**Honestly here to get stuff off my chest instead of venting it out for all my friends to see Well for one, as much as I DO want my friends to know how I feel, I kinda just need these next few days to be just focused on me and what I need to do without any outside judgement So, the big exam for dental school is just around the corner. Literally 2 days. I’ve been an emotional ass wreck. Mentally and physically. My stress is thru the roofs. Stomach pains, anxiety, so much to the point that I’m on mediation for my stomach pains (due to stress) and to lower my blood pressure cus I’m so fucking stressed I can’t study lol. 🙃🙃 But, uhh damn... the days leading to this exam is not at all how I pictured it. For one, my exam was originally scheduled in May, got pushed back to August then I rescheduled for July. I’m cramming more genchem practice questions, Ochem practice, need to finishing reading bio and practice math...like I’m definitely not going in there with even done a single full length practice exam. I feel like I’m trying to do the most but always feeling like I didn’t try hard enough, stay up late enough, wake up early enough. I’m scared as shit, even tho I’ve been studying for this exam for 7 months straight now. Seeing myself accomplished once it’s over but always having that “what if” lingering. I’m scared, but so fucking tired, sometimes feeling unmotivated when I should be super laser focused. The stress of everything this month has really taken its toll on my health, and I wish I could just turn off my stress but it’s hard not to. Literally having a mental breakdown 4 days before my exam feeling so unproductive. Just the past month of the dental app process, personal statement, supplement questions, doubts, studying, cramming, stomach pains, debating on postponing exam, emotions...my body has really taken a beating and it has been telling me countless times it’s time to finish and get this over with. Yeah... that’s my ugly rant at 2AM.
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