𝔞𝔫𝔞'𝔰 𝔱𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔰

𝟚𝟘 • 𝟝'𝟞" 𝕙𝕨: 𝟙𝟟𝟜/𝟟𝟠.𝟡 𝕤𝕨: 𝟙𝟞𝟚/𝟟𝟛.𝟜 𝕔𝕨: 𝟙𝟛𝟠.𝟠/𝟞𝟚.𝟡 𝕘𝕨: 𝟙𝟜𝟘/𝟞𝟛.𝟝 𝕦𝕘𝕨: 𝟙𝟙𝟜/𝟝𝟙.𝟟

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welp. accidentally lost 3lbs since yesterday and hit below my gw. what now lol

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hair falling out. so upset you can literally see the spots i'm so self conscious

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one more kg left. not sure how to feel

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two years sober from 6rug$, 10 years addicted to @n@

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i feel so fucking f@t

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aha ha i gain weight so easily with a 100cal increase pls make it stop

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had long convo with my husband and putting our relationship first means doing better with this. it's been a decade of €d and my relationship needs to come first. he's everything to me and i've been slowly breaking us down more and more. i'm so torn between controlling the thoughts and urges. but he needs to come first we have to come first. i hate this.

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i want to improve my relationship w my husband and to do that i need to work on at least maintaining my cw. so im going back to work🙏 tricks me into raising my cals to meet my activity levels bc if i don't i'll have low bg (t1d) and i work in healthcare soooo that's a no go. i walk a lot more at work so honestly i think after a decade it might be time to let go a tiny bit and settle with maintenance. just balancing eating multiple times a day. doesn't have to be cal dense but just enough to get my body through the day better. i've done intensive recovery programs and my experience was hell. i refuse to go back there so i have to compromise with maintenance instead of gaining in recovery or losing intentionally :/// but hey maybe it will be better who knows. at a certain point im wondering what's next. like actually. 🪽

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type 1 diabetes and @n@ aren't friends 😞

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down 30.6lbs🥰⭐️

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i'm not in this to die, i'm in this to be pretty. my ugw would be a dream but i know my body and health issues and that's not possible. gw it is ⭐️

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going past 300cal is so upsetting i'm so done

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i have so much self control. but it's not making a difference

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down 18.9lbs ⭐️🥰

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hw 80kg

cw 65.2kg 🥰

gw 63.5kg

ugw???

so close!!!

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i refuse to be fat

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terrified of wrecking my metabolism and gaining weight back bc of my pcos. what if im not doing the right things what if i'm not eating the right things and i ruin everything. i just want to be skinny but i can live with 145 or maybe even 150 but any higher and i think i would lose my fucking shit. what am i supposed to do. "recovery" looks like gaining 30lbs. forced recovery a few years ago and i went from 130 to 180 i wanted to 💀 i cant do that again i cant live like that but what if it happens anyway and i have no control over it no matter what i do