Call Me Star!

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[megstar05]

Yo, it's been a while. As evidenced by my page, the last time I updated was back in 2022. And uh, a lot has changed in the past 2 years. I've graduated college, I'm currently taking a gap year, and I'm heading to uni in September! So what happened? Where have I been? What's gonna happen now?

Firstly, what happened: college got rough. I didn't drop out, but the workload was so stressful and overwhelming that I could barely cope. I was failing tests, making myself ill from the overload, and quite frankly I was really depressed. Combine that with the fact that my original friendship group split up, and finally getting diagnosed with Autism... it was a busy two years. It got so bad that I made a spam account to vent because I was so done with everything it was unreal.

This leads me to where I've been: lurking on my spam account. I didn't forget this account existed, I just wanted to rant away from my main. And I just kinda, stayed on there. I've also been in therapy, multiple times, because shit got so stressful. I've been improving myself and my mental health, and whilst I'm still not 100% fine and dandy, I am functioning like a regular human being now. I've got new medication and healthier outlook to my future.

But what's gonna happen now? I've mentioned that I've been on my spam account for the past 2 years, and it's probably gonna stay that way. I can't delete this account because it's the main blog, but I may transform it into a fanblog or a page dedicated to my OC's in the future. I won't delete the yearly reviews, because it's quite interesting to see each year played out. But for now, I'm gonna take it chill. Might even restart as of May 2024.

We'll see. Anyways, this is marshmallow-pufft signing off, I guess. See y'all around.

[megstar05]

{My 2024, as of May}

May

My birthday! It was nice and chill, got some lego and had carbonara for lunch.

I've started doing manoeuvres in my driving lessons, and they're going quite well :)

The tensions between Palestine and Israel are uncomfortably higher than ever before, everyone seems to have forgotten about Russia and Ukraine, and the UK Prime Minister wants to implement national service for teenagers... delightful.

Currently in between hyperfixations, which is rather annoying, so I've started playing Mystery Dungeon DX to pass the time

June

I went to a wedding which was fun! Socially overwhelming but fun I guess?

A General Election finally got called, but all the options are practically shit. The Tories are transphobic and want to send the kinds to war, Labour is… labour, and Reform’s manifesto is similar to a certain moustached man from Germany. Joy.

My mental health has dipped severely so I’m headed back to the doctors next month to see if it’s because of my medication or what. But at least my Power Rangers hyperfixation is back!

And by back, I mean I have spent hours working on a cohesive timeline and have just decided to rewrite a bunch of episodes so that’s fun lol-

(More to be added as the months progress!)

[megstar05]

~🔮~ My 2022 ~🔮~

Part 3 because god dammit I’m continuing this shit whether I remember to update it regularly or not.

January

Let’s start of the year with Ninjago! I’ve been without a hyperfixation for a while so rewatching all the seasons and improving my oc’s is what I plan on doing :)

Fucking hell does college suck- we gotta wear masks in classrooms again, homework is stressful and I’m predicting a lockdown next month

Remember the minecraft server I kept on mentioning? It’s official name is Minecraftigans and we decided to give Pixelmon ago so that’s fun

February

HELLO WORLD WAR 3?!?! Can we not have a normal year tf-

Legends Arceus has been VERY fun tho, Adaman is my beloved <3 The boss battles had my heart thumping tho

But college is going kinda alright? I mean, I’m failing a lot of my psychology tests but maths and art are going swimmingly so it’s lol good *insert nervous laughter here*

March/April

…I’m gonna be completely honest in saying that I do not remember these two months in the slightest so…?

It was my mother’s birthday tho, so happy Earth birth to her I guess!

May

College exams suck ass and are very stressful. But hey at least I’m getting them done right?

