Life Of A MF GDESS

I found a pot of gold somewhere over the rainbow & thought I'd share some with the rest of the universe.

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Knight of Cups

** Feel free to skip the descriptions if you already know about it, I got them from “https://labyrinthos.co/blogs/tarot-card-meanings-list/knight-of-cups-meaning-tarot-card-meanings”. It isn’t exactly the same as what my coworker mentioned, but it’s pretty close **

Knight of Cups Tarot Card Description

The Knight of Cups is a card which depicts a young knight who is gloriously riding a white horse while at the same time holding a cup as if he is a messenger of a certain sort. Unlike the Knight of Wands or the Knight of Swords, this particular one isn’t charging along with his horse. He is instead moving slowly forward which provides the entire setting an overall impression of peace and calmness. The horse is known to represent one's drive, energy, and power. The horse's color is white, which is a well-known symbol of spirituality, light, and purity. 

Upright Knight of Cups Meaning

The truth is that the Knight of Cups is the most feminine amongst all the Knight cards in the tarot. It's important to note though, that this doesn’t even slightly suggest that he is any less of a worthy knight. It implies that he is in proper touch with his emotions and his intuition, and that he uses them for his own well-being and during his many romance and seduction quests. He is usually quite attractive and charming to others, regardless of their gender. When faced with an actual decision, the Knight of Cups is going to listen to his heart, regardless of whether this is actually a logical choice or not. He can also manifest as an event or a person in your life, or a part of your own self. He appears as a messenger – and with him, he carries an invitation or an arrival of something or someone which is going to have a certain emotional benefit for you. As a knight, he is also charged with taking the gifts of his suit, and bringing it outward into the world. He therefore can also represent the undertaking of some project with significant emotional or creative value for you.

So for those that don’t know, my mom was in a really bad car accident sometime last month that left her in critical condition. (I’ll elaborate on that a different day when I’m more settled with my feelings.) But yeah, my coworker/friend just got into tarot reading and has been doing sample readings around the guard shack on people personalities. She lays down four cards: first representing the present you, second representing the one who (will) help(s) you, third representing the one who (will) oppose(s) you, and fourth representing the future you. This reading reminded me a lot of my boyfriend because whether or not we are in the same room together or miles apart, he has been the one to be there for me emotionally. The “Knight of Cups” didn’t necessarily have to be a boy/man in my life (could’ve been a girl/woman), but the way my friend explained it, the first person to come to mind was my boyfriend. Gilbert, since the start, has always been one who tackles situations will logical emotion. I have no idea how he does it, but he does it. (I’m definitely one or the other. If I’m emotional there’s no way you’re gonna get any logical sense out of me. And if I’m tryna be logical, I’ve got no emotion, it just is what it is.) In addition to Gilbert being open hearted with my mom’s situation and how it has affected me and my family, he has been the one to help keep my emotions from taking over each other. I get stressed a lot with things that go on at home with my siblings, my cousins, my stepdad, my aunt, and my dog, along with work and getting enough sleep then trying to eat properly without gaining too much weight. (Because food is pretty much the only thing that makes me happy whenever.) On the other hand, there are so many things that I get happy about, like being able to travel and visit family (SF, shoutout if you’re reading this), attending my first Gen Beauty, my sister (Jazmine) going into her first year of high school, and friends/family graduating. 

With all these events and people, basically what I’m saying is... 

Gilbert is my emotion handler and because of him I’m cruising through summer with a mindset that I am content with my life whether things happen for good or bad.

[mfgdess]

Is it possible to be in love but unhappy?

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Whats your ethnicity your absolutely stunning dear?

Filipina 🤗

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Was feeling pretty low today, but during my last class I doodled some happy thoughts to cheer myself up before the night ends. Which one stands out to you? Being happy all the time is hard, but thinking about things in a more positive light can definitely shine on a whole new perspective. Try being your own happiness, instead of pushing to be the happiness of others. It might surprise you, others can feed off your happiness. It’s contagious.

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Great start! So far.

It’s been a great start to my 4th year of college and I hope the blessings continue coming through. It’s been tough the past few weeks trying to get back into a routine with school and work, but it’s been a good tough.

