i think i might be going crazy for realizes
i looked up symptoms for schizophrenia in teens and i was like “oh shit i have all of these frequently” let me list all of them
Lack of concentration or being able to follow a train of thought: this isint new i’ve had issues remembering what i was doing in the middle of doing it before but i’d say its worse than ever before
Seeing or hearing things that aren't real (hallucinations): i cant tell you how many times i thought i saw something in the corner of my eye or thought i heard someone whisper my name
Confusing TV and dreams with reality: idk about this but sometimes my brain will have a clash with itself about if you can do it irl even though its something unbelievable.
Strange ideas that may not make sense (for example, thinking that parents are stealing things or that an evil spirit possesses him or her): alot of the time i think that one of my teachers is an evil witch who has cursed me which is why im kind of spiraling down in life
Paranoia -- thinking that people are after him or talking about him: yes, often i check behind the shower curtain on the offchance that in this really nice neighborhood someone is after my family and plans on killing them, thats part of the reason why my sleep schedule is so shit, im afraid if i fall asleep someone will kill my family and I’ll wake up alone
Dwelling unreasonably on the past: would be surprised if i told you i did this? probably not. every human does this.
Being extremely moody or irritable: yes, although thats mainly cause i’ve got autism and i get really pissed off over nothing.
Angry outbursts: again, autism makes me pissed off over nothing so yes im prone to outbursts of rage
Severe fearfulness or anxiety: didint i just go on a rant about how if i go to sleep my family will die?
Unblinking, vacant expression: cant deny, even when im pissed off i just look lifeless to most people
Awkward or unusual movements of the face or body: this ones pretty vauge but if it means eye twitching yes i sometimes get that
Talking to himself, using odd speech that you can't understand, or making rapid shifts in topics: i dont do the second one i think, but i do talk to myself often because i find the most interesting person to talk to is myself. and i do change the subject at random, although that could be because i scroll through comments and stop anyone from being an asshole to someone else and those guys like changing the topic often.
Inappropriate responses, such as laughing during a sad movie: i guess but thats mainly cause theres meme potential everywhere
Trouble "reading" social cues in others: I can see why back then Autism was usually diagnosed as schizophrenia, I've had this my whole life
Problems making and keeping friends: once again autism strikes again.
Becoming more and more isolated: definitely, i just go upstairs on my PC and do things without my family other than my brother or friends
Poor personal grooming and self-care: no on the first one, but yes on the second, i know im hungry i just dont wanna leave to go get some
Substance abuse: NO, i have never and will never do drugs.
Threatening behavior: i suppose, but mainly online because people cant go outside because corona
and yes most of this have either plagued me my whole life or have been happening for at least the entire lock down
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