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How your mail finds me (contemplating the wonders of the natural world and the constitution of the hearts of men).

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the day before yesterday i was reading a really bad magical girl yuri manga and something just clicked in my brain and i've been in a state of enlightened self hate ever since and cant stop writing superheronovelslop. its a good vehicle for self hate

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two things can be true at the same time: ppl who dont do sports or manual labor extolling daily showers as a virtue are wrong and annoying and i should shower sometimes bc depression is no excuse and my life is not worth living bc i am dirty and disgusting.

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i started writing in english bc writing edgy superhero slop in german just doesnt make any sense and now julie is drawing syntax trees of my fucked up grammatical constructions

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cooler days...

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Whenever I see someone write like "I know what you are" it's like please do share. Why so mysterious? Or like do you want to call someone a fascist or a p*do but somehow be coy about it? That defeats the point, it's literally impossible to be coy about that. So either say it or shut up.

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I have just written fiction slop so bad you wouldn't fucking believe.

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but like if yoghurt was the drink of choice in early china until it was displaced by tea during the southern dynasties what abt lactose intolerance? is it less likely to set in when you drink yoghurt growing up or what

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the limited mortal man with a masculinty crisis: my body is a temple

the enlightened realized one: my body is an alchemical furnace *spews sulfur into the guy's face and ascends to heaven in broad daylight*

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egg cracking is weird as a concept because it can mean making stupid jokes or genuinely helping someone transition who needs help or treating a stranger on the internet as an extension of yourself and telling them you know what their feelings mean because what the feelings are about belongs to you

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trans ppl on twitter are so reactionary it's pretty concerning but i decided not to care abt that anymore

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been reading cicero's rant about words being given obscene meanings and i don't think i've ever seen a latin sentence that made me burst into such immediate and violent laughter before

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had a couple people be like "i have no idea what this means" so to clarify: the word penis in latin originally meant tail and only later got the sense of, uh. penis. so this is cicero complaining that nowadays all these hooligans are using the word "penis" for naughty purposes

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The chart for increasing and decreasing Yin and Yang in the body. I love anatomy.

The 絳宮 directly over the yellow court, not particularly close to the heart. (They also used to do actual anatomical sketches btw. Just in case you were wondering.)

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im gonna go out on a limb here and just assume that 絳宮 is synonymous with 絳闕 which refers to either the heart or the middle elixir field at the heart; but some charts put the 絳宮 to the left of the heart and the middle elixir field to the right and some put it lower to the right, above the og lower elixir field. furthermore the 朱雀, the cinnaber red bird stands for the heart, too, and is mentioned in the 老君中經 in connection with the palace gates of the palace of the red bird, which in the 中經 are the breasts, which must be kept closed, which is clearly a reference to the two or three passages in the real Laozi in which he says that the gates must be closed. also simply a mistake to believe that i could understand a pre-internal alchemy meditation text w reference to internal alchemy, but like they're all drawing from the same technical medical esoteric terminology. the yellow court is almost always the spleen, at least. the purple room is on or in the upper left of the head but the purple palace is somewhere else entirely i think. etc etc

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my girlfriend is literally working on becoming a math genius and what am I doing? looking up anatomical internal alchemy charts

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I have no choice and I must choose.

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Basically I believe everything is an accident or a joke, or both.