I forget how quickly grief comes back to you. It never does leave you.
Hiding in the dark corners of your mind. Lurking and waiting patiently to strike.
You are never prepared for it. No matter how many times you may experience grief, it comes back like you’ve never dealt with it before.
I didn’t ask Death to hover around my life. I didn’t ask Death to take away people that I love and care about.
Why would any want to experience this pain? Again and again and again?! I’m tired of this sadness. I’m tired of this grief. My pain isn’t going to bring back my loved ones or my friends.
It won’t take away the heart ache I feel. No one thinks this day could be their last. I can’t stand to lose another friend again…. But I did. I did … again. After a few months of losing another.
I’ve lost friends. I’ve lost family. And now … I feel like I’ve lost myself again —-in this grief.
Over the years, you learn to deal with it. You learn to manage. To slowly heal and move on. You accept the fact that grief… will linger. But it will be quieter.
But it’s not today. It wasn’t yesterday or the day before. It won’t be… not for a while.
I lost a good childhood friend two days go. He died unexpectedly. Leaving behind his wife, 2 yr old son, his father, brother and his little sister.
A family that already went through a tragedy many years ago. Losing their mother at a young age. Their mother was my mom’s dearest, closest and best friend. It took my mom and all us — years to recover from her death.
Two days ago… I also lost my friend. Someone I grew up with. Someone who I had so many memories before I moved to where I am now. Someone that we did lose touch for a bit ——but reconnected years later.
Slowly growing closer over the last few years again. My heart aches… for his wife. His son—-who is going through the same thing my friend did all those years ago. My heart truly breaks for his father, his brother and his sweet beautiful sister.
Oh Nico. I can’t describe this hole that is slowly developing in my heart. I was looking forward to having you at my wedding. Just like you invited me to yours. I was looking forward to the day—when I have my kid—to meet yours too. It’s still gonna happen.
Our big, beautiful, fun-loving and loud LLASU family have got you. We will take care of Megan and Luca. We will miss you Nico. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for showing me Space Balls. Thanks for always playing with me. Thanks for the sleep overs, the fun, the parties… all of it.
You will be so missed Nico. It won’t be the same without you. It truly won’t.
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