all of this is going. I get the feeling that it wasn't always like this but recent changes made it this way. They feel reluctant to commit and invest further but again it's paired with the feeling of someone who is observing and holding off while waiting for progress on your side of things. So the feelings they have are quite, not exactly detached, I'd say more like wounded and feeling they might be in need of a way out, but also very contemplative. It seems quite hopeless and heavy, like someone thinking they don't have a choice in the matter but have to make it through without you.
[Thoughts] RIght now their thoughts are on channeling their energy into anything that brings them a sense of movement, like work, hobbies or personal endeavors. They refuse to stay stagnant and are trying to stay strong by staying busy. There is also an element that they don't want things to stay like they are with you forever, they want movement and they want change even if that means putting an end to the connection once and for all. Very determined and very individualistic in the sense that they are focusing on themselves and their needs, and what the future might bring if they put in the work.
[Intentions] Their intentions are to stay in control of their energy/emotions/thoughts while again the idea of contemplating their options is present. However it doesn't read as having any real options, it's more a fantasy about what the future could bring at this point, and they get kinda lost in their head with all the possibilities. It seems they don't want to close the door with you but they also certainly do not want to loose themselves in the process. It can appear as being a bit tricky in the sense that they are keeping their intentions to themselves so as not to reveal their next move and having the freedom and ability to do whatever they need to do in the moment. I'm also getting someone who tries to stay calm even though they kinda want to lash out and express their view of the situation. Makes sense they want to hold off (current energy) as it seems they are a bit lost in the sauce and pulled in different directions in their minds.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] It seems neither of you is getting what they want, there is a sense that a lot of needs are being unmet and feeling of intense lack. Like things could be so different but they aren't and there is pain here and feeling like something is broken or not working. There is also a dynamic of holding off actions and let it up to the other person but both of you are doing that and nothing is happening due to mutual sheer apathy. Things could be different, could have been different and it's like you both think that yet none is making a move at the moment (not saying this won't happen, this is just the state of things). Also waiting for life or something to happen that brings you together not seeing what could be done if you wanted to.
ADVICE FOR YOU
If you want things to move further with your connection, you need to bring a sense of stability and dedication to the dynamic. Yes showing up is great but love bombing and disappearing after isn't gonna make your connection trust you. You want a new chapter so you have to act like it and act in a different way than you did before. Have faith in yourself and your vision but back your feelings, thoughts and actions with stable commitment. Stability isn't made in one day but built times after times of effort and care. Slow and steady wins the race. Give and give from your heart with the sweetness of someone who is not afraid of being seen and felt. They look up to you just as much as you look up to them.
PILE 2 🫧
YOU
[Current Energy] You're currently seemingly quite frustrated at the situation with your person, choosing to hold your position and avoiding making any kind of move. Stagnation mixed with anxious waiting, hoping the person is going to reach out, make a move, clarify things and bring you what you are hoping for which is to things moving off ground. There is a fear of reaching out and facing rejection or silence, and a worry about the other's intentions and thoughts regarding you. Beneath all of this there is a real desire to move forward in the connection, but feeling like you can't or shouldn't at the present time because of the other person's actions or lack of it.
[Feelings] You are deeply reflecting on what this connection means for you and coming to the conclusion that this person is someone really special that has the potential to heal you and fulfill all your romantic needs, if things were corrected. There is a desire to passionately and adventurously go toward your person but you feel somewhat lower than them, less experienced and less confident. You put them on a pedestal a bit, and I mean it's not like you don't see their flaws but more like you shut them down and don't see them as important or relevant. You feel like this connection is worth hoping and waiting for and do not want to give up on it.
[Thoughts] Big over thinker vibes, there's probably hasn't been a single thing you haven't mulled over about this connection lmao You wonder whether you should move on but refusing to do so. Also you don't feel secure in your power to seduce and please your person, wondering if there's something wrong with you or the way you appear to them. wondering if they don't like you enough to move toward you and if that's the issue. Also you're wondering whether you should try to open your heart, be direct, vulnerable, and bold, and see where it goes or if you should just cut your losses and move on. Very worried energy,
[Intentions] For your intentions, it seems you want to remain in control of your feelings, your boundaries and your thoughts, to appear calm, collected, rational and in control. Right now it seems you intend on doing nothing and stay with you are. There is also an awareness of the cycles you are trapped in when it comes to relationships and wanting to break free from them as you don't want to put up with anyone's bullshit anymore. Perhaps also leaving the fate of this connection up for the universe and disengaging from it.
