Mikey's bit

Random shizz, maybe interesting, probably not!

[mikeysbit]

Anxiety

Almost crying in the doctors while she asks if you’ve ever felt like self harming is possibly the must humblest and depraving thing i have ever done

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bye

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FORGET THE THOUSAND MONKEYS ON A TYPEWRITER EVENTUALLY WRITING SHAKESPEARE THIS IS THE REAL MASTERPIECE 

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AND IF YOU LOOK CLOSELY YOU CAN SEE THAT IT ISNT DONE YET IT GOES ON HOLY SHIT

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hurr

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Bringing sexy back! Sometimes...

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Well i was wrong.

I though i could start a tumblr and keep it up, because i'd be recovering, i'd be spending loads of time on it. I haven't too much fun, out of and in my bedroom! Man, it's good to almost be back to who i was!

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As if,

As if i got the job, as if i get to watch the Lions tour in Australia, as if it's beautiful, as if i can't wait to meet up with old friends, as if uni is 3 months away.

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Getting better...and better.

Had a job interview on Thursday at an outdoor activity centre, went amazing. It's a dream job, with nice people. On top of that, it's sunny and i get to take my dogs on long walks through the stunning countryside that i live in! If things get any better...  

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Lose, lose.

How do you tell a friend that they are making a mistake? Even though they think it's the right thing. Even worse, it makes them happy...

Hopefully, i'll be wrong.

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Yup

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Always, always let it out.

If you ever have anything wrong, you need to find a friend who will be there to listen, you will always feel better

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Guess i was right

So earlier I questioned my wisdom about my decision to try and get away from my friend. She sure as hell reassured me tonight. The worst part is, she won't even notice my absence. I'll be hurting for a while to come.

Good times.

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Shannon Noll-What about me.mp4

I DO NOT OWN THIS

What about me?

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Perfect for me.

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It's a long road

So, today I told a good friend that I don't want them come up and visit me. I did this because I feel like in a depressed state all I do is depend on them for attention and love. I have other friends, why should I reserve and give so much for so little in return from just her. We only become close when she needs me, we go for years without talking until something changes in her life and she comes to me asking for guidance, as i am several years her elder. 

So, when by pure chance I finally open up to someone, her of all people, she tells me she isn't in the mood. I don't think she realises how much effort and feeling I put into helping her when she got down but she sure as hell doesn't reciprocate it. 

Did I do the right thing? Telling her she can't come up and visit? Telling her that we only talk when she needs me. She replied saying that it's because shes busy, seeing irl friends and dating this guy who she's been messing with. But in the end...isn't that my point?

I am older, and wiser but it doesn't always mean i'm right.

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The start of the end

So for the past 2 years or so, i've been suffering from various degrees of depression. BUT it's all changing, i'm slowly but surely getting back into shape, I'm heading back to uni, I even have a bit of money! So, i started this tumblr to post not only things that interest me but to for somewhere i can post crap about how i'm trying to escape depression and so on! Hope you like random crap, because that should be my middle name!

Peace