米 格 尔

(un) heard stories

[miigeer]

my flatmates and i are becoming crazy because of this lockdown. we all just bleached our hair and wanting to go blonde.

[miigeer]

cooked some pasta after lying down in bed for more than 12 hours. the lockdown is helping me develop my culinary skills.

[miigeer]

should i still pursue living in japan?

[miigeer]

it was just too much. i never asked for a toxic relationship and i will never settle in one.

thank you, next.

[miigeer]

i've only been self-isolating for less than 48 hours but it feels like a week passed already. i want to go out and buy my tea. i miss work too.

[miigeer]

i know i need to be patient but when is my COVID-19 test result coming?

[sp-lit]

I like being alone.

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone. I like riding the bus  alone, and walking home alone. It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.

[miigeer]

first, it was an email from glossom saying that they favourited one of my works. now, i have wellington underground film festival informing me they’ll showcase my short films!

i will do my best to be there when the festival begins to experience it personally. i know. i am so excited and happy that I can’t help but grin like an idiot while typing this!

[miigeer]

do you ever feel,

like you don’t know what’s going on anymore. like you don’t care about anything anymore.

you’ve lost motivation to do anything. your mind is set on too many things that you are confused about your feelings and you can’t explain how you feel either. 

the feeling of emptiness and feeling that barely anyone is there for you. feeling that no one understands you anymore. and it seems like there is nothing to look forward to anymore.

[miigeer]

the family had decided to move out again.

we are currently looking at a property in town and i hope the owner will be too kind to allow us rent his place. to be honest, i feel like this is a great decision for us.

why? because ever since we moved here in rototuna, our family has been in disorder.

we occasionally got into fights. our family time decreased, etc.

i really appreciate and enjoy living here as it is really quiet, peaceful, and safe. i also do feel living in luxury since we are surrounded by ‘rich’ people. however, i feel it a good time for us to move.

new place, new year, new chapter for us.

[miigeer]

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

C.S. Lewis