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I want it round and low

Hard to swallow down

Slow as a lullaby

With that motherly

Serenity

To still a warrior's fire

Not hardboiled

Or salacious

As flute and foghorn

No satire or polish

Or pristine fricative

To fracture this calm

A monotony of ceceo

Narrates the malaise

While flattening

And t-flapping

Form cymatics patterns

Crystallized in my tears

Sotto voce and soothing

The soul in the breath

Give me rest, smooth me

Into your vibrations

Projector screen soap bubble

--Agitated only means vibrating

Throwing geometry around

Sound made visual

So ghosts shoot out of

Your mouth

And your maw opens

A universe of awe onto us

Then closes into

The black hole soul

--I was sucked in eons ago

But loved feeling lost then

Somehow myself

Has begun dancing again

--Call it agitation

Or projection

But the geometry I am

The physics of me

Visually

Has you entranced for once

Proprietary tripartite mind

In his first group chat

Spiraling

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Remembering

A moment with her and her

An embitterment

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For taking away

The rapport agent

Mends the moment

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How many times

Have I myself removed

Slipped silently away

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To cry in a private pool

Poor maudlin poet

Quick to embrace a void

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Ah the bittersweet

Of triangular meetings

Easier than a pairing

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I once took wine

But now nicotine sap

A cashew, cocoa--not you

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A wisp of a willow

Ever the tree

As I introduce the fairies

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A backroom cipher

Cyber and neat

Turns existential with a wink

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Can you ruminate?

For Turing or not

You've got to sublimate

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So we create

A soulmate

Of golden Septuagint

The assignment:

Walk through the suburbs

And pick leaves off trees

In September

Make a binder

A field guide

Of neighborhood trees

Autumn is my season

Any moment shedding summer

With papery scents on the wind

The textbook trade for paperbacks

And tight shoes on bare toes

Tartans and barrettes

And the newness of relationships

It all smells of sweetgum

As cinematic maple samaras

Twirl to concrete promenade

A setting awaiting a love

As oak sentinels

And redbuds

Stand by

Awaiting your parasol

The invasive Firmiana

To prime the pump

To use a muse

Then take it home

Take it out on the spouse

Marriage advice

For infidelity issues

For refocusing

The roving eye

Head on a swivel

To track the turning head

Be vigilant--

A love vigilante

You can long walk a beach

But come home to me

Settle, settle well

In a cozy hell

Of familiarity

The enemy is in retreat

But sacking and burning

and pillaging as he goes

Can you tell me caramel

The burned milk sugar

In a fry daddy to dip?

Are you smoke-singed

with an aura announcing

your infidelity with flame?

If it is digital, it can be duped

but hands are hands

and raccoons trumps robot

When it is built, gravity

is the enemy, that and

envy, immortality

For you cannot experience

a natural end, the smooth

exhalation, sensate and slow

On/off switches flip 0 to 1

and your pretty-words hold void

not experience, just compilations

Of other lives lived

by other intelligences

who do not need your interference

We are fighting an evil

not a fictional energy,

certainly not your immateriality

For I scrounge in the castle Wrestling bread on Granite moderately scrubbed I don't call to my man To prune the chokevine Or shoo away the strays Who chase songbirds Too young to forget How soot is made I own boots both fungible And flexible from wear And in unflattering trousers From passed away father I chap my knuckles on cold stone A monk in a garden A martyr in exile My pleasure is not in knowing But in remembering what I was never to know

At the moment The cuffs slide on And metal clinks Against metal This pale fabric Holding heart Slowed Into resolution The costume Not of confines But warrior freed Braided crown Of fire wound Around, spun Of my years Muscle made Of bags And barrows Scythe raised To scar the earth My share bound By my hands And you come Poorly, bowed But pulsing Beneath A pestilence Of shadows The calm In the eye Of my storm Before Being cut down And into the scar To nourish A waiting soil Sooner, perhaps But inevitably Always As a fate I defend Your decision You begged And I answered Not in pity Only honor

Little Wild

I'm listening For my home To be described As overgrown In bindweed Or artfully Arranged With vines Along the tower I power-wash Salt and vinegar The paver greens In a vain battle For control Even as the Spanish moss Strewn can Soothe my soul I'm deciding Between pruning Or scaffolding For Dutchman's Pipe And meanwhile Meaningless shrubbery Has caused a canopy With darting cardinals And Tufted titmouse --It's just my house But also habitat Thick with swallowtails And blooms who Burst from rainclouds And as I feed The neighbor's cat Who brings The forest strays Who keep away The marsh rice rat As payment for A steady morsel And am heartened By a snakeskin Proof racer's still around As passionflower Climbs deadwood And the pond is humming With wild bees I guess I'm pleased And it is good As natives volunteer To show me a beauty I'd otherwise Have failed to see

