when it's cold i'd like to die

millie bobby brown. 22. actress & 19th century detective.

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[finnwolfhcrd]

@milliebubbybrown

[milliebubbybrown]

it's been 84 years... well, maybe not quite that long, but it's getting close. how much longer am i supposed to wait before i get to see your face again? i thought we'd agreed we were in this whole "best friends for life" thing together. whatever it is that's keeping us away from each other, fuck it, i think it's about time we fixed it. ( @shawnsmendess )

[milliebubbybrown]

millie: i've always wondered what retirement actually feels like when you've spent practically your entire life chasing the next match, the next tournament, the next goal. does it hit you all at once, or is it more like waking up one day and realising you don't have to check a training schedule anymore? i imagine there's a strange mix of relief and "what on earth do i do with all this free time?"( @limelightalex )

[milliebubbybrown]

natty ice! i miss you terribly. weren't we saying this was supposed to be our summer? where's all that energy we had when we were making plans? isn't it called a hot girl summer? because i'd just like to know... where exactly is my hot girl summer? i was promised sunshine, spontaneous trips, festivals, late-night yapping sessions... instead, i'm left missing you. i think it's about time we fixed that before summer slips away from us and we have to start making autumn plans instead. ( @natalicdyer )

[milliebubbybrown]

look, i know what happens to rhaenyra in the books... but what are the chances you all managed to talk ryan condal out of killing off both rhaenyra and daemon? i remember reading that daemon's body was never actually found, so hear me out... what if rhaenyra somehow doesn't burn, daemon finds her, and they both disappear off to essos? they leave everything behind, build a quiet little life together somewhere no one would ever think to look, and grow old together. i mean... that sounds like a perfectly reasonable ending to me. i'd happily accept that version and pretend the rest never happened. ( @darcyze )

[milliebubbybrown]

millie: i genuinely love seeing photos of you, jack, and the baby out and about. that's the kind of life i aspire to have one day. not to romanticise any relationship, but yeah. any chance you'd consider adopting me? i promise i'm house-trained, i'll happily babysit whenever you need me to, and i'll never complain if i'm asked to join family walks or sunday breakfasts. i feel like i'd fit in well. ( @scoirse )

[milliebubbybrown]

millie: okay, but can we just take a moment to acknowledge how ridiculously beautiful you are? it's actually becoming a bit of a problem for the rest of us. so offensive, miss. ( @bcllchcdid )

[milliebubbybrown]

i just found out you started out as a child actor, so either it's true, which absolutely blows my mind to no end, or google has successfully fooled me once again. i'm hoping it's the former, because i'd genuinely love to hear what that experience was like from your perspective. as someone who also grew up in this industry, i'm always fascinated by how different everyone's journey ends up being. what did you love about it? is there anything you wish someone had told you when you were younger? despite sharing the label of "child actor," no two stories ever seem to be the same. and if google has completely stitched me up and none of this is true... then just pretend i never said any of that and keep this part instead: i absolutely adore you, and clearly i need to stop believing everything the internet tells me. ( @pcrkminjus )

[lisasmanobals]

okay, so serious question, millie... are we ever going to meet up and have that sleepover we talked about ages ago? we're both busy and i think we need a night to just forget about all that and have a few drinks. maybe gossip a little, but not too much. i just want to know what's happening in your life. [ @milliebubbybrown ]

[milliebubbybrown]

don't even joke about it, because i've been thinking the exact same thing. i think we're long overdue one. and yes, there will definitely be gossip, only the responsibly curated kind. i want the proper catch-up too. i really, really want to know what's really been going on in your world. so let's stop talking about it and actually make it happen before one of us gets whisked off for god knows how long.

[jambower]

what? how exactly are you going to ban me from future birthday parties when i'll be standing at your front door with the saddest lost puppy face you've ever seen? i don't think you'll be able to say no for very long. i'm glad to hear that, though. i always worry about you because i need to make sure you're getting enough rest and more importantly, that you're happy. i'm everywhere these days! one minute i'm in milan walking a runway, the next i'm on a stage singing a few songs. i like being busy, sometimes it's exhausting, but i enjoy having different things to focus on and new challenges to throw myself into.

[milliebubbybrown]

i'll just hand your photo to security and tell them to keep an eye out for you. problem solved. although... i suppose i probably couldn't resist that tragic little lost puppy face for very long. i'd make you stand outside for at least thirty seconds before letting you in, just to make it look like i meant business. i love you for that, mate. that's exactly why you're my favourite. thanks for always checking in on me. i promise i'm looking after myself, getting enough rest where i can, and most importantly, i'm genuinely happy. and oi, save some jobs for the rest of us, will you? i do admire it, though. i think that's one of the things i like most about you, you never seem content standing still.

