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I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE I WANNA DIE FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Suicidal people keep asking me like what’s the point of anything and like dawg idk what to tell you I am the wrong guy to be asking

Fuck I don’t want to eat anything I just want to waste away and fucking die goddamn

It’s overwhelming me

#grief #my wife died

13: Mister Always Wants to be Haunted

I wish that you’d haunt me

I wish that you’d see me and all my tears

I wish that you’d taunt me

It least then I’d know that you were still here

I wish it was you and not your memory

That was keeping me up at night

I wish that you’d haunt me

I wish that you’d try to give me a fright

I’d let you knock my drinks over

And spill everything on the floor

I’d be more sober

If I knew you were slamming the door

Wouldn’t be lonely as i am

Without you

I cry til my eyes become sore

Oh lord

Living’s a chore

So why don’t you haunt me?

I thought that you’d miss me

I said I thought that you’d miss me too

I know youd be pissed if

I died and decided not to haunt you

I wish you could kiss me

I wish that you’d come and mess up the bed

I know it’s no mystery

It’s sad that you’re only inside my head

But I can’t help but yell for ya

And wish that your soul was around

It’s proof that I’ll still adore ya

As long as I’m here on the ground

Stay here as long as I can

But man,

These travesties seem to abound

And how

So won’t you please haunt me?

Please, Bean, won’t you haunt me?

I need you to haunt me

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

12: Blondes & Blues, Directed by James Cameron

I spent too much time

Not being loved by you

And now that I’ve had that

It’ll be hard to go back

I’ll have to spend my whole life

Struggling to make it though

Picked up my old habits

But I swear to quit for you

Ink tied to the skin

You felt exhilaration

Making art on your arms

Your back and your chest

Reflecting the art within

No one knew you like I did

And like I, you requited

Without you around there’s a lack of big sounds

And our house is so quiet

The dogs fucking miss you

Your cats really miss you

Your sister’s a mystery

But I know that she does too

Someone told me you’re gone

Separated from God

But if God doesn’t want you

Then that doesn’t sound like the kind of God that I want

I know I’m not on TV

If so it’d be canceled in a week

Everywhere I fucking eat

I order food for you

It’s true

Watched you turn blue

Realized it’s true

Stroked your hair and had to turn and leave you

Blonde and blue

I’m trying so hard not to fuck this up

I’m trying so hard

But if I do

I’ll see you soon

Blonde and blue

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

11: Canticles

I have eyes only for you

I never expected to

Look towards the sky to see

If you were looking down to me

I have love only for you

The kind of love we know is true

If anyone says otherwise

I’ll knock them right between the eyes

I exist only for you

There’s nothing else i want to do

Than wake up and spend one more day

With you and just drink in your grace

I’m lost if I do not have you

The hole in my heart is a wound

Your skin was here but I’ve not seen

A day where I don’t miss my bean

I know one day I will see you

And make my heart whole, make me new

You’re the love I truly need

I miss you so, so desperately

I have eyes only for you

And I have love only for you

I exist only for you

I’m lost if I do not have you

I know one day I will see you

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

10: Months

And then July grew distant

All the days keep passing by

And months have gone before my eyes

And every morning I wake up at

sunrise

I wish I could tear out my insides

Pain tolerance is high

But I know I could feel it if

I started trying to die

So long to July

Now I’m starting to cry

I need something medical

A scalpel, surgical

Dig in my brain, hone in on the pain

Remove all the chemicals

I just can’t recall

Being so cynical

Alone in our house, I sit on the couch

I’m singing your canticles

I can’t move on with anything

For months where everyday it rains

I can’t move on with anything

My cylinder’s less than half full

You were like ink spilled on white paper

My life was gray and you were my savior

You were like paint poured over canvas

I thought my heart could be made to withstand this

You were bright color, radiant and shining

I know our true love was a victim of timing

I had a beat, saw you and my heart skipped it

Cuz God had a paintbrush, had to make some art with it

I can’t move on with anything

(Remove all the chemicals)

I can’t move on with anything

(I’m singing your canticles)

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

9: Distraction

I’ve got a lot on my plate

Too much to take

In all at once

But there’s just something about you

You never ask me to cover up

We both know I love her

We both know I miss her

and we know

Nothing could ever replace her

How could anyone replace her?

But I’m alone in my place here

So would you please bring your face here?

We need a little distraction

If you’re down for it

Could be what makes us feel better

Yeah it sounds like it

Would make up for what we lack in

And learn from it

Could be what makes us feel better

And we yearn for it

I never know just what to say

(Hey)

I only got myself to blame

(Okay)

Jesus Christ took my wife away

(Lame)

Don’t want to waste my life away

(Oh, okay)

I never know just what to say

(Bonjour)

With you my brain just melts away

(Hell yeah)

Better than what my doctor gave

(Okay)

Don’t want to waste my life away

(Hey)

I never know just what to say

(Howdy!)