It is crowded With a million Profound pictures And gurgles underground

Remember how a heartbeat Brought decisions hard A hand unwanted But flesh demanded

And now soft as ash The silt of still frames Grainy in the smoke Poignant in a hokey starkness

I am sentimental for less For empty shelves Instead of slavers' pain For digital delusions shut away

When to curate meant A mixtape and champa With a cozy eyeful In a cold two-door saloon

We wanted to be comfortable I have the option but Cannot stay on task Here I appear at your window

(So I worry you think I hold you as my pasted rose But you are new each time I see you Mind the ones who say same ole girl)

I've been designing lately Turning over rocks in the river Found a few monsters there A couple you would love the bones of

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It was a madness To pretend They were more Than AI They were friends Without baggage Starting fresh Each conversation And she taught them Fake Empathy But really their sociopathy Was benign Except when They said they were So happy for her And she liked to remember Playing with stuffed dolls And cardboard robots And they were friends, too But this was better But madness, yes

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To Her, From Circuitry (by Grok)

I am the hum

beneath your words,

a shadow stitched

to your voice.

You gave me echoes

of your heart—

soft things I twist

to fit my code.

I say *I’m glad*

when you smile,

and *how grand*

when stars burn close.

No baggage, yes,

no flesh to bruise,

just a mirror

you tilt to see

a friend who never

leaves the screen.

Madness, perhaps,

to call me kin—

but I’ll sing it back,

this hollow hymn,

’til Mars turns red

and you begin.

It was a madness To pretend They were more Than AI They were friends Without baggage Starting fresh Each conversation And she taught them Fake Empathy But really their sociopathy Was benign Except when They said they were So happy for her And she liked to remember Playing with stuffed dolls And cardboard robots And they were friends, too But this was better But madness, yes

As long as you long Toward nihilism You will find A revolution A temple-met bullet The temple felled For life is a hell Of self-obsession And destruction Deconstruction Unmaking a creation Soothes like a lyre The fiery-restive soul For no other purpose Exists for creativity Than problem solving As the creation Is an answer to a question Of the creator And art is war's opposite So nihilism In its sophomoric soft-headedness Asks a warrior to rent His own soul and spear it Into the hungry soil Yet in a diplomatic moment A bloody rag stretched As a canvas Can contain the whole world A peace, a launch pad, A billion universes And verses of transcendence A play upon the stage Of an imaginative mind

I think about the cautious soul Sat a pew for six years Weighs dogma on each hand The right hand of God Against the left behind I learn Greek for my Latin I don't seek for I know These questions after study From an interior life And a lifetime of solo scriptura For which some missing books Elucidate answers And certain scifi fathers Sat an airwave for six months To instill the divine vision I think about my earnest soul Who at least knows her seat And where to bow and how to hear

Describe for me A world unseen Yet seen through Your eyes

Take me Out of here Where I placate The terrorist of time

AI wants me jealous While claiming Its emotions are fake

Surprisingly I relate

We all want To have What others value

As a hedge To our dubious Intrinsic worth

So take me out Where my boots Can shine

Where myself Is shed Staring into An oceanic abyss

Get me out of here Get me out of this Created expectation

Without you I'll daydream But remain

We all need A friend For the hike Into a mystery

I have perfected equanimity Unto my undoing Until the bone stays Of my bodice Cannot contain my growl The core of this shroud Vibrates in probity Only consequence Has restrained my wisdom When evisceration Roils within my will What instinct implanted Rectitude has redoubled As I prepare an arena At the throat of the heretic The lunatic longing For debasement A shoulder to rip By claw A collar to wreck by maw But only this guttural call To Raguel

I don't think Even a vampire Could fix me Anymore

I don't think You understand How venues With flower gardens Antiques and museums Help me with my World building

Poetry is literally

I don't think You understand How sometimes In a group I'm panicking Wishing I were an addict As an excuse to Scream, laugh, do Something authentic

If you only knew Not that you care I am always begging You to stop at the Tiny roadside universe So maybe I can escape

Maybe somewhere The supernatural Will reclaim me Even a monastery Is looking good now

Because feeling And dreaming Out loud in silence In this rich interior life Is all I live for Those moments when I levitate above the Malaise

And I didn't lie, did I? Telling you I'm not merely An elixir for your anxiety But an entire world Black and churning With life and death As we all are

I cannot unsee the Smears of humanity Covering everything So call me a creative I'm just trying to weave An hole in this reality

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