it will set you free

Lucy, 31, England.

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harry styles watched lll and wrote 'are you listening yet?' for peter 😌

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my blog turns 16 years old today and i'm just fathoming i've been on tumblr literally half my life, yikes

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tagged by @alikwrites!! <3

origin of your username: my gal from lovely little losers

i will always order this food: tuna melt with chips and ketchup

overused emoji: the salute, always

current favorite show/movie/book: favourite movie will always be little women (2019) but i'm currently obessing over people we meet on vacation. shadowhunters is my favourite show in part because of my love for the books but also i do love it for itself and have it on in the background all the time. for books my favourite is a court of silver flames BUT i just finished to touch a silent fury and looooved it

song(s) on repeat: the great divide - noah kahan and everybody scream - florence and the machine

last thing you really got into: hmm probably lolilo when we were doing lolildaily

oddly specific thing that brings you joy: i get so excited for my strawberry and cucumber tea that i have at 8pm every evening and i purposefully don't drink it during the day just so it's extra exciting when i have it the evening

phone wallpaper: shadowhunters, that whole series is in my VEINS. i have one like page of my phone per generation and each app icon is customised to an image that matches that generations aesthetic

what smell makes you happy: white jasmine!!

morning, night, or other kind of person: morning for sure, i really lose steam around 9 and just want to be in bed

tagging @theperksofbeingabooknerd <3

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don't wait for leaders you can do it alone!! be who YOU are not who everyone wants you to be!! love your friends but don't forget to love yourself!!

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the underlying motivation for all the flat members towards each other through the whole show being 'take that weight off your shoulders, you can rest your head on mine' BUT them all thinking everyone needs what THEY need and therefore pushing each other further away... cinema thank you 10/10

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thinking about my personal best friends peter, stan, freddie & ben and how they've opened up their eyes to see there's nothing left for them to fear 🥹🥹🥹

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break 'dem rules is so important.... 'we can break the rules - it's what we're meant to do'.... you can make rules for yourself and you CAN change your mind when they no longer service you. It is not a failure it is just honouring the new person that you've become. you're allowed to start over again and again and again

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ah it's christmas, time for my annual re-read of casual

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kinda obsessed with all the references through the series of pedrazar being absolute chatterboxes off screen. they go to sleep at night and five minutes later in the dark one of them is like 'AND ANOTHER THING'

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it's a very important headcanon to me that donalduke have slowly become friends over the last year and that john drove her all the way to wellington when she needed to see bea at the end of FEATHERS

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I cling to feathers with my LIFE as the only time we see pedrazar as a couple

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the pedrazar love confession irked me 10 years ago because i wanted so much more, but i can appreciate now that the simplicity and directness of it was exactly what they needed to get on the same page here

[cardboardsean]

the way bea goes after peter in gifts?! feels so.....well not uncharacteristic but certainly notable. i think part of her finds it easy to get angry at peter even though she's forgiven him, but more than that in this case i think she wants to think that balthazar feels as terrible as she does right now, when he doesn't. freddie makes a romantic gesture that's generic instead of something kit can really appreciate, and ben sends fudge that to bea is entirely cryptic. but peter answers balthazar's several songs with a poem of his own, he's speaking balth's language of love at last. and in the caption he writes "anything I want to say should be said in person", which is a promise that they'll have an actual conversation about the things that matter, that he's not sweeping anything under the rug, that he just wants to do all this properly. i think it would've gone a long way if ben had done those things for beatrice, but he hasn't, maybe he doesn't want to, so what she resorts to is mocking something she KNOWs is important to peter. then she hits him with the "peter. sort your shit out!", which is the easiest possibly way to get a shot at him, the thing everyone's been saying all year, when now finally he's the only one to have it close to sorted.

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in all seriousness what a beautiful love confession. so sincerely, so straightforwardly, so plainly 'i love you'. no room for confusion or tangled words or mixed messages anymore. the way peter presses balth to say what he really means instead of hiding behind something half said. their little laughs right before the kiss. the gentleness of it. when they hold each other you can just feel how the whole rest of the world is fuzzing out for them and the other person is all there is. we don't even see them let go of each other.

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as a steadfast bea stan during lll i am so proud of her for dumping ben here. that doesn't mean i don't think they are good together but they have not BEEN good together and one of the hardest parts of rewatching lll for me has been watching her spark fade and fade. i think they probably do need time on their own now and in reality would not have gotten back together as soon as they do. going travelling alone does feel like a really satisfying end to bea's arc for me and I will probably always pretend that's what did happen for her

and then she'd come home, and they'd re-connect, and they'd have so many stories to tell each other and new versions of each other to love when they are more ready and able to do that

because love's never lost when perspective is earned

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Peter and Balthazar have been dating for an entire year :’) 

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10 years!!