[oliviarfm]

They're calling you names? Ridiculous. I love how fun you are in interviews. Clearly they don't know what the fuck they're on about. I've been loving it, of course. I'm just happy to know that I remain your top artist - even if it wasn't explicitly said. It's a spot that I'm coming for every year. I mean, there is a lot of food that Brits do so much better than Americans... and chocolate is for sure one of them. Why have a Hershey's when you can have a Cadbury? Of course nothing will beat a Milka but Cadbury any day. Only one of your favorites and not the favorite? I hope you just heard my heart shattering into a million pieces. How am I meant to go on?

[milliebubbybrown]

some people thought it was hilarious, others called me rude, and a few started saying i hate louis now... a load of rubbish. i'm just a girl trying to have a bit of fun. if he'd made the exact same joke to me, nobody would've batted an eye. oh babe, i had to say taylor. imagine the look on his face if i'd said olivia instead. he was putting so much effort into naming every pop girl under the sun without landing on you that i almost felt bad for him... almost. i decided to be merciful in the end. aw, no no, don't make me choose between all my favourite people 'cause at this point i have more american friends than british, liv, please! but admitting to british food being superior earns you enough bonus points to keep your place very, very safe.

[sadlesink]

Millie, don't talk that into existence. You might jinx us and that would be a disaster when I have already decided we're both free for the foreseeable future. So, you already know how this is going to go. Once I have you in my arms, I'm refusing to step away. Who needs to work anyway? I should just follow you around gor the rest of our lives. That's what I always love the most about our friendship, even the smallest moments feel significant. I know I'll have more fun lounging around with you for hours than I would going to some huge elaborate event with anyone else. You're my day one for a reason and nothing could ever change that. Okay, okay, I'm on my way. You always did thrive off bullying that man. I mean, you treat him like a brother, so I expect nothing less.

[milliebubbybrown]

babes, i loved seeing you at the match! can't believe it happened way before we had anticipated, seeing each other i mean. i really thought we were gonna drag this 'i wanna see you' and 'i wanna see you too' until the end of our lives. my heart is still in pieces, i still can't wrap my head around argentina taking that final away from us! but oh well, all the luck in the world to spain bringing the cup home! when you're done being busy with the press tour... or, you know, with a certain english boy, you know where to find me. come see me, and don't let go like you already promised!

[alycicdebncm]

It really is the ultimate test of affection when bizarre midnight thought starter translates directly to how much one can love another. Paul is out here living the dream. Honestly, if you can't share your most unhinged, deeply flawed philosophical breakthroughs with your person, what is even the point of partnership? Please consider this my official vote in favor of the experiment. We have to do it now you said it. The world deserves to know this kind of info. I am fully prepared for this beautiful disaster that leaves everyone involved slightly pink but thoroughly entertained. Which part of the experiment we doing or we just jumping straight into the deep end of the weirdness?

[milliebubbybrown]

i'm convinced that's the secret clause in every successful relationship. if you can look someone dead in the eye and say, "listen, i've just had the dumbest thought imaginable," and instead of judging you they lean in and go, "go on," you've basically won. paul's just out there enjoying premium relationship benefits. i appreciate the confidence you've placed in this incredibly scientific study. well, first we do need to come up with some weird thought at 2:00 a.m., i don't know about you but my mind doesn't always create those... it really depends. then we record it, we gotta be as explicit as possible 'cause i know it won't make sense at all, we'll be embarrassed to death and just delete all evidence.

[huddywillams]

rip to my homie eleven. i'm shocked you aren't complaining more about it. if i were you, every media site and person within a five mile radius would've heard my bitching and moaning by now. are you still close to the duffers or did you delete those contact numbers as soon as those credits started rolling in december? thank you, thank you. lying is my strongest skill so i'm happy to be putting it to some use here. what's that saying? you live long enough to see yourself become the villain or something. that's what's happening.

[milliebubbybrown]

rip indeed. she was a good one. i complain... just not where everyone can see it. besides, i don't really need to say much. apparently my face does all the talking for me whenever someone brings it up. and yes, they're all still in my contacts... i definitely haven't moved them all to the bottom by putting a "z" in front of their names. that would be ridiculous... or have i? i keep them there just in case one day i get a very important call saying, "good news, we've changed our minds, eleven's alive and well, come and shoot a film with us." maybe i should block them instead so they can experience a fraction of my pain. and you... i leave you alone for five minutes and suddenly you're embracing your evil origin story. i'm not sure i approve, although i suppose every good story needs one.

