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Fuck you Olivia for being a hypocrite and inserting yourself where you weren't wanted

Fuck you Haylea for being an inconsiderate bitch when all I tried to do was not hurt either of you despite your manipulative lying bullshit

Fuck you Zack for being someone I always have to let go of after making a fool of myself and end up hurting for but fuck it, if I choose to hurt for anyone its you

Fuck you Katherine you betraying, lying fucking bitch knowing how I feel about Saint after all we went through and can't even own up to it

Fuck you Bishop for being a back stabbing self serving fucking prick who I thought was a friend but now that you fucking need something from me don't even give a fuck you've destroyed what hope I didn't have much of while you expect me to save you

Fuck you all. You're all fucking dead to me and I hope you fuck off and out of my life soon because I am sick and fucking tired of every sorry fucking one of you. Fuck. Off.

If I had known then how traumatized I really am.. I don't know if the outcome would be the same or if maybe just one of the emotionally excruciating events wouldn't have put another dent in my psyche, but at least then I'd have the later comfort of knowing you know and that would explain much of what I'll spend the remaining time I have trying to explain or abandoning altogether because I am exhausted as much as I am disgusted. I don't know how implanting in my brain devices used for psychological torture against my consent is any less of a violent crime than rape but perhaps because it's happening to me I'm unaware of what everyone else seems to now avoid. The effects of their blatant stupidity and disregard for all things human and decent have delayed, if not almost destroyed altogether, any sustainable hope of trying to once again improve after they wrecked my mental state over and over and over again just so they wouldn't have to look like an embarrassment to all people who fell for their lies and manipulation but after what they've done to me, I no longer save face for anyone.. not even you. If I never tell you another thing just know to be subjected to the audacity of a hypocrite and a coward and the very real damage its done was not a choice I made but one that fucking fake cunt made for me and because of such, if I don't find my way back (I dont see beyond like I once did).. I did try and wanted to believe in someone but to be on the receiving end of someone's personal self issues is not sustainable for punching bags, much less a human mind that actually /feels/ and I've been disconnected and discouraged and disregarding of the feelings of those too stupid and selfish to be considerate of mine after so much work was done to try and destroy me.

But I had you in my mind and still do, though now i have to protect you in a different way (why? I suppose because I'm the biggest idiot of them all) and I want you to understand how fake some of your so called friends are and I hope I can punch one or two in the face one day. I said I loved you and I'll stick to that but that doesn't mean I'll allow that fucking lying abusive twit to not hold themselves accountable for being a coward.