THEM
[Current Energy] Your person seems conflicted and is currently choosing silence and retreat to sort their thoughts. There is like a temptation to go towards you, but it registers as something that would feel dishonest or tricky, indicating a third party situation that you may or may not be aware of. They also see you as out of reach and higher than them from a status point of view. They might think you are closed off or that what they would bring wouldn't satisfy you, and they would rather avoid the whole thing than risking rejection or failure. They also seem to try to convince themselves that what they feel is not worth it in the sense that it is not that serious and not worth pursuing and as a result they cage in their heart even more. There is also something they feel guilty about and they are aware of the wrong they did, but for some reason they don't want to make it right (could be about you or the third party).
[Feelings] They worry they are not able to provide right for you, to be stable and committed and they are in contemplative mode about that, turning ideas about the future in their heads. They seem overwhelmed at the moment, struggling to juggle between their feelings who run deep, their ego who tells them to act a specific way that could be qualified as stubborn, and their life priorities such as work. It's like they feel like they don't have the time/emotional resources to take proper care of you so they feel like it's better not to act. There is also a massive blockage with changing the way they approach their feelings and emotional stability, which they are kinda refusing to learn to do at the moment preferring escapism in what they are used to rather that embracing the change.
[Thoughts] When it comes to what they are thinking, they are suppressing their feelings hard because they feel too much, overwhelming, impossible to control. They are wondering about the choice of choosing you which would lead to change the way their foundations are laid out and completely restructure their lives which they think would lead to pain. Again it's not that they don't feel enough but they don't feel like they can rise up to the task but they also have thoughts about chasing you that feel too much and too excessive for them and they don't want to act on them.
[Intentions] It shows in their intention as well as they want to move forward with you and see where things can go and are open at the thought of having something with you, but at the same time they are not ready to let go of old crumbling structures, not ready to make changes, not ready to take risks and terrified of what it could mean. Feels like wanting to avoid the inevitable. So like they want a new beginning but without making the needed changes. They also want to keep their relationship with you on the low/as a secret.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] The current dynamic is at a standstill. Nothing is happening and both parties are focused on themselves. It's like there are too many things to worry about or to care about, too many energies getting into the mix, both from private lives or from other people's opinions and energies, and it's getting in the way. There is also a need to clear the air and level things, for example having a direct conversation that is honest and where both parties can express their point of view, but it's currently blocked because none want to see the other's perspective. But bellow all of that there seem to be a deep bond that feels emotional and spiritual that is hard to ignore and that maintain the bond between both parties. Both parties see the other positively and see the connection as genuine, soft and somewhat sacred.
ADVICE FOR YOU
There is a need for you to be more playful and childlike in your approach and not so determined to get to a quick win to fix your anxieties and the pressure you feel. Don't feel the need to prove anything, stay authentic to yourself and have fun as things unfold naturally. Trust your own vision, trust what you want and don't base your decisions on whatever people are telling you or based on what you think you should do vs what you actually want to do. Also, there may be another opportunity on the horizon for you and a choice will be needed between your person and the future one. In all cases it will be your calling to decide what it is you want to do when presented with this or these opportunities and decide what action is needed for you to give you the stability, commitment and happiness you crave for, opening a new chapter in your life. Again I get a feeling of choosing between two suitors and looking at it through the lens of what will bring the most fulfillment in the long run.
PILE 3🌹
YOU
[Current Energy] It seems you are just coming out of a situation that weighted heavy on you, either another connection, a life situation or simply something that happened in the connection you are inquiring about. You feel defeated and quite low, ruminating to the point where it becomes a bit disproportionate to the situation, a bit too exaggerated, overthinking in a negative spiral.
[Feelings] Your feelings for your person are fresh and budding, so it seems likely this is a new connection or someone you don't yet have a deep bond with. There is a desire to cherish and explore those feelings but also feeling carefully hopeful, because what I also see deep down is a very romantic push, with a sense that this person represents something beautiful and pure for you. Like you see the potential in this person, it's like a sense of truth within you you can't ignore, like your mind skips forward to dream about what could be.
[Thoughts] It seems you want to move the connection forward. Things are a bit too quiet or not matching your desires and expectations at the moment and you want things to change. There is a desire for communication with your person to get out of the stagnancy of the current state of things. I don't get a rushed feeling from that but rather your thought are centered around how to move things further in a stable way.
[Intentions] You intend to build something strong with your person, really putting in the work toward something stable and long lasting. There is the sense that the road to get there will take time and effort and you are at the beginning of the journey, but you are motivated to get there with patience and work.
THEM
[Current Energy] It seems this person recently encountered a loss of some kind, perhaps literally loosing someone or perhaps they experienced a breakup. Right now it seems they view the idea of moving on or moving towards you as something akin to cheating. I don't know if it means they would be cheating by being with you or if it's only a guilty feeling not attached to reality that they have, but there is a strong sense of guilt, regrets and wondering if thinking they are doing something wrong here.