My birthday! Also Dr Strange! Very fun times and I decided to rewatch supernatural and am already on Season 10… I need help-

I’m going to SPAIN!!! First time abroad in a solid while so I hope my little holiday is gonna be fun :)

[megstar05]

Bruh I found this old gem in my discord and thought to share it sooooo

[megstar05]

Guess who drew their Minecraft skin lol-

[megstar05]

~🌸~ My 2021 ~🌸~

Part 2, baby! As follows, I’m going to be updating this as the year progresses :)

January

Started the year off with a bang by hyperfixating on Power Rangers so that’s fun

I found out we’re moving house... Which is really difficult for me. The idea of moving to a new house with the step family (who hates me and I hate them) makes me sick. It’s a nice house but nobody is taking my feelings into consideration, making me really dread this move.

Another National Lockdown because the government is useless...

My overdramatic ass got woken up at 2am in the morning due to a slug climbing up my leg. Basically, I gOT TOUCHED UP BY A PERVY SLUG.

February

Criminal Minds Babyyyyyy (ft. me simping for Spencer Reid)

I’ve had my suspicions for a while, but we’re now in the process of getting an ADHD/Autism diagnosis for yours truly! Unfortunately, it’s now a matter of waiting to be seen...

Me and my friends started a new modded Minecraft server and I may or may not be adding my own bits of lore here and there :3

March

So I kinda forgot March existed... so happy 1 year anniversary COVID!

Okay remember that Minecraft server? We restarted it as pure vanilla but lore still stands so that’s cool-

Oh, I hyper focused on Criminal Minds and watched all 15 seasons in less than a month. (Looking back, I started late February and finished mid March)

April

Not me obsessing over Minecraft... but seriously, I rewatched Aphmau’s MCD. God help me.

Exams but not exams but mini assessments instead- School is confusing

That server I mentioned last month? ShEEEEEESH It’s turning out really good :D

May

Happy Borthday to moi~ I got some good shit, including a sloth plush called Muffintop and Mario Kart 8 Deluxe

Unfortunately... My left ear is blocked and has been fucking me over. Aka lack of sleep, headaches, unable to concentrate

Also the start of those mini assessments - yay.

June

I CAN HEAR!!! FUCK YES! FINALLY! I went to the hospital to have my ears sorted and boy oh boy can I hear COLOURS

The start of my longest summer ever? Am I going to be productive- most likely not lol

What’s this? Me being sociable? OwO

July

Pfttt my extroverted street is over, here comes my anxiety! But seriously, anxiety has been bad this month but on the plus side I got a call saying that this lady was gonna try organise an autism assessment for me so :D

Lack of hyper fixation = P A I N.

Next month I’m going on holiday so that’s pogggg :)))

August

Uhhhhh

I have no clue what happened in August-

Oh yeah, I had one of the worst holidays I’ve ever had- not fun

September

College time babyyyyy

God help me-

October

Best friends birthday so that’s cool-

HALLOWEEN WAS FUN! I got blisters but my costume was worth it :D

November

POKEMON BDSP BABBBBYYYYYY!!!!

…which I haven’t finished yet-

I’ve been busy okay sue me ;-;

December

A MONTH I CAN REMEMBER! WHOOP WHOOP 🙌

Christmas sucked and I got slut-shamed for wearing a skirt with shorts underneath by my own stepmother

Jokes on her though, we’re kicking her out in 2022

AND THATS 2021 HOLY MOTHER- Not gonna lie, kinda forgot to update this. But I’m continuing this trend in 2022 so see you there!

[megstar05]

I want a Wooloo in real life.

[cullensmidnight]

i am not black, but i see you.

i am not black, but i hear you.

i am not black, but i mourn with you.

i am not black, but i see the injustice that you face.

i am not black, but i see the fear for your sons and your daughters. your brothers and sisters.

i am not black, but i will stand with you.

inaction is also an action. and i will not stay silent.

i don’t see your color. i appreciate and honor your color and your roots and experiences. you are valued and respected.

✊✊🏻✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿

[caleblucas-blog]

Reblog to let your followers know you are a safe person to come out to.

[babyxdyke]

Reblog the shit out of this.

[maraudevrs]

Reblog !!

