'MERAKI'

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Markin’ A Territory

 I bear a desire to sink my teeth on that flesh of yours and claim your beautiful soul. “Mine”, is not the only thing I want to use but to own the entire YOU. Like the Succubus at midnight, I wish to climb your bed and whisper the words that you would love to hear, and with a slight jerk to make a  space and lean on you and kiss the bliss of my life. What devil should I become to possess your body and engulf you selfishly? Should I be Aphrodite, to commit a sin and seduce You in whole? Take this skin and hold it tight for the late drama that you will enjoy. Like a cruel bandit, you now have my heart and swore to never return it to me. Am I a fool to smile at that flaw and happily live ever after? You are the inspiration to every word of mine and yet you confuse your little mind. This is what it is my beloved man, a platter of love and lust, a scene of senseless crime.

 Grow within me to become a Rose and I shall nourish you, for there is nothing that could take you away from me for I love you more than this life of mine.

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Anoth'r

Who knew he would hold her hand and revert the time? Yet, he stood breathing next to her. She was stunned but a soft comfort smeared her anxious heart warming it gently and making it beat faster. She was still distracted by the horizon where the smirk of the Another remained undisturb. A swift breeze blew by her hair splitting into several strands in the air. She felt a warm touch arranging them and carelessly turning her face towards him. He placed his left hand on her cheek and carefully pulled it like it was a kind of a delicate tiny flower. Now her bare forehead felt warmer as he kissed it. She could hear him breathe, she could feel his right hand around her waist slowly pulling her closer, she sniffed the air around and could only find his lovely warmth and the aroma of his presence. All her fear died instantly and like a frozen ice the time froze solid, still, immobile. [To be continued…]

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ANothEr

...Sand had started to escape from her firm fist. The more she tried to hold, the more it abandoned her hand. She is staring at it, numb and clueless. Watching it slowly conjuring her. While the smirk of Another couldn’t fade and he couldn’t unwind what’s done. All she could see was that Another face on the mirror and his heart still sewn by those fragile sting. He had smiled once, back in years when she didn’t exist. She is now like his shadow, fooled by the mere lights across a street or perhaps, mocked by the star under daylight, where her existence is but a dream.

 Like a ghost at 3 lying between the dead and the living, her real role seems to be vulnerable. What stones could now she throw for she knew everything melts to the dust one day. She is glaring at the same sand melting from her fragile fist and the crust soaking every grain of it, Wishing to revert time and restart the sweet melodrama over again.... [To Be Continued]

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ANOTHER-2

 And just when the sun started to shine and there was hardly any remnants of the dark side, she saw a bleak image of another. Another that she knew she could never reflect. Well, she started to think, could she ever be that another?

 Night seemed longer than it was and now the pillows could hear her paroxysm of sobs. Her heart felt 99 shots of direct bullet piercing through it one after the other. Grey clouds of despair started to hover inside her mind. her voice getting deeper every time she attempt to speak up.

 ‘What is it?’, she heard him ask her. A woman;s heart is like an ocean, beautiful it looks from far, calm and soothing but what lies beneath that ocean no human can ever anticipate. 

 Half of her mind is fighting with the words that he spoke yet the other half still disputing with it. The very happiness she is pursuing is now frightening her to the core. He is there, waving his strong arms, and the world knew but him, that no beauty on Earth can charm her more than he did...[To Be Continued]

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Closure

Another shot of a forbidden drink What measure will it take this time? A curious mind with never bending soul How will it conquer me this time?

I see nothing but hear a voice That’s more than a simple morphing Why is it doing it over again? When I know I might fall and never get up

100 mistakes and more to make Haven’t I learnt anything by now? Still with petty hope here I present A shallow core of a demonic peasant

Hope to cure and to heal myself Sooner than it will ever take Still am scared of what I’ll sow On the Earth of the ONLY Man.

Blurry dusk I see it fade Reluctantly I’m chasing it For I may know the days and tomorrow Better to let go than to overcome

You are sweeter than any sugar I’ll meet But my dreams can’t meet our souls But if you ask me and I may answer The depth of knowledge to be unfurled

What clues to leave and what treasure you’ll find? Heaven can’t seem to understand Take this piece and swallow it now For I fear to lose this sun shine.

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Another HER

‘Run Run’, she said to herself but every step she took was heavier than the last. She could not run anymore, every single thought made her look back like he was the last breeze that would never pass by her again. ‘This is it.’, she told herself and finally caught her breath. She felt like the whole world shrinking right in front of her, like there is no light beyond the edge of another step. All that she wanted was to kiss the sweet fading eclipse; take another risk and hope to see it rise the next day. Her heart is like a turmoil right now, she can hear it louder than her breath, louder than the waves dancing next to the cliff.  One step ahead can end the dream while the other one can make a fool out of her. She is embarrassed. She is playing 100 voices on her mind yet she can only hear one. And it is bothering her like a repetitive alarm of the morning. Everything around her suddenly frightens her. Chilling every single bones and breaking every pieces of her soul. Confused there she stands like a frozen concrete beautifully arranged with tears of agony and a beating heart that doesn’t belong to her anymore… [To Be Continued]

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UNDEAD

   Hey peaceful shadow creeping on the walls of the late night Avenue,

Perfect light for you to move touching every platform of the solid fabric.

I wonder about your existence and how you have to depend on someone next to you.

