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How I philosophized with a hammer

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Yay cat is alive he came back thank you God

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I'm sad because the cat hasn't been around in a few days therefore almost certainly dead, sometimes I go a while without seeing him but can tell he's around and alive because his food bowl empties and I have to refill it, it's stayed the same since last sighting therefore almost certainly dead.

:-(

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Feel so frustrated at so much nothing it just doesn't happen, no yes no no, painful feeling reactivated longing for what? Physical contact with other person - beautiful young woman in particular, who I have feelings for. How frustrating. I have a lot of funny photos of myself no serious ones. I look handsome in the funny ones (some) but don't want women to think I have a sense of humor about myself. Women on dating apps which I've never used and have no desire to use but would like to get laid again someday. Love probably impossible. I am subscriber actually to idea of "lover" category, brief romance WITH TIME LIMIT.

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Tintin calendar for August by Hergé

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I think being pretentious being even contrarian is a positive instinct. Most of the time if masses say one thing the opposite is true. Don't worry about theories and philosophizing, follow this pattern and you'll have correct ideas most of the time.

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Must just be because of e-crowd I surround myself with and have for entire individual life but it's always very odd to me how sensitive people are about nazism and racism and shit. Like people cheering about Nico being dead "because she was a Nazi." What? Saw some post of this then annoyed went offline again. "She was racist she sang Deutschland Uber Alles." Who cares? Even if I was black or jewish I don't think I'd care. I listen to tons of music made by jews and black people and have no illusions about them liking me or thinking white people are cool. I know they don't. But who cares the song goes hard.

And so funny it's basically known all of these rock stars fucked 14 year old girls, every great gay author of the last century fucked 10 year old boys in North Africa. It's all forgiven. Someone has a racist opinion and it's the end of the world. Some fringe musician has a racist aesthetic and it's the end of the world not a politician or a wealthy lobbyist or anything like this some nobody makes a song that no one listens to and its the end of the world.

There are probably more people in the world who know about Death in June and don't listen to them, are opposed to Death in June and make "call out" posts, than there are Death in June fans and supporters. This shit really is nothing. And Death in June is kind of lame now, why? Because people sort of know about it now, because larper faggots are claiming Death in June.

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Thwarted.

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Damn it all, Damn it all, Damn it all.

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Wow what letdown she left we won't marry I guess

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Argh I'm a coward beautiful Hispanic woman I couldn't bring myself to say "tu es una mujer bonita", shall I return and marry her? She's madly in love with me of course. I had to think really hard to remember this in Spanish, and I'm madly in love with her too, especially her charming strange speech impediment accent you know what I'm talking about. Before I talked to her I didn't know if she'd speak English at all and then I'd have to open with my one sentence. Which may have been better but she spoke English damn it all!

I'm so tan I thought today I look like if a Latino person was White (my bone structure and things) and I got my hair cut the other day by this Cuban guy and he was the exact opposite he was so pale he looked like a vampire. I mean, he was the same in the opposite way.

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Walk around in stupid city remember how true from Special Plan

There is nothing to do

There is no place to go

There is nothing to be

There is no one to know

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Uninteresting

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I'm never up partying or talking to friends or even playing video games so often I want to fall asleep and lay down at a reasonable hour just cannot.

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I couldn't sleep at all last night I didn't sleep nerves are fried I'm sitting out here drinking coffee and the birds are pissing me off birdsong makes me feel like I'm in a war.

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No good comparing self to others but does give me funny feeling to remember that most people are basically happy.

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Nothing to do so much fucking time