Mel

From dust we come, to dust we return

[bellaj2peg]

I LOVE abortions, trans people, gay people, immigrants, survivors and having fun.

[h0n3ybvnny]

I like being at the function but I also love complaining.

[mel1sa-1410]

I want chili con carne

[mel1sa-1410]

I have this habit of chewing on the inside of my bottom lip, if I don't stop soon, I'll probably have no lip left to chew on.

[mel1sa-1410]

Journal entry

Idk why I'm still writing right now, given that I have nothing to write about, but I do feel like doing it. I'm doing a little better than normally, but I do also know that this stuff usually passes, so I hope it doesn't this time. I'm trying to become more attentive and generally consume better media, live offline, I guess. I'd also like to better my writing and critical thinking skills, it's like... I guess it just helps me live more peacefully, I'd like to be calmer and more put together than I am right now, do more with my time. I don't really need much from life other than calm, and money, money would be nice to have. Maybe someday I'll have a nice little house and a husband, maybe some kids. Though I don't really see why I'd have kids, I think it's just that I'm conditioned to believe that marriage and kids is the ultimate success in life. I don't really know what to do with kids, I know everything about them, like how you're supposed to better their development or safety precautions, suppose it's cause I'm constantly fantasizing about being that woman and having a perfect family, but I don't know how to actually interact with them, it doesn't come naturally to me, so it's kinda stupid to think that I should have kids of my own some day, cause I do also find them really annoying sometimes. It's also kind of stupid that I'm writing all this stuff on tumblr, but no one really knows me on here, so I think that's what makes it nicer than having a physical diary or writing it in my phone.

[vanilladeer333]

[mel1sa-1410]

Summer vacay moodboard :p

[mel1sa-1410]

Moodboard for this school year (kinda depressing)

[mel1sa-1410]

Charity work

I found this sort of non-profit charity thing in my city and I'm thinking about signing up cause I've always wanted to do some good in the world, I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it, between school and my consistent seasonal depression, or if my parents will allow it, but I also think it might do me some good to have a consistent schedule besides school and it'll help me socialize with people outside of that and my old friends. I'll have to talk to my parents about it.

[mel1sa-1410]

School uniform

Having a school uniform is kinda chill cause I don't have to worry too much about picking out my outfits but at the same time my uniform is just a black polo shirt with the school emblem on it so I still have to style it a little but you literally CANNOT style it cause the emblem is GREEN AND YELLOW. I go to a private school and even though it's mostly chill, it's also like if micro-trends and brainrot were a school

[mel1sa-1410]

MP3

I bought an mp3 off vinted and it should arrive one of these days but now I have to actually find enough songs for individual playlists to fit all of my moods. I usually just let YouTube curate my playlists but I'm also kind of sick of losing signal or randomly finding out that my premium is unpaid and having to watch 5 ads before listening to a single song on a shitty school morning. I also wanna get those cute wired headphones or earbuds that are like Minecraft themed

[mel1sa-1410]

I love tumblr cz literally only like two ppl that ik online have my acc YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

[saudadebunny]

[saudadebunny]

[mistvtears]

[mel1sa-1410]

Lil journal entry

I feel this random need to write, I guess? Summer is ending and I feel like I didn't do enough, but this summer was also a lot better than last summer. I really hope this school year goes well and I can actually lock tf in because apparently life is moving really fast. Every time a new year starts or another summer ends I feel that impending sense of doom, but then I realize that time has only been flying by faster and faster and soon enough I'll be twenty in college with (hopefully) my own apartment and a beautiful, kind partner. if I lock tf in, that is.

I'm sixteen, so I'm at like, peak teenage dirtbag age, and I really do love being a teenage dirtbag, but I also know that these are the shortest years of my life. It's so weird to think that next year, in April, I'll be seventeen, and then eighteen and officially an adult. The only thing that really comforts me is the fact that I still have my wonderful friends with me and that I'll soon be able to escape my below average family.

[last-angel-on-earth]

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