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some art based on a nightmare i had the other night

the-badinfluence

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kthinspiro

Other ppl: omg I finally reached my gw after working hard for it in just a month!!

Me, procrastinating, tired as fuck, had 6283737 breakdowns about my weight, binging here and there: why the fuck have I not reached mine yet?

helloiwanttobethin

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Stay safe, everyone, love you!

dankmemesreasonforliving

fairycosmos

you ever just stare at the wall and think hoo boy suicide sure is an option

recaption

whufy

mars’ vent

this won’t make sense at all but i just need to, let shit out

i’ve been discharged from the psych ward, yet i was let go with no safety plan and i still feel the same. still have the same suicidal ideations and urges. i was there for eighteen fucking days and now i’ve just been put back “home”?

i feel so stuck and useless. i know i won’t amount to anything, everything is useless. my paranoia has taken over again and i’m pushing everyone away because i’m so terrified of being laughed at or dismissed like i used to be. i’m so fucking tired.

god i just want to feel loved and like i’m worth something you know? just once. love me. appreciate me. i’m so tired and i feel so alone, even though i have a best friend and plenty of other people that offer support, i still feel like a burden. i’m so fucking tired and i don’t know if i can keep doing this.

i haven’t been eating still. i lost another 6kg while inpatient. oops. at least i can do something right, right?

oh well, goodnight i guess

// mars