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Let it all hang out. Too all my females out there doubting themselves- you are the shit and you are only at the the beginning of your journey. Value yourself. Even when you feel weak know you’re strength and push through

#strong #female #raw #bare #soul #strength #love #self love #me #i love myself

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Still missing you. She looks like your dad. She acts just like you. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. We did it Cop. I know you’re proud of us 💕 Together forever

Maybe I’m to old for this shit. I need a vent sesh. I feel old now. I’ve had this tumblr for 10 years plus now. All of you kids on here are probably fetuses.

Speaking of fetuses. I have one of my own now. Super crazy how life changes. I don’t want to be sappy or superficial. I want to be raw and uncensored.

Wife life was easy compared to being a mom. Your whole life is turned upside down. Most moments for the better. But there’s the thoughts of losing your memory. Thinking you said one thing and figuring out you said another. Giving up your body. I’ve lost 30 lbs since pregnancy. I thought I would’ve bounced back. But I’ve had to sacrifice to feed my kid. Willing to feed my kid. But not willing to accept your jeans don’t fit & your body doesn’t feel the same. At times I don’t feel attractive. I thought wives were supposed to lose sex drive- but it’s the opposite. You want love from your spouse. You want validation. You want hand holding. You want attention. You want kindness. You want to be wanted even when you don’t want yourself. I know all of my love is being poured into this kid. And my love for my spouse is being poured into this kid. I want to spend time with my spouse. I want him to know I care. But there’s so much in the way. I know things take time to adjust to this new life, but I just want the old me back. Maybe this is just my grieving post to accept the new reality of things.

It’s all a juggling act. I know things will get better. I’m just posting this so when I look back I can say fuxk yeah you survived, you did your best & you were a G for handling shit the way you did. I’m proud of you. Good job future me. You are loved. You are beautiful. You are an amazing wife. You speak up for what you believe in. You fight for the people you love. You’re an awesome mom. You may be exhausted, but keep fighting, you for this.