Unknown Future

[metalgavin]

Interview Day

Today I had an interview at a greenhouse 23 miles away from my house. I would be taking a $2 pay cut and driving almost 10 more miles a day to work tho they seemed to like me a lot and the General Manager said “you get a gold star” and the owner seemed to think I would be a good fit for the position. Assistant Grower was the position I applied for tho it seems I would be the “jack-of-trades”, fixing various things, running the tractor and just helping out wherever needed. I do like the sound of that but with the added commute and pay decrease (from what I was making) I really need to either make this work by either spending less or impress the hell out of them so they give me a raise ASAP. My other two options I see would be to find a job closer to home or move closer to them tho that could bring in its own challenges because It is not a major city by any means with a population of just over 12,000 people or that could be a good thing because well Fuck the city. I grew up in a city of almost 1.5 million people and the city I live in now is almost 91,000 people. I am hoping it becomes something good and not something bad. 

Still in an Unknown Future

[metalgavin]

Attempting to file for unemployment and my first hang up is knowing the exact date I started at a company that I worked for over two and a half years. After that company I started at the one that fired me for over nine months. Who in the hell knows the exact date they started and ended at a company that was almost four years ago?

[metalgavin]

I have an anger problem. I blow up when frustrated. I do not have a constructive outlet for my anger. It has effected my family and friends. I have become the thing I hate. My anger controls my actions and that should never happen. I react to little things in a big way. When I need help the most I let my anger control.

[metalgavin]

Day 1

My name is Gavin. I just got fired from my job in the landscape maintenance industry. I had been working in this field for about 4 years over the course of 3 companies. I worked retail before that for almost 10 years . I have a wife and a daughter under 2 years of age and I was the only source of income for our family. I feel as tho my overt honesty has lead me to think that who I worked with were my friends. I was wrong. I am very unsure of what the future holds in 2020. As of January 29th, 2020 I am in a position that not only effects me but my wife and daughter. I know it will become a serious reality very soon as soon as our money is depleted. our Taxes are soon to be filed and that will help for the time being but it is not a cure. We are being gifted a Volvo SUV soon and we are looking into a camper trailer and possibly moving/traveling and seeing where that takes us. We are taking this upset in our lives and hoping it becomes something very positive for our families future. 

This is my Story.