Mental block

Michael. 21, Sydney. I adore cats, snakes, love coffee, do a Bachelor of Contemporary Music Performance and don't know what I'm doing in life. 

[1st-1]

[meluvsyew]

Counting my loss

it's almost a month since my partner and I split. I have lost her, the house, my cats, my space, access to a car, friends, freedom.

I have gained nothing, I won't even get the deposit from the house back for a long long time so I functionally have nothing.

It just seems so unfair that she can now feel so much happier, already seeing someone, starting so fresh and new having lost nothing, while I'm just here thinking about the easiest ways to die.

[worthless-misery]

"Now I know that there's a different way to die. My body breathes. Heart still beats. But I am not alive."

The Pretty Reckless, "Follow Me Down"

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[meluvsyew]

Actually true though

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[imsadperiod]

[emanuelee]

I’m very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very tired.

[emanuelee]

I’m very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very tired.

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[sa-dnesss]

“My 20s have been the loneliest era in my life. I am surrounded by people but not connecting with anyone. Everyone is living their own lives while I am still waiting for mine to start. I feel lost between what I should be feeling and how I actually feel.”

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[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[downfalldestiny]

Stay for awhile 🍃🌅 !.

[meluvsyew]

That same old feeling

[thepoetscryforme-deactivated201]

[meluvsyew]

Doesn’t truly end