I am just allowing myself to be an emotional human today!
I stood up to my racist and sexist biological grandad today! And man I am proud of that, but at the same time I feel so ashamed at the fact that I could feel everyone else just looking at me like it was inappropriate of me to even have a discussion with him! Like I shouldn’t stand up for what I believe in!
I never have slightly heated discussions with people, I usually or have always just nodded and pretended to agree with them to keep the peace!
I guess I just wish that at the end of the day someone would have said : man that was brave and I haven’t seen you like this before, but it’s so healthy and good to see you sand up for yourself, it looks like you are moving in a good direction with your heeling!
Instead I was met by disappointment and disagreeing looks!
So it makes sense that my own personal victory feels like a shameful and non victory victory 😢
Man life and emotions and people mostly can suck sometimes