The Script of Life

25 // getting by // dreaming big "Two roads diverged in a wood, and I, I took the one less travelled by, And that has made all the difference." Places I want to go, people I want to meet, feelings I want to feel, and dreams I want to dream...this is a girl's escape from reality. Life's an empty page, and here is mine. What fills it up? My happiness. Welcome to my book.

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[framesoffame]

[nyc-subway]

[lifeofaliceai]

[midnightexpresso]

The Drive-In

You sat in the backseat of your car, my head lay on your lap with my legs curled up on the seat beside you. The soundtrack was blaring through your radio, tuned in to the screen that was showing some movie I wasn't paying attention to. 

I looked up at you and watched your face creep up into a sly smile as you leaned down to kiss me. There was a moment, words on my tongue that kept turning themselves over and over, experimenting with different variations of how to present themselves. I couldn't say them just yet, so I turned my head back to the screen and tried, in vain, to pay attention to the movie with heavy-lidded eyes. 

It was several minutes later that I awoke to the feeling of your hands slowly tracing the shape of me, an absentminded habit of yours that I love. I turned up to you again and this time, my words tumbled so easily out between my lips as though they were waiting to be spoken. 

The look on your face, though hidden in the darkness of your car, was one that I could picture with my eyes closed. Surprise, adoration, perhaps a little bit of reservation. 

You are someone I connect to with every part of my mind and soul. To be able to simply lay with my head in your lap is a small piece of happiness that I wouldn't trade away for the world. 

So for the one person who healed me, who saved me, who wonders how he captured me... I found you, I chose you and yes, I love you.

[worldsbestphotographs]

[newmexicosky]

[arjuna-vallabha]

Newari courtyard, Nepal

[hinducosmos]

Kathmandu Durbar Square (via Instagram: Jesus Sayar)

[tarczaroja]

Someone told me “Always say what’s on your mind”

[tarczaroja]

“Don’t you tell me what you think that I should be I’m the one at the sail, I’m the master of my sea”

[tarczaroja]

“Hoping my feelings, they would drown but they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing, inhibited, limited, till it broke open and it rained down”

[yvii7books]

Now And Then | Miami

[ambiguities]

“Cloud Study”, John Constable, 1822

via weheartit

[bakwaaas]

[camlampinen-deactivated20210306]

Everest and Nuptse at dawn.

[midnightexpresso]

The Break-up

In the circumstances we are in, it seems at first glance that you came out of our relationship a step ahead of me, after all you’ve already moved on to another girl while I am still here alone

But I’m the one who’s faring better, don’t you see?

I lost someone who didn’t even love me anymore, but you? You lost someone who loved you so wholly and completely that no other love on this planet could compare

I lost someone who wasn’t willing to fight to keep me, but you lost someone who would walk to the edges of the universe on her bare feet to prove her love to you

I lost someone who kept me feeling uncertain of the future, but you lost someone who sacrificed their breath to blow the air under your wings

I was left alone while you invited another into your heart. Your insecurities have been made so evident, while mine have been put to a peaceful rest

I discovered my true worth and independence, and realized what my purpose is here in this lifetime. 

I finally go to sleep at night in peace with my psyche.

If I asked you how you sleep at night, would you be able to say that guilty thoughts of my broken glass face don’t take over your mind?

If I asked you who you truly are, would you be able to say that you are a good person?

But you know what the biggest difference is?

I lost a boy

And you lost a woman