recovery

過去ヲ殺セ / 日常ヲ殺ス

[boymagicalgirl]

[meltran]

i mean, silent hill 1 is ultimately about (spoilers + subject matter discusion)

a child being forcibly impregnated by the adults in her life who use a religious justification for their actions

of course as Harry we are submerged in occult images, actual monsters, etc. the supernatural plays a role, but it is ultimately the backdrop and justification for a small insular community where the sexual abuse of a child was approved by multiple adults with power. and that's what is meant by silent hill having "a cult". it's a cult in the sense of any number of real-life groups that have done the same, like Children of God/TFI. this happens in real life. somehow 99% of fans, including the people involved with the movie and all the western games, did not get this.

i've thought for a while now that in his own backwards way the silent hill wiki circumcision guy was closer to the truth than most fans!

[meltran]

"did you know silent hill was inspired by twin peaks!?" is, like, a fact for listicles and stuff, but i think people should actually recognize them as dealing with the same subject matter, as being inherently thematically linked. a further branch of the same ideas. this does require people to admit that silent hill is about child abuse (often csa) of course, which is impossible, because it's a Video Game.

[miyakodric]

[meltran]

i've always been guided by gnosis (again before knowing about it) and always had the sense that gathering information and data always moved closer and closer to some kind of secret revelation. i researched gnosticism on my own accord and successfully spread it as an idea because it fit with my life and goals. someone who was close to me once told me this stuff was lame. i can't seem to get that out of my head

[meltran]

i hate that ive been slowly detached from the real actual magic i used to perform unthinkingly

[meltran]

when i was a kid i performed chaos magic as a matter of course - it was a natural instinct to me that i developed without external guidance or research. in the present day i feel very grounded to material reality but at the same time ineffectual and impotent... clearly it is magical thinking that is the engine whereby i accomplish anything, despite the judgmental way that some people talk about anything outside the bounds of Correct Rational Material. but ultimately i can't just push myself back into that way of thinking either - i can't surrender myself to the fourfold vision of the hologram grid, abandon self-awareness... abandon self-awareness.

[meltran]

bitterling

[meltran]

im an open person with the psychology of a closeted person

[meltran]

Summer Vacation 1999 (1988)

[meltran]

i hate that ive been slowly detached from the real actual magic i used to perform unthinkingly

[meltran]

one more adventure...

[meltran]

awaken your delusions every single day !

[meltran]

alarming fact i discovered today: as far as i can tell, gundam wing has never been translated.

[meltran]

thinking my once-a-month meditation about the inability for people to understand gundam's critiques of american liberalism and then just shaking it off again because, as usual, peoples inability to understand it is itself part of the critique. the federation as a neutral existence that it is unthinkable to question the role of is itself a demonstration of modern political ideology... idk if it was more easily grasped in the 80s or not? certainly i'd guess people would be less likely to call you a nazi over it back then, simply because it was fiction

[meltran]

a girl draws that type of girl for the 500 girls who get it and they all silently reblog and share it and theres this web of invisible understanding that cant be described in words to reach more lost souls because in the world of words it is unthinkable and will be found and vaporized immediately. no one would ever think that. but the evidence that people think it exists through human kind

[onakaitakunaibot]

[meltran]

i'm a pure hearted heroine trapped in the prison planet full of clay jailwardens who have come to understand Pure Affection as perversion...