I know in general I've come a long away with my self image (not just physically) and how others perceive me, but some moments like right now make me feel like I've had zero progress. I just always have a continuing struggle of feeling like others actually care about me or like I matter to people. I love my family and my friends and I know that should be more than enough but sometimes my brain tells me that the rest of the world just doesn't care about me at all.
There's a lot of changes coming next year for me since I'll be graduating. I'm scared and excited and anxious about it all. But I do worry I'm not good enough and of course this translates into everything in my life. I never feel adequate or I feel like something is wrong with me that I can't explain. I just always feel like this broken thing trying her best to get through life. And I know I've come so far and I know I shouldn't doubt myself, but it's so hard not to sometimes. I've gone through so much change the last couple years and I guess I still am. I know I'm a good person still and I know where I wanna be in life, I just hope I can get there.
