˚₊‧꒰აMellowdecay໒꒱ ‧₊˚

‧₊˚๋⭑⚝ В какой-то степени я это понимаю, но мне всегда было хорошо в моей собственной компании. ᯓ @rottenficus 𖦹₊˚

[mellowdecay]

My main bio:

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⊱ ۫ ׅMellowdecay ‧₊⊹

Cher/Chérie/Mellow

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⊱ ۫꒰˚she/theyɞ˚꒱ ₊⊹

‧˚₊⊹♡ Rus/Eng ♡⋆.˚

꒰ 𖥔 ꒱ bio with: @rottenficus

I'm depressed. Like actually just depressed. I have severe anxiety and I just genuinely want to kms😭 I'm not a jirai!!!!! I'm lolita, a very depressed lolita. Love jirais btw were this close🤞🤞

Hobbies/interests:

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Interests:

I'm a true crime fan, I love cults and sects, I love darknet and stuff of this niche

I'm a big fan of J-fashion! and i am a lolita as well as my personal style.

i draw just a bit, not rly good at it though (lol) MIGHT share some of my doodles here!!

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Hobbies:

• i sing professionally, I am trained to sing classical music.

I own a sewing machine and I really like sewing my diy lolita pieces, I also draw a bunch!

These are just things I mostly do, so I didn't put anything I come back to once a year ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

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Feel free to ask questions or talk to me if our interest connect! 🤍

My fandoms (will be updated a lot) :

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Main:

⌗ ┆ CherryCrush, tgswiiwagaa, Undertale, Deltarune, a date, VNs in general, Vocaloid (in general), lololowka, Ohshc, Mlp, ENA, ddlc, Omori, Class of 09, midfight masses 😭.., FNAF, Fran bow, Little misfortune, Alien Stage, Alternative Horror, SCP (specifically doctor void for my fellow Russian speakers), Dead plate, Married in red (and more games from this specific creator) , beastars, my dress up darling, dandadan, TOO MUCH ANIME I DON'T REMEMBER ALL SORRY GUYS 😭, wonder egg priority, Sofia?, tadc

I also read lots of manga, I can't really remember all of my fandoms and honestly I'm pretty basic.. I really hope I'm not boring so really if you have any game/read/watch suggestions im gonna check it out

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[marshmaggot]

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are there any egl forums?

hihihi!! i really like going on blogspot and just looking around the old 2015 posts left there

and I'm just wondering are there any other blogging platforms aside of tumblr where lolitas/jfashion people post?

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IM CRYING WHY IS YAOI SO SAD

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for existing

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My apolocheese

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Why do I feel the need to be self destructive. There’s nothing to gain. I hate this.

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Hey guys my friends are watching me type this were scrolling on Tumblr together on call byeyeyeye guysysysy

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I am so freaking competitive about wordle, I do my daily wordle and go bragging to my friends that I guessed the word in five guesses. I am very serious about this stuff okay? I expect applause guys

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As a lolita I can proudly call myself a lace monster. oh I love when there's lace. It can look a little ugly, but it really depends on the color combination of lace and the dress.

I just find pattern jsk boring tbh ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡!! They can be cute, I have some on my wishlist but I much rather prefer dresses decorated with frills and lace.

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None of these are mine!!

Just my opinion, wear whatever you please

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Damn actually got out of the house today! Had to do my catfish makeup bc heh.. nobody actually needs to know how the not-so-famous-mellowdecay actually looks my face is just a theory okay? It's a concept, it's up to your imagination, just don't look at me before I did my makeup shhh

(btw, I am in fact cringe but I'm trying to sound funny and ironic so don't throw your phone out the window, I'm just awkward.)

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HI CUTIES!! IM SOOOO HAPPY EEK!!!!

SO I have a button collection that I have for la WHILE, and never showed it to ANYONE because well.. it's very special to me.

But today I told my friend about it and asked if he wants to see it and EEEKELELEL IM SOOOO HAPPY!! He was so interested too, literally I loved it just showing him all my buttons god I'm so happy literally

The collection is so personal and special to me too it's my most of most fixated hyperfixation it is THAT special

It's so special I was so happy to see that someone is actually treating it with the same amusement as I do, with the same appreciation of something like a jar of buttons

Every button is so special and he actually looked at every single one of them and even picked favorites

I'm jumping from happiness RAWWWRRRR

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First time trying pixel art !! ^_^

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౨ৎ‧₊˚ they'll message you after a post talking about how sad and ill you are too?? can they just be normal 🙏

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Doodle

Somebody cared enough today.. I thought I should make living worth it and continue to draw. Thank you.

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Hey I know I sound lame as fuck because well.. I fucking am?

But OH MY GOD I HATE it when successful people have supportive and loving families. LIKE WHAT MY FAMILY HATES ME NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY AND IM NOT SUCCESSFUL AT THE SAME TIME EVEN THOUGH I TRY IM TRYING WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY IS LIFE SO UNFAIR TO ME I hate myself and every person my age, that's having the time of their life being the best version of themselves while I'm dealing with this shit.

I will end up killing myself in the end tbh I see my future and it's death.

I don't even actually mean it.. I'm trying to be happy for them but I'm tired of acting like I'm not jealous, like I'm less deserving of what they have. But i guess not everyone are lucky enough