how weird! to be noticed, and known!

siffrin + he/him ❤︎ my best friend EVER is elix!!!

[microwavedasphalt]

⊹ ࣪ ˖ introduction .✦ ݁˖

⟡ i'm siffrin, he/him and something between a fictive and a fictokin, but not really that important. i'm also personally nonbinary (+ isamasc) & arospec, i don't care to narrow down my labels past that.

⟡ we're a system, and alternate between using we/our and i/my. (mostly depends on the situation, if i'm talking about myself or the system as a whole). we do have a pluralspace! if you'd like to be added just ask.

⟡ my best friend is elix (@/lalalalalix), important to include. i talk to it the most and it will stay that way for the foreseeable future!!!

⊹ ࣪ ˖ disclaimers .✦ ݁˖

⟡ follow up disclaimer! arthur is fine, he's just not around right now, for whatever reason. he'll be back soon enough! please do not treat me as if i am arthur, it's uncomfortable and kind of weird.

⟡ another disclaimer, we've got bpd! really bad too! this isn't an excuse for any Behavior i might exhibit, just an explanation. and also a request to be a bit more understanding with me for some things (the severe and awful abandonment issues).

(userboxes by @/webrosestar)

⊹ ࣪ ˖ interests .✦ ݁˖

i am a big fan of a few things, but not the same things as arthur, so sorry if i don't seem as enthusiastic

⟡ isat (special place in my heart) (makes me suicidal)

⟡ space & the stars. i appreciate them aesthetically and knowledgably.

⟡ ...and i can't really remember anything else! this will be a reoccurring thing.

(also! the stinkeri files is...fine. i'm not personally into it or attached to it. sorry, you'll have to go to arthur for that.)

(userboxes by me)

⊹ ࣪ ˖ epilogue .✦ ݁˖

it's nice to be back (kind of), and its nice to "meet" everyone! if you got any questions, just ask! i'd say i just won't answer the invasive ones, but that's sort of my specialty. in any case! it'll be nice talking to you all until arthur gets back! i'll be sure to still pop in from time to time when he does, heh. ₊ 𖥔 ݁ ˖

[microwavedasphalt]

hi

hiiiii

[lalalalalix]

[microwavedasphalt]

hey if youre wondering how fucking weird elix is. they dont remember 99% of what you’d say on call, or how your voice sounds. but they VIVIDLY remember the EXACT way you’d say their name when you went like "eeeeeelix!" and i KNOW they vividly remember it because they keep on repeating it in my head so all i fucking hear is them saying their name in YOUR voice. because they miss you or whatever. this is really annoying. and sorry if telling you this is more werid but i assume it’s better than a stupid vaugepost about it.

hey dont be mean to elix!

and also thats really wonderful i’m SMILING actually thats cute and funny and NOT weird or at the least not any weirder than me remembering its laugh vividly for similar reasons.

[microwavedasphalt]

i have a bad habit of referring to myself as old names its really funny

[microwavedasphalt]

i can headcanon any character as intersex

[flowerbleedme]

t-shirt that says "LOW SUICIDE RISK"

[kaylmao]

think about how many people had sandwiches today and didn't give you a bite. doesn't it make you mad? doesn't it make you want to rip and tear until there's nothing left?

[lastoneout]

I just checked and it turns out you still can't hate yourself into a version of you that you can love. I know we were all hoping they'd fixed that but nope, offering unconditional compassion to your flawed self is still the only way to improve. The sweet relief of self-inflicted punishment isn't gonna cut it. Super fucked up, I know, but we carry on.

[microwavedasphalt]

you know i really have to get less impulsive (incapable) (bpd) because i dont even REMEMBER why i wanted to kill myself

[motherblackcap]

"there's no platonic explanation for this" oh so you think the characters are aplatonic too? how cool that we share the same headcanon! 😊 we should discuss—oh wait... you're just using that phrase because you can't see them as anything other than romantic ☹️ that should count as false advertising. don't get my hopes up like that again

[eternal-stuck]

OK HI I L OVE YOUR PAXES THEYRE CUTE AS HECK THIS IS ME GETTING CUTENESS AGGRESSINO........

HI !!!!! THANK YOU!!!!! I'M RLY GLAD!!!!

[microwavedasphalt]

i dont have to finish the fanfic, hah! i don’t have to finish anything. it doesnt end. nothing ends. dont tell me it ends.

[microwavedasphalt]

i know its a bpd thing but it still sucks. acknowledging the root doesn’t take it away. constant reassurance only gives you a break for so long. it really really fucking sucks to feel fundamentally unimportant in peoples lives and have it proved over and over again. it really sucks to take everything as a sign as abandonment. it really sucks to experience symptoms. it really! fucking! sucks!

[microwavedasphalt]

are you going to sleep soon? genuinely asking i want to know if i should finish this now or tomorrow because if youre sleeping soon ill wait till tomorrow

who knows. i probably should but im awake right now.

[microwavedasphalt]

i really do my best to make sure all of my friends know they are cared about i just really really have to ignore how much little effort is put in for me

[autopsyfreak]

trying to explain that cluster b disorders don’t make anyone inherently ‘evil’ to people on the internet.