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I’m so frustrated I don’t understand any of it I just don’t get it at all I’m rereading things over and over and I still don’t understand what they’re trying to say why is it so vague I thought I understood this but I really don't

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hi angyl ^_^

dming is so scary when do i do it how many messages do i send what language should it be in

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there’s an old anon from my main who I miss terribly and I feel really bad about it because not only do I not really know them on a personal basis but I also feel like I scared them away because they never send me asks anymore and they started sending less when I started venting on main and I’m terrified that I upset them or something. I miss them really badly and I feel stupid for it ghhhhhh I really liked it because I felt like someone was. super interested in me as a person and stuff I guess? and I wanted to talk to them too and I got excited whenever I learned something new about them and I don’t think I’d even care if they never sent me a gimmicky ask again as long as I could talk to them somehow. It’s nice to be able to say it here at least because it’s less likely they’ll see it and I’d feel awful if I scared them away even more

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sometimes I wish I could forget something completely very quickly so I could send myself an anonymous message or something (on main) and then forget about it and then I get to respond under the impression someone else was curious enough about me to ask. which is dumb and also kind of ungrateful since I already get sweet asks from oomfs on main, many of which have very nice questions that I can kind of tell they only sent in for the sake of trying to show me someone is interested at least

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sometimes (specifically on main) I think about sending myself asks on anon so I look more interesting because it looks like more people find me interesting/like me and then my friends/mutuals might want to talk to me more or say nice things about me or something, but I know that’s dumb and maybe a little manipulative? so anyways I don’t do it. Ghhhhh

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I don’t really know how to help anyone no matter how badly I want to

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I hate feeling romantically or sexually attracted to people it makes me feel like a stupid annoying pervert idiot ESPECIALLY when I see people talking about how “in a relationship, girls want x, and boys want y” because I know it is stupid and dumb but it still makes me feel terrible and awful because it makes me feel like everyone else will always see as something I’m not because of how I feel. I don’t know i can’t word anything right

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im being hypocritical here but whenever someone replies to a vent post or something and I look and it’s an emoji I get. so upset

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I feel so stupid comforting other people sometimes. I feel like they can tell I’m just mimicking other people and I don’t actually know what I’m supposed to do

#I much prefer being able to give like actual advice #or being able to do research that might help them #because im scared normal comfort just makes all the ways i dont understand others very very obvious #i dunno #this is only sometimes btw. there are certain circumstances where normal comfort actually isnt too difficult for me #or something maybe idk the words #dafdgskhxjlfkrs;#aw man

it pisses me off so bad when someone is saying something and i can TELL they want a specific response from me and are only saying that thing the way they’re saying it so I’ll respond the way they want me to. Of course I usually give them the response they want anyway because I don’t want to be mean + the response they’re clearly looking for is something I would want to say anyway if they said this in a way where they weren’t looking for it. and my frustration is hypocritical anyways because sometimes I say things a certain way in hopes someone will respond in a specific manner too

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I can be kind of mean in my head sometimes

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