nah / tired

hi im ronnie/robin and im very tired

[melatoninv]

after many years of being away from here I can say that this blog was bad for me and not conducive to healing or recovery. that's all.

[veeeffvee]

Two Moths and a Spider

I call them the Bug Gang! You know, as opposed to the Monochrome Squad.

And speaking of which…

Bonus:

[melatoninv]

hello gamers, (un)happy to say this breakdown that has been building up this past few months is coming soon ;))

[melatoninv]

the breakdown never came lmao

also finals are next week and. im not doing alright, mentally.

i have no motivation to do shit and i rlly dont wanna be alone but like dont wanna be around ppl either. im just not doing well.

[0274728173785]

hello i am $80 short on rent bc i've been rly losing it lately (both my brains and my money) and i don't know what to do!!! i am stuck and i also need to be able to get rides and food :');;;

$AspenAdams

@pisshet on venmo

(dm for my paypal bc i don't want my legal name out there)

thank you sexies if you want some weird stream of consciousness art drawn for you in exchange i will do that

[0274728173785]

thank you for the reblogs please send me $1s

[0274728173785]

thank u i have gotten $10

[melatoninv]

i was clean from my starving-binging for 4-5 months and everything was fine until last night!! i fucking read smth that had eating disorders in it and it really reminded me of my mentality so i. think im relapsing. i looked at thin/spo again and i just. want to be in control. i feel like a fat pig whenever i think abt food fbdjd

[melatoninv]

hello gamers, (un)happy to say this breakdown that has been building up this past few months is coming soon ;))

[cutespoonie]

the two bad fatigue moods:

gets super emotional, cries over the smallest things, empathetic™, can’t handle anything, irritable, overstimulated™, anxious

can’t feel anything, barely able to think, apathic™, can’t relate to anything, emptiness™, can’t cry, slow™, dissociating

[mental-health-memes]

[fragile-flower]

Today’s art piece. I was addressing what it is like to be autistic and simulate how sensory overload feels like. I used a bunch of different materials to also address being a tactile sensory seeker. Painted string on cardboard on painted calico fabric with wire and paint creating the letters.

[nicoii]

My Favorite Stims and My Least Favorite Sensory Experiences

Favorite Stims

•flapflap real fast

•bouncing up and down on my toes

•walking on my tippy toes

•flapflap real fast WITH LONG SLEEVES

•biting wires or fabric

•squeezing my hands together

•rubrubbing my hands real tight together

•rocking back and forth when sitting

•jerking my arms and legs around into different poses

•running my hand up and down on slightly Pokey fabric. you know the one

•hugging and squeezing my favorite stuffed animal

•being hugged and squeezed by parents/fp

•boucing my leg up and down, sometimes both legs

•in bed, i love rubbing my feet/ankles together

•P r e s s u r e S t i m s, like my slightly weighted blanket or something laying on me or squeezing my hand really tight

•echolalia vocal stimming/clicking my tongue/humming lowly/talking to myself. vocal stims are so good.

Least Favorite Sensory Experiences

•a cliche but tags on clothes. when theyre digging into my skin its all i can concentrate on. its the fucking worst.

•idk if anyone else experiences this but. when you get out of a shower/bath and you rub your hands together and it just feels? dry and gross? its horrible do not recommend

•when my fingernails grow too long and they scratch against paper or get caught in my hair or in a blanket or something. when it happens with one long nail, all the other long nails get ripped off too

•loud and repetitive noises, like a fire alarm or a timer beeping. especially if i cant stop the noise fast enough. gotta cover those ears mdude

•probably the worst of all but when people Yell at me when im focusing on something else, especially when what im doing is a special interest because its hard for me to focus on two things at once

•Yelling in General tbh. i hate it yet i do it a lot? its weird.

•Rain getting on my lower body half. oh my g o d. its fine on my face and hair but anything lower is sensory Hell.

[anger----issues]

[melatoninv]

damn my ptsd really been waiting for today huh

[melatoninv]

me: my ptsd is getting better

art teacher: draw a family portrait

me:

[melatoninv]

damn my ptsd really been waiting for today huh

[melatoninv]

me: ok i may not be able to fix everything but i wanna make my self destructive habits better!

my dirty goblin brain after seeing people talking abt starving/cutting: :) oh do you?

[mentalchillness]

[lyricsandmythoughts]

House of Wolves // My Chemical Romance

[your-fall-from-grace]