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۞ Late Twenties ᛜ fucked up kinks and silliness ᛜ polyamorous and owned ♡♡ ۞

[meadowclamflower]

depression is fun because sometimes it will come and you'll feel depressed and other times it's suddenly you need to sleep 12 hours a day and nothing is fun and talking is hard and you feel an everlasting darkness festering within you for no specific reason at all and when someone asks you are like "idk just been tired" and then 5 days later after you've been starring at the wall in your totally dark room for 2 hours you are suddenly realising "wow these are alot of things that coincidentally are also depression symptoms. I wonder what is up with that.. well non of my business"

about your own brain.

that you literally live in.

[meadowclamflower]

You don't understand! I have my last exam tomorrow and am in the midst of a depressive episode. If I don't watch my boys betray and destroy themself for nothing I will die. #myboys

[meadowclamflower]

there really is nothing like the mental whiplash between the greed island arc and the chimera ant arc in hunter x hunter

it's like ":) aww they are having fun mutilating themself for a silly game" to "live war footage. here is the back story of mr evil no good man who never had a good day in his life until he realised his abusive alcoholic father didn't love him so he killed him with a hammer. Here is existential human angst and the question what makes us human and also the kids are mutilating themself again but now in a suicidal way that will get them killed and destroy the only thing that was saving them over and over again (their love for each other)"

[meadowclamflower]

if i could be with master right now I'd do the pet thing of just laying down on top of him and then by pet laws he wouldn't be allowed to move or stand up and i'd cuddle him and we could talk for hours and while he tells me a story I take his hand and suck on his fingers and he can pet me with his other hand and I'm half asleep and he is there and then i talk and he can explore my body with his hands and everything is quiet and nice!! <- girl who is in her third night of sleeping like shit and going through it

[meadowclamflower]

what i really really love is casual sexual acts that are not there to lead to actual sex in the narrow sense.

i love just relaxing and making out or touching the other, making them feel aroused just because thats a nice feeling. no need to actually get off. just get lost in feeling warm and soft and nice because of your partner.

The need for them filling you up until it's as strong as your need for air and every touch of them feels a little holy and still no end in sight.

[meadowclamflower]

Terrible urge to be my owners service dog, so i can be with them whenever and when I suck his cock at work he can be like "don't interrupt her! she is working right now!!"

[meadowclamflower]

my brain for the whole day, in an intensity that makes it impossible to speak or think clearly: aaaaaaaaaahhhh everything is terrible and sad and bad and scary

me after i kick my own butt and force myself to talk to daddy and master about it: oh actually things will work out one way or the other and no matter what I'll have them so it's okay

[meadowclamflower]

how strong of a pet i want to be for master and daddy!

[meadowclamflower]

my brain for the whole day, in an intensity that makes it impossible to speak or think clearly: aaaaaaaaaahhhh everything is terrible and sad and bad and scary

me after i kick my own butt and force myself to talk to daddy and master about it: oh actually things will work out one way or the other and no matter what I'll have them so it's okay

[meadowclamflower]

slave to master. but also slave to my body that is all comfy in bed and thinking about the loveliest cuddle session ever. feeling full of love and adoration and.. oh no.. oh no no no no no no... here it comes...

the arousal

[meadowclamflower]

don't even have thoughts. everything in my brain is just the "do it for her" simpsons meme but it's all for master and it's different pictures of him and also his voice playing in my brain endlessly.

[meadowclamflower]

no! don't stop torturing me! I have separation anxiety. :c

[meadowclamflower]

Classmates asking me why I don't like learning at home and me having to come up with a silly excuse when the truth is that without the shackles of social conformity nothing is there to safe me from seeing master hold a knife and arousal so vivid spreading through me that i can't help but start touching myself. Less than a minute and I am reduced to a whining panting mess.

[meadowclamflower]

What my kink boils down to is that I want to make my partner so happy that they need to destroy me in an elaborate way that makes both of us cum in the process.

Like I want to make them happy and as the feeling bubbles up in them they look at me and the urge to hurt me until i cry is so strong it takes their breath away. Fully knowing how much I want it and how happy it makes me when they hurt me.

Them not hurting me out of anger but because they want it, because it makes them hard and arouses them to see me squirm and struggle and cry.

It's about giving my body to them, about feeling so safe with each other that i can let them hurt me without fear. Of course pain hurts but if it's between us and for them it's special and hot. The way it overrides everything in your brain and lays you bare in a way, there is no space to not be honest when in so much pain. And being reduced to the simplest truth and that being how much i want and adore my partner and them being happy to find that is so special to me.

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[cruelfag]

men’s tummies…. biting them.. leaving marks and bruises… kissing over and over and over and….

[akatako]

BOWL OF RICE with FRESH SALMON ROE concept art by Makoto Aida. “Edible Artificial Girls Mimi” derived from the DNA of colitis germs to solve worldwide food shortages. Printed in “La Trentaine”. Available at akatako.

[meadowclamflower]

i'm surrounded by so much genuine and warm love and my brain is acting like a crazy conspiracy theorist about me somehow having tricked all those people into feeling like that and that if they just knew the true me they would all abandon me in the dirt meanwhile I'm just always myself and quiet loudly too so there actually is nothing to discover but my brain wont listen to reason!