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Finalizing my animations for my show!

Instillation is tomorrow and it goes public Monday!

Some initial glitches for Image 4

All four Illustrations for my project. Some still need a few more tweaks before I glitch them and put them into a short animation but they’re almost ready!

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Created a lotus bud vector, placed multiples on the first image in hopes of creating the vintage wall paper feel. Will probably desaturate the colors on the bud though in order to have a big difference between this and the final image. The final image will still have the lotus wall paper, except the lotus will be in full bloom. This is to represent pushing through those destructive thoughts occurring in the middle two animations.

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Initial animation test for Image 2

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What each outline/sketch looks like lined up from left to rought

The following are images made in Photoshop from various glitches using Audacity

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Artist Statement

Through my years fighting mental illness I have become aware that, although still highly stigmatized, there are many people who are willing to listen and lend a helping hand. Despite this discovery I have realized that a detrimental symptom of mental illness is not easy to discuss, this is suicidal ideation. At times fleeting, there will also be days when the thoughts will not quite shake off, through this project I wanted to show what may go on in the mind of an individual considering suicide.

My work is almost entirely composed on the computer, with digital photography being used in order to begin creating digital illustrations. After completing the digital illustration, I import the image’s raw data into a sound editing program and begin altering the file. This process creates a more authentic, and believable glitch. Implementing glitches within my piece offers a unique way in discussing the topic of suicidal ideation, as the glitches serve to show a departure from normative human thinking.

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Initial outline for the final image in this series

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Rough storyboard for the set of four short animations I am planning to create for my show. All together they display a narrative of suicidal ideation. Each animation will display a glitch to show the shift in when that suicidal thinking is taking place. The beginning and ending scene will depict some additional symbolism within the lotus flower wallpaper that I will add in the background. The first animation would have a lotus flower that has yet to bloom and the final one would show it blooming in an effort to show the growth that can occur when one pushes through that suicidal ideation. However, the final animation would still leave enough room for the viewer to contemplate what happens next in that narrative.

Finishing a rough outline of a first person view in Illustrator

Converting the Illustrator file as an SVG to bring it into photoshop in order to begin adding color to the image

Next: Continue digitally painting the first piece in Photoshop and then add a gash on the wrist to save it as a different image. Bring both images into Audacity to begin glitching them both in order to create a short animation of them transitioning from one to another.

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Instead of creating one longer animation could it be a better idea to create a triptych or a quadtych of shorter, glitching animations, to demonstrate suicidal ideology and overcoming it.

Selected Readings and Artist Presentation

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These are test portraits I created using Audacity and Photoshop

Considering the suicidal ideation project concept is highly personal for myself, beginning my initial tests with portraiture seemed to be an effective choice for one of my beginning tests.

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BFA Concept Ideas

1. Suicidal Ideation

Suicidal thoughts, also known as suicidal ideation, are thoughts about how to kill oneself, which can range from a detailed plan to a fleeting consideration and does not include the final act of killing oneself. The majority of people who experience suicidal ideation do not carry it through

This concept idea stems from battling through my own suicidal thoughts, and I wish to visually demonstrate the inner-workings of the suicidal mind.

One project idea that I have been considering for a few weeks now is a narrative, which would incorporate photography, glitches, and digital illustration. Beginning with a still image of an exposed wrist and hand a glitch will begin to occur demonstrating a shift from reality to what one is thinking. The glitches will bring in another image of the same exposed wrist, except this time there will be a box cutter held up to it. Slowly animation will begin to rotoscope to simulate the act of making deep enough cuts. The blood and everything from there would then be animated, as it drips and drains down the sink. The drain will then lead to darkness only illuminated by the swirling dark water, culminating into a seed. At this point hope creeps back into the animation through the symbolism of a lotus. With the lotus seed being located where the water drained to it will begin to sprout and make it journey to the light. Once the lotus finally blooms it will create a brightness that radiates turning the screen white as a transition back to the individual in the beginning gazing at their wrist with their suicidal thoughts. { Understand more about the symbolism behind the lotus flower here: https://buddhists.org/buddhist-symbols/the-meaning-of-the-lotus-flower-in-buddhism/ }

Animation Styles / Inspirations

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VrDfSZ_6f4U