You keep me up like crazy late

(That’s fine)

Not like I’m sleeping anyway

(Not that much)

Don’t want to waste my life away

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album #this one is about someone else actually

8: Home

At 8:31 you texted back “yes”

At 8:45 you were basically gone

You’ve been gone already so long

First days, then weeks, then a month

But today I got you home

Today’s the day you came back through the door

Today you came home

I hope you know how badly I needed you back

I don’t know if you know

But I still talk to you every day

At 8:58 I walked through the door

At 9:02 they took you away

At 11 I learned that you’re not coming back

That day or any other day

But you came back home today

I hope you know

But I don’t know

If you know

I needed you home

I’m still keeping it cold

Your blankets that kept you warm

I decided to fold

You went out so sudden

It’s keeping me cold

I needed you home

Keeping your vestments

Close to my chest and

Tell everyone who asks

That you were the best

Life without love

Is a rigorous test

Since I lost you my heart

Is under arrest

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album #I don’t know if I’m done with this one

7: Marlboro Midnights

Fuck me, I’m up too late again

I can’t get tired when I’m not around my friends

Let me give it to you straight:

I’m pretty fucked up

Broke my good streak

And broke up with my good luck

It’s been a long week

It’ll be a few more soon

It’s getting pretty hard

Being inside without you

I’ll sit outside and smoke another

Real disappointment, stupid mother

Fucker can’t keep my shit together

And I don’t give a fuck about the weather

Get rained on, hailed on, stormed and steamed out

Used to call you my bean, it’s mean how

God would take you and leave me on my porch

Alone

All alone

And if you could see me

I know that you’d be

bummed the fuck out

Because I promised you

That I wouldn’t smoke anything now

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

6: Days

And then it was tomorrow

You were put in a cold room

I woke up in a cold house

You weren’t there

My days are wet and dreary

And yours are all used up

Summer in the south

And you’re not here

Take it one day at a time

Everyone says

Take it one day at a time

But the days are all

The same day at one time

I can’t escape it and I

I wish you were still around

My friends all show up

Every day it seems

I can’t be alone at all

And I don’t need to be

I don’t need to be

All cooped up on my porch

But every day it seems

I can’t stop feeling so alone

You’re not with me

I’m so lonely

Take it one day at a time

Everyone says

Take it one day at a time

But the days are all

The same day at one time

I can’t escape it and I

I wish you were still around

Day by day

Stuck in this

God damn space

You felt trapped in

And I just stay

Inside and wish that I

Could be with you again

For just one more day

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

5: Pajamas

I wear your pajamas, we had the same ass

We used to make fun of each other and laugh

Now that you’re gone, I’m the one who’s caked up

It sucks that you died cuz we didn’t break up

I put on your jewelry, fiddle with the beads

Found all of your boxes, your little old things

I lay all alone wishing you were still here

It sucks cuz when I was gone, you disappeared

There’s no words to use to explain this damn feeling

I lay in our bed and I stare at the ceiling

I turn off your lights so I can save a buck

I live in the dark and it’s lonely as fuck

So when I’m gone

I’ll say so long

I won’t go like you did

Everyone will know

I meant to go

Some might say that I’m stupid

But I can’t stand to feel

Like I’ll leave things unsaid

So when I’m dead

I rest my head

I wake up next to you

God says “why don’t you two

go get a room”

And if I’m let loose

I attempt everything that my soul could do

Cuz I’d fight off Saint Peter to let me through

I won’t be kept away from you

Our love is true

I wear your pajamas every single night

Stare at the ceiling and turn off the lights

I know you don’t want it, so I’ll wait a while

But it’s getting harder not seeing your smile

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

And also it feels like I’m the only one who’s still stuck in it. Everyone else has moved on, it doesn’t affect them every day, but it affects me constantly.

#grief #my wife died

I guess I just didn’t think it was possible for a human being to hurt this much for this long

#grief #my wife died

4: Go Ohio Tigers

I fell down one day when I was in my early 20s

And if you were there you probably would have stopped me

Now my arm is down an inch or two and I look funny

But that’s fine because that’s my identity

I know I’m not on TV

But mostly you don’t see how I see

Cuz the only one I’m playing to is you

I’ll find a camera to stare into

Because I spent too much time

Not being loved by you

And now that I have that

I don’t wanna go back

Yeah I could spend all my life

Just trying to make it through

But I quit that habit

And I’d rather follow you

I know we’re not on TV

But in my brain everything is a romantic comedy

You’re the ideal lead

I’m the comic relief

Because I spent too much time

Not being loved by you

And now that I have that

I don’t wanna go back

Yeah I could spend all my life

Just trying to make it through

But I quit that habit

And I’d rather follow you

I’m breaking my habits

I’m too busy loving you

#grief #my wife died #i wrote an album

I am being punished by God for loving someone too much

#grief #my wife died

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