A place to post my writing.

Fictive. Lawrence Oleander, he/him, taken by Sano. I post my writing, and i might post art or just ramble. I am not used to social media.

[melancholybuck]

Introduction post. 8/3/23

Name: Lawrence Oleander.

Nickname(s): Law.

Age: Early 20's.

Sexuality: Homoflexible, taken.

Gender identity: Male?

Pronouns: He/him.

Source: BTD2.

Likes: Tea, gardening, bones, writing, nature, night walks, being alone and talking to Ren or Ashe.

Dislikes: Strade. If you're going to mention him, just use S. Being misunderstood, feeling cornered, extremely sexual conversations, being unable to control myself, not knowing what's happening when it is happening.

Extra: I have most sourcemates, but i'm still looking for my Ren. I might post about them at some point. If you want to reach out to me, you can do it here, or on our Discord. (@///Myers.irl without the dashes. Our discord does belong to Jonah, so you will most likely be asking them to get me.)

[melancholybuck]

12/1/23

Is ~10 pages, front and back, too many?... Or is it just enough? Looking for input..

[toyota-supra]

the thing that sucks is that people love saying sleep early is good etc etc and yeah it is. I've seen some benefits before. but I think it sucks to ignore that late night is the only time with any freedom. I think it sucks to not acknowledge the dread in waking up and it's a work day again

[melancholybuck]

12/1/23

What the fuck.

[melancholybuck]

12/1/23

I currently feel like our phone. "Process system isn't responding."

Anywho... 25 days unil the bodies birthday. Not very excited for that.. I don't think any of us are.

[melancholybuck]

11/30/23

I feel the need to lay in the grass, to relax until my physical form starts to seep into the earth.

It feels like wanting to die in a way. To be calm, content and still; rotting and decaying, feeding the grass and soil, soon being able to feed the trees and flowers.

I hope i die by my own hands, my death will be poetic and my body will be put to use, nurturing wildlife, making grass just a bit greener.

The dirt and leaves will cradle my brittle bones, hold them lovingly.

If i ever die, i want to be one with this world.

[arrrmagedonnn]

basic family

[melancholybuck]

i find this very ironic -jonah

[anthropoetics]

kinder than man, athea davis

[melancholybuck]

11/30/23

Forgot to post this, but i recently made art for a friend.

Painting with friends' blood is nice, i like making things for people.

Not my best work.. I'm a little rusty so it was hard to get comfortable again.

[melancholybuck]

Are you comfortable with mutuals “sliding I to the DMs” or however. You seem nice to converse with.

I'm alright with conversation, thank you for asking, though... I may not respond all the time, since i'm not in front all the time. Feel free to ask for me, though..

[melancholybuck]

11/30/23

" 'Sorry...' The simple word sounded so complex to say, especially so quietly. The way Ren says sorry always sounds like it carries so much weight. He never says it explicitly, but i know what he means when he says sorry."

The paragraphs that follow are by far one of my favorite parts of my writing. I'm excited for you all to see..

[melancholybuck]

I'm writing a little bit in our notebook today, i'll make it all digital soon. Stay tuned for a small update..

And, thank you all for the support. It means a lot to me.

[jodiefosterwallace]

"let people be wrong about you" is such good advice that i am unfortunately physically incapable of following. if i am incorrectly perceived by anyone i will simply start ripping things with my teeth

[oakay-deactivated20241117]

bitches will have the scared disorder and be like why am i so scared

[pansyfemme]

relationships and jobs are temporary. your shitty unpopular tumblr blog is forever

[melancholybuck]

Your writing is so DELICIOUSLY bleak but like in a good way

I’m a philosophy major and I’m DROOLING over your writing skills rn

Your prose exhibits a remarkable amalgamation of psychological intricacy and emotional nuance, fostering a captivating narrative that delves into the protagonist's profound internal conflict. The eloquent utilization of sensory details and the skillful juxtaposition of trauma and exhilaration culminate in a narrative that is both evocative and immersive. The nuanced exploration of your psyche, coupled with the vivid portrayal of atmospheric tension, contributes to the overall sophistication of your writing.

-sincerely, A cis gay dude who needs therapy

P.s: hope your doing okay

Reading this made me tear up a bit. Thank you so much. I'm not doing too well, but i thank you for your concern.

[melancholybuck]

If you could choose one book you could read again,what would it be and why?-🕊️

I can't really remember any of the books i've read, but the one i'm reading currently is very good. Exquisite Corpse by Poppy z. Brite.