No eyes to look forward, dead blind yet agile.

And I bleed like a river when I look at you.

Sweet frozen time and is still vivid;

Like the masochist clinging to it’s last hope-

Where expectation diminishes and the dawn is doomed-

Where there no ray of light to rejuvenate the soul,

And all you ever want is to leave and reincarnate.

Two decades of pain and solemn mind control:

Breaking every piece of the statue inside!!

Hey shadow, do you not feel that?

Do you not feel the heat of those eyes looking at me?

It’s freezing cold and you are too dark.

Can you not haunt someone else and let me be here?

I envy you, your coldness!

What do you know about the weight of a living heart?

All you do is walk beside me.

I envy your existence and I envy your calmness,

For only we could change sides...

Hey shadow, let me be your shadow instead, 

Let me see the world that you reside in,

Let me hold onto someone as you do,

Let me crawl on those gravel too..

For now I want to walk without a mind.

Like a vagabond; aimless.

As growing up is Heavier than I thought.

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I HAV’....

Have you felt the feeling of hatred rising inside your heart like it is boiling and melting your soul apart? Have you ever felt the feeling of falling down and you have seen no help? Have you ever  talked to yourself and smirked like an idiot? i have...

The strong hatred that pushes your will against you. That now you want to smoother it and stab it with thousand swords. But you can’t. You can’t let go. Because it won’t let you go. It is there, omni present. Smirking back at you. Letting you burn in your own hatred. You try to kill it, bury it 6 ft beneath the crust. You want to tear it, you want to eat the soul out of it but you can’t. Then you realise that it’s the only thing you think about the whole time. Your entire life is based on it. You are committed like an unbreakable bond. You have been living with it and you can’t let go anyhow. You have been trying yet you cannot. Then you see yourself that you have hated it with your deepest of your core that now you cannot dwell a moment without it. That now you are obsessed with it’s mere presence. That you have hated your whole life and now it is a part of your life. And the more you let go you accept it somehow. And then you finally appreciate it like a the best thing you ever experienced so far. The more you distance apart the more you are pulled closer. Each day, Everyday,Every moment. That now you really want to master it..Master the thing you hated.Hated more than the hate itself. And when you finally can let go forever....... You think back and find that your whole life would be meaningless.. Then you fall in love. You love the one thing you hated. And there you find yourself. Your reflection.

This is how i feel about Chemistry..

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HOME SWEE’ HELL

  Sliding from the cold and blue

He marked his way across the view.

  A subtle rage of a frozen despair;

An imprint on his chest of a slow devour.

  Swiftly he strode to shelter his scheme,

To find another ferocious victim.

  A ‘Postulant’, he proclaimed to charm the mob:

An angel’s veil; a majestic heart-throb.

  She raised her hand and caught hold of his

Guzzled the fine chalice of Hiss!!

  Years had passed and the gold still young,

But a scar of a `nail on his left arm.

  She stormed in like a Nightingale and kissed his heart.

The scar now seemed like an unbearable mark,

  Jars and glasses fell off the shelf,

Yet another fragile prey on a march.

  A dawn is a fool’s hope my dear,

You shall be raised like a finest beer.

  Here i stand holding your impeccable soul,

For this is a glamour of our sweet home..!!

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DEVOUR

I’m trying to swallow the thickest blood to pour my bloody soul in a goblet of mirror,

I’m trying to dive into the heart of an ocean,

To find a cold and numb myself.

Am i eligible to kill at please and resilience my tongue; to bind my veins with chain of molten ore;

Slyly stitch the scars of past; leave behind the raging blue flame of memories and walk away with faint steps.

No, I want you to hold me now.

Here, take my pale heart.

Drag me with your right arm,

Kiss me with your wet skin,

Paint my burning soul,

I will free you from the boundaries of liberty, I swear.

I will warm your heart and make it sweat,

I will keep you close enough to let you in.

For you could surrender your age in exchange of mine.

Pierce me with your divine desire.

Make me sleep for the next day,

Give me a painful smile,

And I shall return you tears of devotion.

Steal away my finger and conjure me forever.

Engulf me in whole and show no mercy.

But stone me with one and only, 

For I shall love you evenly after life.

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Aaaaah…! That motion of a cold hearted fish..! Astonishing it looked from far as i had assumed. It tore the ocean apart n it swimmed through the wrath of waves… I watched it swirl down the corals, Touching the ocean beneath, and soaking its dirt; it still lives..

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A soul is undoubtedly a devine energy pacing up with mind and heart. It can neither be created nor be destroyed. It is said to be pure and genuine. If a body commits a crime, is soul meant to blame for the deed? Interlinked with all the emotions, mind games, does a soul gets influenced by the things mentioned above? Mind seeks for pleasure, wisdom, knowledge;infected by conscious,unconscious,subconscious, either leads to love and war or hate and peace. But there stands a lonely heart that gives a right judgement during chaos. Good and bad is nothing but a thought emitted by the superior creature living on this planet. When the mind diminishes and the heart decays,it's a soul who face the judgement. Poor soul that knows nothing, yet cursed to embrace the body, mind and heart of a man for the penalty,unknown. Life before birth no one knows n so will the life after death, because a soul neither has a heart nor a mind to judge n distinguish the 'Rights and the Wrongs,'.... unless if it's contradicted by a religion itself.