[Feelings] They are deeply observing and mulling over their feelings right now. I can tell they definitely feel something for you, something intense enough to stop them in their track and ask them to think before acting. There is also the idea that a choice needs to be made about those feelings and they are not in the position to make it currently so they hold off and try to find the truth in their heart to know what should be done moving forward.
[Thoughts] They are trying to keep their thoughts contained and undercontrol. There is a feeling that right now things are shaky and they don't seem to be facing their problems but rather to keep things under the lid, is what I'm getting. Like let's keep things as they are and not change a thing for now. There is a sense of rigidity, like they have their own view of the situation and are kinda unable or unwilling to see things differently. An inability to take a step back to look at things with more distance. They don't want to be wrong, like they can't afford to be wrong.
[Intentions] It seems their ultimate goal is to come out on top of this situation, that no matter what choice they make they want to have no regret and be proud of what they did. They know this is an important moment, an important decision that needs to be made and they are trying to find their truth, a path towards long term happiness and fulfillment. It really contrast with the trickery feelings of the current energies and shows that they really want to make things right and not end up being the villain of the situation.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] There seems to be a push and pull between wanting a fresh start full of laughter and innocence, and a feeling that things are stuck between the two of you. There is a mutual fear that if the wrong step is taken it could mean making things more complicated than they already are. Both of you seem to know that there is a need to communicate better, explain your personal point of view and boundaries, which both feels necessary and exciting, and, at the same time, potentially tricky and scary. All in all the connection is unstable at the moment, mostly due to them being in the midst of a difficult choice regarding the connection and you being put in a position where you don't really know where you stand or what to do.
ADVICE FOR YOU
There seems to be a need to rely more on your logic and mind rather than your heart at this moment, while also needing to let the dust settle and time do it's thing. I'm getting that you should be mindful about wanting things to go a certain pace and a certain way because you are 5 steps ahead in your heart. Rushing for answer might not be the best course of action right now, as would be seeking direct confrontation. If talking happens it needs to remain light and optimistic and not push anyone further in their own corner. That also means staying true to yourself, your own sense of confidence and happiness and not abandoning yourself or letting yourself sink. But mostly I think you should avoid pushing things too much and allow things to move at their own pace even if it is slow. There probably are things in this situation that you do not know or that you do not see, either because you haven't thought about them in this angle, or because some information are not known to you, so there is a need to think about the situation more and differently which will help you gain a sense of clarity, which might mean waiting for new info to be known. Right now you don't have the right view of the situation to take the right action so it is advised to stay put. Things may be quite different once you look at them differently.
PILE 4 🦢
YOU
[Current Energy] This seems to be a case where the connection is already well established and you are about to take a next important step in commitment. Could be about making things official with your person, moving in together or even getting married or having a child. This is not for new connections, there is a history between you and them and you definitely know you love each other. Anyway, your current energy is one of harmonious partnership with your person, you feel good in this relationship and you are very motivated and driven about taking things further with them. The future looks bright and you are really confident.
[Feelings] It's super sweet because I'm getting that your feelings are stable and secure, but the spark of the beginnings is still there, still alive and vibrant. You feel fulfilled with them in your life and the emotions flow freely while also being grounded.
[Thoughts] Your thoughts are about caring for your person and the relationship, overcoming obstacles in a gentle but firm way. You are aware that not everything is always easy but you look at the difficulties with the confidence and trust of someone who knows they can overcome them. Again I'm getting that there is a history between you and your person, you've been through highs and lows and it made your relationship stronger.
[Intentions] You intend on renewing your commitment, offering your undying love and respect for your person, walking towards the future with them. Might not be the case for everyone but there is a strong idea of marriage/partnership tied to a ceremony of some kind, which seems to be something you've wished for a long time that is finally becoming real. Strong new chapter energy that is the continuation of the last. In all cases the idea of showing your love in the physical world, materializing in some tangible way.
THEM
[Current Energy] Your person seems to be a bit less glowy than you so they may just be out of a difficult phase of their lives, or they might be a bit nervous about the future. I'm not getting anything necessarily negative, just that there is a sense that they are leaving a way of living behind and moving towards something new in tangible ways and this is a bit scary. But they definitely see this change as positive, and are dedicated to have things happen smoothly and in a way that is well planned and prepared. Their energy is future-oriented at the moment and as often this can trigger nerves when one thinks of all possible outcomes without knowing which one it will be.
[Feelings] You are someone they hold deep feelings for. They chose and committed to you and they feel ready for this new chapter with you. This moment in time seems to ''crown'' an important life phase for them, the culmination of something very important. They feel like they found their match and their forever-person.