[finnwolfhcrd]

Not with you. I care way too much for that. No, I totally get it. The ending for El was fucked and I'm still not happy you had to film that. I cried so hard at that stupid script reading and believe me, people have memed my ugly crying face to death. I'm sorry you had to go through that, but it's nice you got to play Enola with a happy ending. You never fail to bully that man and you know what? He's my friend, but I'm totally here for it. Vancouver, definitely. I wish I could skip ahead in time, but I can be patient if I have to be. See how I know all your weaknesses? I pay attention. The tea will be at your full disposal, don't worry about that. Anything to keep that smile on your face. Someone has to remind the rest of you that I'm still around. I could be on my deathbed and I would still update the groupchat to annoy you all. Well, I'm all in too. I can't keep waiting for something to happen. Empty texts that we never follow through with will be a thing of the past. I'm really looking forward to seeing you again. Aww, that's so cute, you think you could embarrass me. Little do you know, seeing you sing my songs warms my otherwise cold heart. Now you're just fishing for compliments. Let them fall naturally, Mills. You know I'm terrible at keeping quiet. They're bound to slip out eventually. Winnie's a little diva. She knows what to do to capture the hearts of the world. Let her live her life. She's not harming anyone.

[milliebubbybrown]

noted. i'll be keeping that one in my back pocket in case i ever need to cash it in. at least they didn't have the camera on you in a full close-up during the table read... i'm pretty sure i'm the one who became a meme. thank you for being there with me through all of it. considering mike was probably the one who suffered the most because of her, i really couldn't have asked for a better person to go through it all with. it's funny that you know every single one of my weak spots. you've known me for far too long for it to be any other way. let's not start talking about deathbeds just yet. we've still got many, many years of putting up with you rambling in the group chat ahead of us... and i wouldn't have it any other way. we really do have to leave all that behind now and actually start following through on what we keep saying. no more missing each other. well... no more you avoiding me. i'm holding you to that. you say that now, but wait until i'm in the crowd enthusiastically butchering your songs while everyone around me wonders why they paid for tickets just to hear me instead of you. that's the moment you'll be trying to have security escort me out. of course i'm fishing for compliments, it's what i do, have we met? but fine, i'll let them come naturally... besides, i do a pretty good job complimenting myself already. everyone else's just carries a bit more weight. i'll be patiently waiting for the next time one accidentally slips out. winnie is living exactly the life she deserves. out of my sixty-something animals, she's absolutely one of the favourites, and definitely the most spoiled. nobody can say she doesn't have everything she could ever want.

[lilyjcms]

I'm willing to agree to that. No need to argue when we can settle on such a lovely sentiment. I refuse to acknowledge that there could be a world in which we don't know each other. That just feels too cruel to be a reality I want to exist in. I agree wholeheartedly. It stops being just a role when you've built a life for yourself around it. For you, Stranger Things wasn't a TV show, it became a family and that's hard to let go. I know how much you loved Eleven and that ending was honestly one of the most brutal things I've ever witnessed. I'm just so sorry you felt so alone with your emotions. Please, don't ever feel silly for feeling something, it's far better than the alternative of being emotionally stunted. See, I think it's everyone else who's lucky to have you in their lives. I wouldn't want to live mine any other way than to have you close at all times.

[milliebubbybrown]

forever grateful to james corden for putting you in my way. i genuinely can't imagine an alternate universe where either of us ended up paired with someone else. our mutual love for the spice girls really did unite us, and i love that for us. it really was a family, and i think it always will be. there's a reason i've tried so ridiculously hard to keep those friendships alive even though we've all gone off in different directions and are doing different things now. i want nothing but the best for every single one of them... although, to be fair, the best they can have is obviously me, so they do have to keep me in their lives. i'm kidding, i'm kidding... mostly. i still mourn eleven. i still get a little emotional when i think about saying goodbye to her, but at the same time i know i'm healing. i can finally look back with more gratitude than sadness, and i think that's a really nice place to be. and lily... you're the most beautiful flower in my garden, okay? i love you.

[sadlesink]

How is this possible? Feels so surreal to me to know neither of us are buried with work. Life always finds a way to bring us back together. Forget any other responsibilities that might come my way, I'm currently looking at flights and it won't be long until I can give you the biggest hug. I don't know how I ever survived this long without one. We don't need to go big at all. So long as you're around, I know that whatever we decide to do, I'm going to have the best time with you. I miss you too. How was press though? Are you glad you're finally done?

[milliebubbybrown]

yeah but i'm not celebrating too early in case someone decides to schedule something, but right now i'm choosing to believe this is actually happening. the thought of seeing you again has genuinely put me in the best mood. i'm already preparing myself for one of those hugs where neither of us lets go for an unnecessarily long amount of time. i've missed you so much, sades. and you're right, we don't need some elaborate plan. nothing too exciting will happen but it'll still end up being one of my favourite weekends of the year. just hurry up and get here already, will you? i'm tired of only getting to hug you through a phone screen. it was great, are you kidding? i got to annoy louis for days... my favourite hobby.