Lies and deceptions

[midnightfolliesandrants]

I’d like to leave. Been wanting to leave. 

People judge quickly---thinking you’re someone insensitive...

[midnightfolliesandrants]

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He was sitting at the corner--I , on the other.

                                               I pretended to draw him

                               because that's what most people knew that I do.

               An excuse, I know---one that I'll never speak of...

               So that my heart can say  it loves to draw...

                               .....and not the man on the paper .

[midnightfolliesandrants]

I'm starting to ache for the bitterness of beer  ,

trying to imagine the taste of tobacco on my tongue, 

my head is hazy, in need of calmness---

that's when I started to realize, adulthood is such a mess.

[midnightfolliesandrants]

“From a distance, all I ever did was look--and look. Waiting for a glance, a small smile. And when you look back, I hide--hide so you wouldn't see, keeping myself hidden, ignoring the pain in my chest, the heady feeling of vagueness. 

A glimpse is enough to keep me breathing, move closer and I'll run away. Away so you will never know---even after this lifetime and another, you will never know. That I have loved you, no.... will always love you---and I know you will never do.”

[midnightfolliesandrants]

Blasphemy! Traitor! Liar! They screamed,

As my eyes bulged and my teeth grit,

My blood rose, boiled and gleamed,

You know nothing about my reality, not one bit!

 My silence is cowardice, same as my noise,

My strength is my wit, but you said it was vice,

You spoke of peace, truth, love and respect,

But acted in lies and deceit, hatred when I object.

 Ingrate! Fool! Disgraceful you are, child!

Cursed my existence, and my soul defiled,

I took your hand, and a dagger I placed,

End it now! End it now! End it now...and make haste!