[Thoughts] Their thoughts is where things get a bit tricky, I'm getting some type of decision paralysis like they know they need to do something but they feel currently unable to do it. There is a worry that things could not turn out well for them, which seems to not be grounded in reality but in their own fear. Again might not apply to everyone but maybe this person is thinking of proposing to you and they are freaking out about that and getting stuck when having to actually do it. Or could apply to any situation where something tangible needs to be done but the person that needs to do it is getting stuck on a mental level due to a lack of optimism and confidence.
[Intentions] This is reflected in their intentions as there is a strong sense of nervousness/anxiety that they are aware of. They want to get out of that mindset and again, ''crown'' the relationship in whatever way applies to your situation, it just seems to be such a big and important thing for them that they are terrified they are going to ruin everything. They are definitely working through internal blockages, fears and illusions and overly focusing on what could go wrong.
THE CONNECTION'S DYNAMIC
[Current Energy] The dynamic between the two of you is stable and deeply loving. Again it's pointing at a time where things are about to get more committed in one way or another, with the added idea of making it known and celebrated with the world at large and loved ones. Things flow well between the two of you and there is a sense that you found the perfect match for each other and are happy and at home with each other.
ADVICE FOR YOU
The advice for you is to not do anything lmao It seems that the ball is in your paterner's camp so to speak, and it's on them to make the next move. Do not rush them and do not push your ideas, desires and wishes on them. Let them do their things and observe the situation. I'm getting that you have a strong desire about something you want to happen in a specific way, but you might be sooo focused on it that it distorts your perception of reality a tad. So there is a need to look at things with a clear head and to see things in a different angle. I'm getting maybe chill a bit with the enthusiasm and just let things develop in their own timing. Nothing in the reading speaks about big issues so just let yourself enjoy the ride and see things for what they currently are, not what you wish they could/would be. It seems the time is not exactly right so best to take care of the relationship as it currently is and not push your own timing onto your person.
I switched phones and for some reason I'm unable to connect to my account on the app, it just won't sent me a confirmation code even though I know my password...
So i'm stuck using tumblr on desktop for now which means I'm not as present as I used to.
Next Pick a Pile will be a Love Connection Check-in type of thing as I'm kinda in the midst of those questions.
Tarot is not meant to be used when someone is in a suicidal or extremely sensitive mental state.
If I say anything, and you are already that vulnerable, your mind can take one line, one word, one prediction very deeply and act on it. That is a very serious and sensitive matter.
You have to understand the degree of it.
In that state, any step you take shouldn’t be influenced by a tarot reading. You need real support, real people, and real care around you not predictions.
When such questions come to me, it puts me in a very uncomfortable position because I know tarot is not the right tool for that moment.
It is for guidance, clarity, and reflection not for life-and-death emotional situations.
Please respect this boundary and also protect yourself.
Some phases need professional help, safe spaces, and human support, not cards.
One of the biggest misunderstandings about tarot is the idea that it should always give a direct answer:
-Yes or no.
-Stay or leave.
-This person or that one.
But tarot doesn’t work like a switch, it works like a mirror.
Cards like The Lovers, The Moon, or The Two of Pentacles don’t speak in absolutes, they reflect inner conflict, emotional complexity, and moments where clarity comes from awareness, not certainty. When tarot feels unclear, it’s often because the situation itself is asking you to slow down and notice:
-what you’re choosing emotionally
-what you’re avoiding
-what feels aligned versus what feels convenient
Tarot is most powerful when it helps you understand why you’re torn not when it tells you what to do.
Clarity isn’t always a straight answer...sometimes, it’s a deeper question🔮
This is the kind of insight I offer in personal tarot readings link in bio.
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thank you SO much ! I just finished reading it and it describes my situation very accurately; I am astonished at how candid and thoughtful this reading has been for me. a lot of the advice were picked up on intuitively from me for the past few months but the constant overthinking often implanted self-doubt, hence, I ignored my intuition. I also reflected on who I used to be as a young girl, and yes, I do agree that I used to be more softer and emotional compared to the person I am now: a reliant and duty-bounded woman… to my own detriment. I recently had to step away from a role that I once thought was for me, only to find out that I was focusing too much on that problem solving side of myself. I felt I was meant to explore my inner character more, which is why I decided to demote myself and focus on things from an introspective nature. right now, I feel I’ve put myself in a situation where I feel quite lost and hopeless. I try to power through the burdening obstacles but I sense I’m trudging into murkier waters than before 🥲 the advice on how to handle all lf
of this should prove to be successful. it wouldn’t hurt to try, no? anyways, thank you from the bottom of my heart 💗 you’re one of my absolute faves :) I deeply appreciate you xox
