I hate to say it and I hate to know it but if you crave intimacy and deep relation you truly have to muster the courage to go first.
I realize that if I no longer want to be apart of a push/pull dynamic then I have to stop pulling away whenever I am nervous about the fact that you are free to not love me. I'm looking deeper into the ideas I have about my worthiness and also into the ideas I have about what someone "would obviously behave like" if they care about me. If I know that I can care about you and behave in a way that is not conducive to you (out of my own fear) then of course I should understand that this might go both ways. We are all more complex than we give each other grace & credit for. In the end I should thank you for being who you are. And not anger w you or victimize myself. It's through you I've seen where I'm lacking, where I need to change if I want to give anyone on this earth the chance to experience a secure, safe, solid love w me. Which I do. Greatly
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