[cherishablematerial-deactivated]

!!!!!!!!!!++

[imbasicallyshakespear-deactivat]

*violently smashes reblog button*

[grape-nonny]

*JUMPS ON REBLOG BUTTON*

[mountain-dew-tickledpink]

PLEASE IF YOU NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT STUFF LIKE THIS MY LESBIAN-ASS IS HERE FOR YOU—

[veryblushyswitch]

[isopodbug]

Absolutely!

[thatneko0taku]

I put the B in LGBT so if you need to talk about something: I’m here for you ❤️

[somanyfandomsonly1username]

This soft butch genderfluid bisexual is open to anyone who wants to come out to them! <3

And if you don’t have a parent or family member, I’ll adopt you as my child, sibling, or niece/nephew or if you just need a friend I’ll be there too!

I love you through and through and I don’t exclude anyone (this includes aro/ace I love y’all too!)

[thisisctrying]

Everybody reblog with your quarantine nickname. I’m malaised poptart

[back-that-sass-up]

depressed salami

[injuries-in-dust]

sleepy popcorn

[flipface4]

Thirsty paper plate

[godith024]

Anxious vitamin gummy

[megstar05]

Tired Carbohydrate

[ghostilygoo]

Therapist: so how do you cope with your anxiety and depression?

Me: I don’t

Therapist: what?

Me: I watch cartoons instead of faceing my actual problems

[megstar05]

~✨~ My 2020 ~✨~

I’m going to update this as the year carries on but here’s how my 2020 has been:

January:

Started majorly questioning my sexuality

Downloaded tumblr

Developed a new art style

Made a new anime friend

February:

Started the month of with a dose of nostalgia; CLUB PENGUIN!!!

Realised and came to terms with the fact that I was queer (not sure about a label though, Pan? Demi?)

Found out where a family member was scattered after their death and made plans to go to there in their memory.

March:

It’s Corona time~

ANIMAL CROSSING NEW HORIZONS BABBBBYYYY

Painted Glitchtrap from FNAF for an entire day... and grew extremely frustrated at the fact that the colours messed up

April:

Too many mental breakdowns caused by COVID-19

Painted a tiger cub with a flower crown for mother dearest

Lost my Great Nan to an illness - fortunately not Corona (My thoughts and prayers are with you xx)

May:

Bro, it got HOT where I live. No cap, I’m pretty sure I melted at one point (also a hornet flew into my room - I’m now traumatised and my fear of bugs has skyrocketed)

BIRTHDAY BASH YASS! ‘‘Twas my birth anniversary and honestly, was one of the better birthdays I’ve had in the past couple of years :)

Good bye Club Penguin phase - hello Harry Potter and Pokemon... lord help me.

June, July & August:

UHHHHHHHHHHHH

So, Sumer went by super fucking fast

Mental health? Haven’t heard of her~

September:

Back to hell school

But! I found a therapist and we should be having some sessions together so mental health might be making a comeback?

Hello Gotham...

October:

Therapy = really beneficial! Seriously tho, my mental health is really good :)

My bestie’s birthday and I may or may not have gone overboard with her present lol

Not me simping over fictional psychopaths-

November:

I never expected the US Election to be like my own personal tv show but here we are-

I CAUGHT CORONA. THIS IS NOT. A DRILL. COVID-19 IS IN MY SYSTEM.

Mock Exams are making me physically sick...

December:

Mock Exam Time whoop whoop...

Christmas didn’t feel like Christmas ngl

Not really an exciting December to be perfectly honest...

SO THERE WE HAVE IT! 2020 the hellish year is finally over and 2021 is now beginning! Though knowing my luck, it will probably be worse. I’m gonna continue this and make a yearly trend, especially since I’ve got a lot going on in 2021. I hope y’all had as good a year as you could get and I’ll see you in ~🌸~ My 2021 ~🌸~! Stay safe <3

[cosmic--fall]

Do y’all eat your hand lotion in a bowl or a cup?

[megstar05]

I like to scoop it out of a tub with a spork.

[of-aurora]

Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad. 

[megstar05]

Homophobia sucks. Periodt.