Classes started on Sept. 21 and trying to get into my waitlisted classes was a struggle, I didn’t get all of them but I’ll do with whatever I can get. Along with school starting I’ve also started training at my new job as a Swim Instructor and returned to my other job as a Cashier on the campus’ dining hall.

I’ve been a lifeguard and swim instructor since 2012, but training at this new company as a swim instructor is definitely more difficult than what I’m used to. I can’t really say much on how they run things as it’s “confidential” but let’s just say that they’re known to be the best for a ton of good reasons. I’m already loving it there, with the benefits I get and how welcoming the rest of the company is to new hires. I literally look forward to work every day, I didn’t realize how much I miss working with kids and being able to see how happy their parents get when they get to watch their child’s progress overtime. Did I mention we also get bonuses and cool shit? When I found out about this after my interview, you know for damn sure I was going to work my ass off trying to impress them in hopes that they will want to keep me and make me an official employee. [ I say that in all honestly, cause trainees be getting fired left and right for sucking. ] The job may not seem so serious to others, but trust it’s not the easiest. Not saying that you need to be experienced in swimming, but when you’re working you are liable for the students’ safety and be able to deal with kids who are stubborn, kids who are cryers, kids who love to scream in your ear, kids who never want to listen to you, etc.. With that said, not once can you get mad or frown, I mean you can, but know that you’re being evaluated and your families might not want to come back to you as an instructor.

On the other hand, my other job on campus is pretty chill. I greet people coming in and going out, stock what needs to be stocked, transact whatever transaction needs to be transacted for people to go upstairs and eat. I can only work so many hours as a part-time employee so 2 jobs are necessary for me since I’m pretty much all on my own now and don’t receive financial aid from school or parents.

Onto the more fun stuff away from work (cause I have fun at work too), I saw Tinashe and R.L. Grime in concert on my college campus and had another 21st birthday celebration with my girls, Bad&Bougie. BOTH WERE LIT AF. One of my oldest best friends turned a year older at Disneyland WOOP WOOP. [ Shoutout to Yajo! We need more of those Cove Bar Chocolate shots. ] And congrats to Barkada’s Bayan-E Board on their First General Meeting, I’m honored to have been chosen to MC for ya’ll!

Good luck to everyone back in school!

Stay safe and prayers to everyone around the world who has passed may you RIP and to those who have lost someone dear to them. I know a lot of people from back home who are affected by the recent shooting in Vegas and by Hurricane Maria in Puerto Rico. 

[mfgdess]

Blessed with the best friends ❤️🙌🏽 Thanks for spoiling me Bad&Bougie 💋

[mfgdess]

Bleh! School’s Back in Session...

Well not yet at least, got a couple more days. BLESS UP!

As you can tell I’m super stoked for classes to start back up...NOT! If you knew OF me in high school, I was those try hards, got (A)mazing grades, was part of a bunch of clubs, sucked up to teachers for extra credit, hated being late to class, and hung out in a classroom during lunch to do homework. However, if you ACTUALLY knew me in high school, me trying hard was being really good about plagiarizing papers, I got average grades (Chemistry and Calculus kicked my ass), being a part of a bunch of clubs was for the free food and the shirt you got with your membership fee (LOL), sucking up to teachers was begging them to round up my grade from a B or C to an A (never happened), I skipped class a lot once I became a senior (I’d call myself out and act all FOB to sound like my mom, but Freshman - Sophomore year I actually did hate being late to class), and I only hung out in classrooms to either avoid the Bakersfield heat or being social.

*** NOTE #1: I’m going to be a 4th year majoring in Human Resources & Management AND I still suck at English grammar and shit like that.

*** NOTE #2: I was born in America and English was my first language then Tagalog. 

Anyways, yeah I actually loathe schooling. I’d rather just work but nowadays unless you’re tech savvy or super comfortable being in front of a camera and talking to yourself then you seem to cruise through life a little easier than the rest of us (but I know it’s more than what’s on the surface, we all got our struggles), so to make up for my lack in creativity I’m trying to get a degree to get paid just a little more than minimum wage and hope it’ll maintain my present and future expensive lifestyle. LOL.

[mfgdess]

"Acknowledging vulnerability is the forefront of courage."

CG. ROSE